I made it through my toughest challenge yet 
Supping on a celebratory strawberry milkshake 
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Day 60 alcohol and 10 cocaine. I feel a little better today, I was having a hard time wanting to use again yesterday. But I just laid back and listened to that sober guy podcast for like 5 hours. I put a new washing machine in with my step dad, while they were gone I moved the like 200 pound washing machine down my stairs and outside all by myself. My mom was like why did you do it by yourself and I just needed it I needed that conquer.
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Day 911
Super tired. I ended up getting a surprise visitor yesterday, a close friend of mine was in town. It was great to see him, we just talked and talked. We both clearly had a lot to get off our chests. We shared some good words but it was a mostly serious discussion and I’m emotional drained.
I was still able to spend an hour or so in my favourite book shop, went for Thai food ,and had a really good yoga session this afternoon.
Good weekend, but I’m toast. 
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Day 119.
7.02 am.
9 degrees.
I jumped on the scales this morning and ive put on 3kgs the past few weeks @CATMANCAM Tyler I understand the whole “new week new start” kinda vibe. Ive been eating everything in sight these past few weeks. Its taken its toll and today on this new Monday morning, the beginning of the last day of winter, I am getting serious about over consuming… It stops today.
Today is day one of my eating clean plan 
I think il make a new additional counter for it 
But first, coffee 
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I had about ten days before 90 where I was sooo bored!!!.. didn’t really know what to do, just kept doing meetings,went on here,Did some colouring in, didn’t wanna pick up alcohol but I didn’t really know what else to do…picked up a pen and did some step work,just got through it as best I could really… Learning to sit with myself without doing anything was a frustration and an annoyance!!..it was like having an invisible war with myself 
…go easy on yourself is the words I hear …all in good time,it’s a journey not a race,.you’re doing great Mike,. Every day clean is to be grateful for, and sending a grateful list to a sponsor every night keeps mind of the positive things and on reflection I notice where HP was , so it’s hope that HP is gonna be there daily, . Step two stuff innit…restore to sanity.green and gold Na book was good for answering.
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Hopefully this link works,this daily thread is awesome, and the keep it simple bit about the kid making cookies except mother got the ingredients etc, is HP stuff…
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Carry on zzz , we’ll all be here… Day by Day
@Lisa07 … Big hug from the sleeping queen here and a big up from me !!
@John1990 triplets… Way to go bro
@Girlinterrupted … B ? How is life there? As wel as for @DLS ? Ya both safe and sound?
Bless …
@mleclaire … Big whoooop and shout out to you , friggin awsome 900 days !!!
Further a quick check out. Had a long day, music things, making dinner for friends and have another couple coming over later…
It made me realise that I should not be alone anymore … But it has been like over like 2… no, Wayyyy over 2 years , almost 3 that I was in a relationship and never dated since…
Still wrapping my mind over what would be good… But just that feeling to have a partner to share, care and have all kinds of moments with …i love my freedom, sober living and I really am not looking for whatso_ever … But then when I see all my friends together , family stuff etc etc blabla I can’t denie that I miss certain things…
Well that’s it for now. Weekend is over. Another day , another step.
Love you folks… I really do !!! Be safe
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Joooost! You’re such a sweetheart, you’ll find someone that’s just right for you and will honor your big heart! 
Im doing really good here; I’m moving into an awesome apartment this week!! I’m sooo excited! It’s super nice and lots of room.
No urges to drink and have gone out a few times to see music or to eat.
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Day 3. I’m having a bit of a rough go of it but I’m still kinda proud of myself because I passed by two of the liquor stores here in town like 4 times today while running errands and didn’t stop. It was hard, but I just looked the other way and kept on going.
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I am glad you are proud, those are not easy things to do during the first couple weeks. The first ten days were brutal for me, a lot of them were taken hour by hour and some days I even had to go min by min.
I remember clearly hopping on here and making a thread after grocery shopping. I sitting in my car in the parking lot, begging for guidance because I didn’t think I would make it home past all the pubs. I made it home sober that day because I got a ton of support here, I couldn’t have done it alone. Don’t hesitate to reach out if your urges are so bad… together we are stronger.
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You should be proud. You’re starting to build new habits and making it this far is a big deal. Keep it up 
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Thank you both. It’s really been brutal. I’m literally doing what you said. Minute by minute hour by hour. It was so hard not to stop. I feel like I’m going crazy and I sleep like crap. I constantly pace and it’s driving me insane.
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Day 72. I cleaned up and organized the garage this weekend, so I feel pretty productive. Def glad to be sober tonight. Looks like my MIL might be coming up next weekend to visit for a while. That will be Adventures in Triggerland. We will deal with that when it comes. Have a great sober and clean night /day wherever you are.
@Clarity I hope your daughter is feeling better soon. Sick kiddos are never fun.
Hope the antibiotic treatment helps and your hubby is on the mend quickly @Lisa07.
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Ok Im up, having my coffee and Im sober. Hard getting up, did not have a good sleep, hard time falling asleep last nigth. But I did wake sober at least
@Truckinmonster21 Im sorry to hear that and I know that feeling so good my self, Just wanting to have something to relaxe with. If the tought Come again dont let it just be with the tought to come in here, Do it! Did you stop at that 2one? And yes, tomorrow is a new day, dont keep going with the beer, keep going on your soberpath.
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She’s already in an accommodation that was meant to be supportive and giving her the care. It’s not helped her one bit the lockdown also has not helped!
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In those early days I had to keep my hands busy. Diamond Art was my savior, they are realitively inexpensive and easy to do. Amazon has some kits if you are interested.
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Welcome Kim. Congratulations on your 3 days. As I’m sure you been told that first week is a son of a bitch. I did 2 power walks a day with my music cranked up loudly. Spent a lot of time with Eminem. I was pretty angry I couldn’t drink like a normie. And I took 2 showers a day. I never shower in the afternoon. But I was taking really long hot showers before dinner or in the evening to relax. Sometimes 30 minutes long. Then some nice sparkling water in my favorite wine glass. And I cleaned house. A LOT.
Hang in there.
Keep checking in.
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Thank you @Wakikki I actually pour the other one down my sink I’ll come back tomorrow when I’m of sober mind 
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D390 of recovering
D5 - No Nicotine
The sneaky ninja of addiction is still playing havoc with my sleep and I’ve got zero appetite for anything except sweets!!! (seriously why!)
It can’t just be simple can it ohhhh noooo!
Why can’t I simply quit something, why does my bloody brain decide if I can’t have that, I want this as a replacement!
Excuse my language but my brain is being a dick and I don’t know how many times I can fall out with myself…
Me: I’m not talking to you brain
Brain: sugar, sugar, sugar Suuuugggggaaarrr!
Today I already have declared my brain is a jackass!
I hope you all have a joyous day staying clean as that’s what’s important!
I leave you with what my brain is simply telling me: when does the shop open as I WANT… Sweets 
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