I hope and pray the counseling helps Michelle. And it’s so good you got all those ODAAT to lean on and continue no stay sober AF.
I hope tomorrow is a better day for you. Or at least less worse. Take care of you 
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So happy to read this post Michelle, I am glad you are getting some more tools. I am here to tell you that your needs are very important and although you feel like they don’t matter they matter a lot.
Big hugs
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Glad you asked for help Michelle, that’t always a good (but difficult) thing to do. Is there a long waiting list? Hope not! Here in the Netherlands it is 
Take care lady, you are worth it!
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Alcohol day 1071
Sugar day 4
Shopping day 4
Seen my addictions? ASS 
Well let’s kick it today!!
Last day of my holiday. Entered the work apps again, so messages are floating in.
Hope I can hold on to the “holidayfeeling” for a while. I’m so much more relaxed right now. My work is very important to me and I want to be “in control” to much. I have to loosen up. I’m afraid to make mistakes, wanna be perfect. I know I’m just insecure and I do not need to be but I am.
I’m 2 different people. When you do not know me you see a self confidence middelaged woman, rugged look (hope I found the right translation 
), tattooed all over, extavert personallity.
But when you know me I’m soft, weakhearted, sweet and incesure.
Maybe I choose to look how I look to protect myself? To hide myself?
Believe me: I like the way I look!
I always looked different then the “rest”, but I think there is a reason for it as well.
It would be nice to mix those 2 personalities a bit.
Challenge, but I think that would help me.
Picture from me and my buddy doing our morning ritual: Coffee, cuddles and TS.
Have a good day TS friends!
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That’s the best way to start the day right there. He’s so handsome. 
Kick ASS Claudia
And goodnight 
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- In between my first and second coffees. Weather looks decent enough. Going on a little bike ride exercise to try and calculate my maximum heart rate in a bit. And have to contact my bestie since we didn’t talk for two weeks and I don’t even know for sure why. Can’t get myself to call her as I don’t know what to say. Will write something now. That’s enough to do for me today while on staycation.
I had a good one yesterday with a walk through town and a visit to my two favourite buildings here, the Portuguese Synagogue and the Oude Kerk. Did some mindfulness exercises in both, exercises Siand gave me the link to that I don’t do daily but getting into them more. Loved it. Recovery Dharma: TS Sangha 2021 - #32 by siand
Have a good one my friends, or at least as good as you all can. Make it sober and clean. ODAAT. Love from Amsterdam.
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Buts, you are beautiful and your kitty cat is adorable. He is hanging on to this moment. . . Those claws! Love this!
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Day 28. It’s 2 am and waking up after 2 hours of sleep like I have been at this hour for weeks. Sleep is horrible and I’m terribly irritable for the second day in a row.
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Thank you! 
Those claws messes up my couch, but still love him
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I suffered similar for years. It got so bad I could barely function at work or at home.
I hope it recovers quickly for you.
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Thank you! Me too. It’s getting old. I’m sure it has to do with quitting alcohol and nicotine and it will pass but after weeks of this I think it’s starting to make me unpleasant.
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It can be torture.
What can you do to help?
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Turn off my phone -_- haha. Ty. zzZzz ~ I hope.
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Haha yeh that can help!
Good night
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Good morning friends, day 284!
Had another night of strange dreams, but this time it didn’t involve college. I was somehow involved in a murder and I was being arrested. I don’t think I took part in the actual act, but was headed to prison anyway. The dream was so real. I resigned myself to my life being over as I knew it. I hadn’t yet told my family…and then I woke up! I was so relieved to wake up and discover everything was normal.
That was a close one.
Anyway…
Have an awesome day! I am going to do mine sober!
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Good morning Charlie! I think there’s been a lot of us having strange dreams lately, weird huh??? Glad you’re not in prison lol have a great day!!!
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Day 439 clean and sober today. Up early and excited about going to work today. Got my homework done for the week on my last two days off. I love having days off during the week as assignments are due Friday and Saturday at midnight. It gives me the time needed to do this. I hope everyone has a fantastic day today, love you guys!!! 
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You seem to be having stress dreams, Charlie. Is there something troubling you? Being implicated in a murder is a classic stress dream.
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Good job sis that’s awesome for you to reach out to the doctors, you’re going to kick this in the ass!!! Proud of you always!!!
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Hey all, checking in on day 437. Happy to be here with you guys for another day. Have a great one guys.
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