Yesterday was full of obstacles. Things kept getting thrown in my path that were more difficult than normal.
But on waking up this morning I had a moment to think and realised that I didnt once think about using yesterday amongst the carnage of a day. So that’s a win…
Woke up at 5.30am ready to start a new fresh day and as soon as I sat up in bed, all I could hear was video games being played and blasting through my walls. My noisy meth using neighbour is off there head and up all night playing video games and its so loud it comes right through my walls.
I knocked on her door and asked her to turn it down. She said OK… But she hasn’t. And its affecting me being able to meditate this morning.
This happens multiple times a week.
Im actively house hunting but in the mean time this really affects me in the mornings when I have my meditation time.
Anyways… Today is 100.
Ive gotta go to work in a few hours. I think il just leave early and go to the gym first.
10 days sober. Double digits again. Last time I got this far, I slipped. This time, I’ve kept myself so busy, I can no longer physically move. Early to bed tonight, and onto the next day.
Day 82 getting ready for our house dinner in my program . Going to work ,interacting with society and myself, coming home safe , showering caring about my looks again, and laughing omg laughing with the guys in this house and at work is insane it feels so good lol. Have good night/day everyone…
Six Months. Yay BUT still wanting to … . Trying to change that mindset. Perhaps it will always be there for me, time will tell. Hope everyone is doing well on their own journey. Hang in.
Checking in Day 2 without alcohol and Day 248 without weed. I’m not happy I slipped with alcohol but I am grateful that the small amount of alcohol I consumed made me physically ill. It reminded me that alcohol is a poison. I don’t need it or want it in my body. Had I not gotten sick, I might have kept rationalizing, kept taking sips on occasion, and ended up in a worse situation. The fact that this amount of gin made me throw up when I used to consume several strong drinks or lose track of the number of shots and not get sick is horrifying. I was putty by my body through such harm and damage. I never want to do that to myself again.
Also, I recently moved to a state where wine and alcohol are sold in the grocery store. I’ve seen people talk about this on the forum but I’ve never actually lived in a place where that happened. I feel sympathy for anyone recovering from alcohol who has to face this just when shopping for groceries. When I was a drinker I would have thought it was awesome…not so much anymore. Our society is obsessed with alcohol. Just let me buy my food in peace!
Day #1046. I’ve used this forum for several years and after a leave of absence, recently came back, and well… has the vibe here changed? Or is it me that has changed? Curious question.
Today is the day! This evening I get on a plane with my life packed into 3 suitcases and I move across Europe on my own. I’m unbelievably excited, and a little scared.
Almost 16 weeks ago I decided I was done with alcohol. Done with taking it too far. Done with regretting my behaviours. Done with wasting days of my life with a hangover. It’s been such an interesting and empowering journey so far. I’ve loved the pride that comes with learning to socialise, celebrate and deal with stress sober.
But, I’m very aware that the next few weeks will be incredibly challenging, that drinks with new friends will.be tempting, that I will be nervous to tell people I don’t drink and perhaps feel the need to explain (or over explain), that I will start dating again soon and everything that comes with that sober will be different.
But I don’t want to waste a minute there hungover, or regretting things I’ve said, or feeling unsafe and out of control, or kissing people I don’t really truly fancy because I’m lonely. I don’t want to dull or drown any of the amazing rollercoaster of.emotions that moving abroad will give me. I’m going to make sure I rise to the challenge. I owe it to myself.
Day by day. Today’s challenge: first time in an airport/flying alone. I will be ordering coffee instead of wine and starting it off right!
Wow I’m proud of you, feels like the other day you were on day 1, very happy to know you’re doing good April. Keep up your hard work and let the fire shine. Happy 100 days, don’t freeze in the snow
Day 367 - figuring out the next steps in my sobriety, working on the mental aspect and working on other negative things that are in my life. I suppose this is how it will be the rest of my life but hard work is bound to pay off hope everyone had a great day
I’ve been lurking lol and missing all you. Almost ready to post and dig in here like before.
Honestly I didn’t think I would be here right now. It’s only by the grace of God and the plans He still has for my life that I’m still here. I hope to share in details as time goes on what I went through…but for now it’s still fresh and I’m still processing all of it. Haven’t picked up but this was a bigger life challenge and scare that kept me distracted.
In the last month I went through all three waves of Covid…including delta. Doctors and staff told me I wouldn’t make it but God had bigger and better plans for me! I’m about 93% well. The cough is being stubborn lol but thank God I’m almost there.
Thinking, missing and thanking you guys for always being there. Either way. And no matter what. Talk soon
hope everyone had a great day
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