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My vacuum cleaner broke. I’m debating with myself whether to fix it or get a new one. I’m handy in many ways but not with mechanics or building shit. Still, I decided to give it a go, and made such a rookie mistake 
Famous last words:
“It’s just a bit of super glue, who needs protective gloves for that??” 
Won’t come as a surprise that my vacuum cleaner is still broken, ugh.
Just doing a quick check in. Idk what to say,I’m still tired alot, grouchy here and there. Girls are wild, feel like a bad dad alot. I’m grateful for alot but it doesn’t stop these feelings from coming in. So far 5 different ppl have messaged me for tattoos, so I’m booked for a good couple days and you think that would make me happy. Yeah much love everyone
There is a country song, and the lyrics (may not be 100% accurate) go something like: when you are going through hell, keep on moving…you might just get out of it without anyone noticing
Woke up at 5.30am no alarm. I’m slowly getting out of sloth mode and back to waking up before sunrise. I feel so much better this morning. Its quite. There is no noise 
But I bought myself a pair of noise canceling headphones , just incase the neighbour is noisy in the mornings, I can put them on and my vibe will remain in tact 
Coffee. Journal. Meditate.
Then off to the gym.
Have a strong sober/clean day y’all 
I’m struggling today
Going to 2 meetings
Hugs
I hope you can feel better soon
If you need to talk I’m here 
What an absolute cutie! 
Her name is Laney meaning bright light
you would of had another coin if someone hadn’t cut it out of the envelope 
oops I take that back 
53 days in, never would have thought it was possible! Still not giving up!
Congratulations on 100. Keep marching on.
How far is that country side from your place? It’s pretty…
So I had a moment today where I needed to check myself. I found myself catching rec "making fun of " an addict in active addiction the way he was walking and nodding off in public and I had a moment where I stopped and thought to myself who the fuck do I think I am to laugh . Nothing about that was funny . He is me I am him . This addiction is so powerful that if I don’t constantly work on myself that I could be laughing at him and dead tomo from a relapse . I can’t get comfortable or cocky that i have this cuz I don’t im just learning how to eat walk and talk again .
Day 431 and still having fun, 
But really it’s soo much better, even tough days I’m grateful to be sober.
Not far at all. Its about an hour train trip away. There is so much beautiful open farm lands along the train trip, I feel like I’m a world away from home
1093 days alcohol free
