Struggling this afternoon…not sure why I’m tearing up and anxious. Nearing 10 days. This is very challenging. Feeling very alone.
Hope everyone is going strong X
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I know the feeling.
You are not alone.
Good job reaching out!
I’m learning to get better at that.
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That was rather poetic T…
Grand string of 24’s too.
Day 1048 
Goodmorning, not in a good place mentally but it shall pass. It has to.
The only thing that is helping right now is walking in nature to clear my mind so that’s what I do when I have the time for it.
Tomorrow I’m going to make a citytrip with a friend. Maybe that helps a bit. One night in a hotel. Going to shop and visit a museum.
I wish I could find my “happy button”
Picture from a walk yesterday.
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Your picture makes me happy @SoberWalker … hope this will be a better day for you.
I’m bummed and disappointed in me.
Had bad lightning around for 6 hours on and off. After a few hours I decided to open the dreaded little box of 8 cookies that are 170 calories apiece. Was just going to eat half of one and then put the rest of them in the freezer. So then I got one out that was frozen microwaved it and it melted all over the place. I got another one out microwaved it. Ate it. I should’ve drowned them. They’re evil. I don’t have hardly any sugar. And I can’t just eat one. I ended up eating five. That’s 5 x 170.
I enjoyed some of it. But I did feel like it was not the right thing to do. I should not be getting comfort from these cookies that I have a history of eating a lot of. After I finish I ate two tortilla wraps Hoping it would soak up some of the transfats before it would go in my arteries. I added 500 calories to the days calories and will add 500 to the next days calories.
I should not buy them, I should not keep them in my house. I should never tell myself I can just have one. I can’t.
@everybody have a good day, So many of you having celebratory days, I’m happy for you, happy for all, for each one, each day sober/not using/ doing your “DOC”.
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218 days
Take care @Tomek hopefully see you soon
@anon83587935 huge congratulations on 1 year 
@John1990 thats where my head is want to experience new things to grab all the benefits of being sober, i am not good with heights but i loved it.
Good to see you back @Soundlab
Well done @Dazercat on your sober flight, another first ticked off.
Driving back from dropping my son off at uni, suddenly had a thought about red wine, think its because i had pre cooked a balti curry before i left and always had red wine with it… thought stayed with me the whole way back, found myself gripping tight my steering wheel. Went home not shop and put my pj’s on despite it only being 4pm, just so i would think twice about going out to shop. The craving was a annoying itch all eve i was really agitated. So went bed early. Feel ok this morning… i suppose it was old behaviour of drowning my sorrows manifesting itself. So thankful this morning no regrets and feeling like crap.
Today get ready for camping trip so shall be busy which is good. I can never get complacent, never.
Have a great day all.
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Congratulations on 1 year 
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Hang in there, keep talking and reaching out… The best part of your life is likely just to start?
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That’s what my weekend was like!! I had the 2nd shot on Friday and felt exhausted all weekend. I did nothing yesterday and felt the guilt of those wasted hungover weekends again. Hope you are feeling better now. I still feel a bit off today, but it’s probably just me feeling lazy and unenthusiastic on a Monday morning 
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Smashing it!!!
Big congrats on your year man, well done.
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Checking sober. 330 In the morning and can’t sleep, been like this for a while now with not being able to sleep. This is what I drew up for the guy, I’m not sure if I like the writing in the middle. I’m going to try the name a couple different ways. The guy said keep it basic, this is the most basic I could come up with. I can’t get to detailed bc fur and hair is really hard to tattoo. Hopefully he will like it, gonna try to sleep bc I’m taking my girls to a bounce house place a couple hours away, and then Tuesday were going to look at some caves. Much love
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- Coffee. New work week coming up. First I’ll go to the gym. I don’t really feel like it, but let’s practise some self discipline. Another thing I need to work next to avoiding avoidance. One day at a time. Sober and clean. Have as good a week as you all can friends. Love form Amsterdam, where, just like with @Mephistopheles in Helsinki, last night it felt like a bit of autumn’s in the air.
@anon83587935 Huge congrats Ethan! A full full year! Excellent work friend.
@Soundlab It’s good to see you Matt. ODAAT.
@Alisa Indeed don’t get 'm. And get rid of the ones you have.
@SoberWalker Enjoy trips in nature and city alike. They help. Good going.
@KellyKelly Glad you’re here. you are not alone.
@Dazercat You got this Eric. And Benson will have you soon enough. Hugs.
@anon53116147 Looking very nice Mike. Enjoy the time with your girls.
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@littlemisschatterbox , you are awesome! I check in everyday and bounce around and you are everywhere on here encouraging members. Thank you! I hope you get encouraged as much as you give!
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Just checking in and want to Wish you all a good Day 
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Starting day 26! It is this site & the awesome people who are doing it one day at a time that inspires me to stay it.
Thank you all! I am very grateful!
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Day 1 again 
. I almost didn’t come back and check in but I don’t want to resign myself to a life of misery just yet. I’ll get it one of these days, just got to keep trying I guess.
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True words. So glad you are OK. A serious reminder of the dangers of alcohol.
Yes, keep trying. I do believe if we keep trying it will happen. I don’t do a program, but many do. This site has helped so much. I am on day 150.
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