You’re showing your courage and strength by being here, by being accountable and sharing. Despite your feelings of shame. That’s true courage. Nobody has the right to judge you because you used. Not even you yourself. You do need to learn from what happen I agree. I hope being here helps. Glad you are here Mel. Glad you are feeling a bit better. Glad you slept well.
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Very sorry for your loss Carlos. You keep doing the right thing friend. For you and maybe help some others in the process.
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Checking in on day 15
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Second check in. It’s been a tough day, I don’t know what happened to me. The waves of depression and anxiety were so strong that I were literally shaking inside and felt nauseous. Now I got out of bed, taking one hour at a time, although I lost all my motivation to hang on.
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Today I feel utterly gutted, gutted that I couldnt control my tourettes, tired that sometimes even though I know whole heartily that substances would not of been the answer but a magical pill to halt all those sensory reaction would not be part of me…
I took @Ravikamor to the airport, I had pushed myself to getting on a plane to go to Belfast and then, tiredness, fire in my brain, constant repeative itch thats in my head sending these pluses and words to project out of me when I really wish I was fucking normal that I didn’t have this fucking problem…
I am super proud of the 4 days of minimal issue…
Just wish today
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Im sorry for your lost. 
@anon53116147 sorry for another loss, sending strength 
@JLove congrats on 2 weeks 
@anon9289869 congrats on your soberversary 
@Its_me_Stella congrats on 19 months
@Freeyourmind congrats on 8 months
@Girlinterrupted congrats on your PB with the ED 
@claire-lo congrats on your promotion I hope your arm heals well
@liv_m good luck with the health stuff 
glad you finally got some sleep 
@CNevarezN sorry for your loss
354 days no alcohol.
322 days no cocaine.
11 days no binge-eating.
3 days no nicotine.
Really feeling the nicotine withdrawals now. Nausea, dizzyness, fatigue, hungrier than ever, that feeling I hate of ‘needing something’ that’s all too familiar when trying to cope without any substance at all. I have been eating more than usual, I expected that but I don’t want to end up bingeing.
Had an appointment about MBT group therapy today, though I have to chose between that and the psychodynamic psychotherapy, can’t do both. Since I don’t do well in groups, I feel the latter would benefit me more. Maybe somewhere down the line MBT might become an option again.
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Definitely! You are definitely moving in the right direction. The universe has deemed it so. 
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Checking in on day 476. Sober is good 
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Today is my 37th day sober, I look back and wish I would have taken the steps to get sober so much sooner but I’m so grateful that I found it at all. It’s amazing what you don’t realize you’ve missed from your life until your actually coherent enough to see 
But I count my blessings daily I couldn’t be happier I am at we’re I am
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409 days. Didn’t make it to the meeting last night as I layed down for a bit and ended up sleeping for like four hours and returned to bed shortly thereafter. Would have loved to just stay in bed this morning and hide from the world. Trying to keep it together today as I came into work to deal with more nonsense from my coworker; I will not be returning to work Tuesday unless this bullshit is dealt with. I’m trying to prepare myself for a weekend of saying goodbyes to my cousins and trying to let go of the anger that I’m making this trip alone. Today will be another day taken one hour at a time. Not sure if I’m on the teetertotter or the merry-go-round but I’d be happy to get the fuck off anytime soon. Not going to drink because I don’t drink but screaming at the top of my lungs will be needed by day’s end.
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Day 6, checking in sober. Monday will be my anniversary of having a meltdown and quitting drinking. I’m coming out of a 10 week booze relapse now. Wish Monday was going to be my 1st year sober anniversary but such is life! Onwards!
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Hello. I’m back to the community 
I’ve been away for a while but I’m willing to make a great change in my life. Day 1
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Been a lil bit since checking in but here, busy, clear headed and ready to hit 12 weeks sober tomorrow morning! I rarely think about drinking these days. In the gym 6 days a week and training for a half-marathon while prepping for a 3rd financial license. Would NEVER have been able to balance this stuff, work, and a balanced home life with the wife and 4 kids while in active alchloholism. Very grateful for the program and you good people. Happy Friday!
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Checking in, 6 days. I made it the day, and ohh today was a hard one. Wine was all on my mind all day. Soberday today 
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I’ve been reminding myself that my problem with alcohol is not my fault, but if I ever have a hangover, (or better yet a shameover) again… that’s entirely my doing.
Everyday mantra, “today i will not drink.”
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- Good day. Went fishing off a peer with my brother and 2 of my kids. They caught crabs. I caught three Pollock with feathers. First time I caught anything sea fishing. Other than a sea Gull which I caught a few years ago. Seriously… it was fucking huge.
It’s still one day at a time here. The good days are nice and the bad ones pass.
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Day 96.
7.22am.
12 degrees.
Mother earth is happy today. It will be 17 degrees today yay that’s amazing compared to the 1 degree mornings we have been having. I’m already thinking about my summer wardrobe 
First morning waking up with botox (dysport) Even though it takes a few days to kick in, I already notice a difference. I don’t look so tired. If anyone else has experience with dysport on here, let me know how you went with your first experience… And I’m just so proud of the addict in me for saving enough money for this treatment and I still have a decent amont of money left in my savings… Sober tings got me all responsible and adulting 
impressive 
Over the past few days I’ve applied for a ton of jobs. At least 50. I just went manic on seek the app and applied for anything and everything. Its kinda addictive to be honest applying for jobs, it gives you some kind of an exciting feeling when you get call backs and interviews… Something I’ve never really experienced often before… It makes you feel good when you feel worthy and valued…
I’ve had no triggers urges or cravings the past few days, I feel good 
Today I’m going out to do Saturday things… Coffee, get my brows and nails did…a spot of shopping… look for a new pillow to buy coz I be doing ninja karate at night with my current pillow trying to get it floofed bed ninja fights with the linen and pillow be exhausting
@Tinele lizzie almost at a week
@Hollz don’t look back, we only have today 
37 days is strong
@CATMANCAM your doing really well, keep going
@CNevarezN Carlos sorry for your loss
@Singtone tony music is your ears when your walking is the best!! Your always in a good mood with music on 
@liv_m Mel I’m thinking about you and sending you hugs. Your strong
@Nordique nature is a HUGE part of my life and recovery really. I needs it everyday
@claire-lo congrats on the promotion!
@icebear drew happy b day daughter !
@MrsOdh I hope you bought a pink case for your new phone
So last night I had hectic dreams and I remembered them as soon as I woke up.
Like interdimensional dreams. I was not on the earth or dimension. It envoled a baby brown snake that fit into the palm of an unknown persons hand who was speaking to me at the front door of where I lived. The snake changed color on touch… 
But now first coffee…
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Just checking in sober. Another day of feeling the feels. Take care fam
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Wow that’s weird April I had gnarly dreams last night too! In part of my dream a skunk without stripes came up to me as I was sitting cross legged and tried to lick my face. It then stretched its front legs out on my lap, laid down and I proceeded to rub his back lol. Really weird!
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