Thanks for sharing…I hope you aren’t beating yourself up too badly. One major slip up in 8 months is an amazing achievement. So good you’re so open about it and reflecting on the good and bad. 
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The fridge is (still) broken and S.O.'s daughter is (still) living with us (I haven’t bitched about that here…but have felt like it. 
). Cloudy weather. Super busy at work…BUT…
I am sober, I got up early for hot yoga, I have a yummy lunch, I have a job to go to…the list goes on.
Yay sober life!! 
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Thanks Dazercat! I’ve missed ya. Starting over feels a lot less daunting this time around. Comparing the feeling of the other night to the feeling of sobriety — well, being sober is definitely preferable. It’s where I want to be and that’s even more clear now. As it should be, it’s our natural state 
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Thanks so much! Trying to not beat myself up and just focus on moving forward. Well, reflecting on what happened but also moving forward. I don’t want tim I get stuck in feelings of guilt. It happened and I can’t change that now. What I can change is how I go from here and what choices I make in the future.
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Day 418 clean and sober today. Got my new schedule yesterday and I’m off today and tomorrow. The cool thing is that Friday and Saturday they are having me train over in Detox. Talk about being on the frontlines, this is where the battle begins. I’m hoping I will be able to give comfort and hope to the guys there. Have an amazing day today everyone, I love you guys!!! 
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Congratulations on your 100 April!!! 
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Day 376
Just went premium, I can’t believe how easy that was. Just a click of the button and no more ads. That’s one reason I wasn’t coming here as much. Problem solved. Just wish I had done it before my phone broke because I lost all my counters.
Let’s see, one more week on my moms farm then back to the real world. I have been soooo bad with the eating. My mom and her boyfriend are both overweight and eat bacon and eggs cooked in bacon grease every morning and home made ice cream and pie every night. I keep telling myself it’s better than drinking. I am still at a way better place than I was 1 year ago mentally and physically. Anyway, my kid wants to go find frogs so I guess that’s what I am doing today. Hope you all have a good sober day!
@Desire2ChangeToday I missed your 2 years!! Congrats girly, that’s AMAZING! 
@apes2020 Congrats on triple digits!
@Dazercat Glad to hear you are in good hands. 
@Chosen2001 Wow, what an incredible story. Man, I am so glad you are okay!
@Rockstar24777 I almost missed you there with the new pic! Lol… Love it! Excited for your new job and detox sounds intense, you will do great! They are lucky to have you there.
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Day 20 with no alcohol
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Checking in at the end of day 213.
Not much to report here. School holidays are great, but huge covid restrictions in Singapore have really taken the edge off. Barely leaving the house. Going a bit stir crazy. Almost ready to go back to work….
I shouldn’t complain. I know I’m a lucky boy.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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Day 28… feeling pretty good. Not stressing as much stuff and for the most part the anxiety levels have been low. Trying to think 1 day at a time.
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Day 371
Air is still smoky and AQI still over 100 throughout northern Wisconsin but supposed to get a bit better starting this afternoon. Feeling calm this morning but I know that once I start work in a moment that will change. It’s going to be a busy week. But instead of drowning my sorrows at the end of the day I will do yoga and go to bed sober!
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Heyy everyone
Today will be 4 full days no alcohol pot or the gross k2
4 days ago I did all three within about 30min and got soooo sick. That was my wake-up call this time around
I don’t feel good today
I got my covid vaccine months ago so at least I know I most likely won’t die if I do have covid
I think it’s just a body cold
Have a blessed day
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Woooohoooo
100 days!!!
Super job April very happy for you.
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Happy to hear from you Chris and to know you are on the mend.
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Happy 100 days, April. It is good to see you every day progress. 
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Day 1004. Doing okayish today. Honestly I don’t want to think about my mood swings. Maybe I’ll get used to it somehow.
Work is, well, enough to do which is good. Only one stressful in the office in the production site who spreads negative energy. And my colleague stresses in return. This other colleague is the most awful person you can let alone. 
She is complaining all day and in return not working. Running between loo, smoking and eating she is changing clothes which is all working time. Soooo bad she cannot work but is present 8 hrs. 
Inhale, exhale. Grab the work. Work. Repeat tomorrow. Only 4 or 5 years of this bs to go.
Strange enough I was super concentrated during yoga today even during balance asanas.
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@icebear thank you 
I’m really glad you’re getting on well with your therapist 
@apes2020 congrats on triple digits 
I’m sorry you’re having issues with noise from your neighbours, I can relate to the frustration of dealing with that whilst trying to meditate because when I meditate in the afternoons before coming here, it’s so distracting when the teenager gang are hear shouting and blasting their music through my walls, some days I can channel it out but other times it’s so infuriating I want to cry. I hope it calms down for you 
@Iwebt congrats on double digits
@John1990 that all sounds so positive, congrats
@Pickles congrats on 6 months
@Its_me_Stella thank you they for sure are related, I agree, total dicks 
@Misokatsu thank you hang on tight we are nearly at our year
@Beforemy30s safe travels and good luck sent your way for new sober times and experiences
@Chosen2001 I’m so glad you’re recovering, it sounds like you’ve been through a lot, share when you’re ready
@Dazercat congrats on the serenity, it’s my favourite thing about sobriety too 
glad you made it through and you’ve got someone caring for you
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@Thirdmonkey sorry work has been so tough, I love your attitude though, you always sound like you’re dealing with stuff head on, congrats to that
@anon9289869 sorry about the air, I really hope it does improve I loved the rhyme at the end of your post
@Noshame feel better soon congrats on 4 days
@anon74766472 sorry about your colleague, it sounds like they may be struggling with something. Glad you’re feeling more okay today
@littlemisschatterbox feel better soon
359 days no alcohol.
327 days no cocaine.
I binged on yum yums this morning so starting again with the eating disorder behaviours, any time I stray off plan I will reset, that now includes any take aways too, if I’m not strict with myself, I behave negatively towards my health, so time to tighten the reigns.
I didn’t manage to exercise today because I was waiting all day for a phonecall back from a doctor. They didn’t call til 4pm and by then I was too tired as I’ve been awake since 4:30am.
I restarted to take my pain and anxiety medication today, and I do feel better for it already. I haven’t taken anything stronger than paracetamol or ibuprofen since October last year, so it feels like a failure but I’ve never abused them. I can tell I’ve taken something though, I feel like my head is levitating above me somewhere, hopefully that’s just a temporary side effect, I never felt like that during the many years I previously took them.
I made some other phonecalls that I’ve been putting off and now have a Podiatry appointment tomorrow afternoon about my feet, my hope is minimal but still somewhat alive, we shall see.
I opted in for the long term psychdynamic psychotherapy rather than the MBT so that decision is made.
I also applied for a job today 
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