Checking in daily to maintain focus #32

@Truckinmonster21 welcome back, was wondering about you the other day, great to hear you have a month again, congrats :tada:
@squirt sending strength, youā€™re dealing with this in the right way :blue_heart: good luck with the roomate :four_leaf_clover:
@Turbob18 welcome :slightly_smiling_face: congrats on 27 days (hopefully 29 now) :tada:
@MagicILY so sorry youā€™re having relationship difficties, sending strength :blue_heart: (just seen your next post, love the sound of whatevers happening :raised_hands:t2:) congrats on your week :tada:
@Thirdmonkey wow, I love those bands :star_struck:
@Julied congrats on 6 months :tada: I bet your daughters are so grateful for, and proud of, your sobriety :raised_hands:t2:
@Soundlab congrats on a new day one :tada: they do say ā€˜secrets keep you sickā€™.
@Wasabi79 good luck with your new job :four_leaf_clover: I hope your first day went well.
@liv_m congrats on double digits :tada:
@M-be-free49 you were missed :blush:

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@SoberWalker enjoy your hotel stay :blush:
@KellyKelly sorry about the break-up, sending strength :blue_heart:
@Dazercat so glad you made it home to your wife and pets, Iā€™m sure they were all so happy to see you :blush:
@Singtone happy 18 years :revolving_hearts:
@Wakikki I love Virgin River :blush:
@zzz Iā€™m so glad you made the right choice :raised_hands:t2:

364 days no alcohol.
332 days no cocaine.
5 days no binge-eating.

Didnā€™t check in yesterday, my eye allergies have been so bad this past two days, Iā€™ve hardly been able to keep my eyes open, itā€™s been so frustrating, I take allergy meds every day so I donā€™t understand why it keeps happening, and I donā€™t know whatā€™s triggering it because it doesnā€™t happen every day, so strange. I put my eye drops in the fridge earlier and used them a while ago, itā€™s calmed down a little now but my eyes feel so tender like they could go off again at any moment, so I thought Iā€™d catch up and check in here while the storm has calmed.

I managed to go to the gym and swimming today, for the first time since Thursday (I think), it took all day to motivate myself so I went at 5pm, I hated it, it was so busy, and two men spoke about me nastily in the changing room, one of them said 'what the fuck is that ā€™ then the other replied ā€˜Im not saying a fucking wordā€™. I will never go in the evening again so atleast I have the motivation to get myself there earlier now.

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Big hugs @CATMANCAM, they sound like a pair of dicks. Are you ready for tomorrow? :confetti_ball:

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Iā€™m not sure about the length of time they last but i am sure that temptations are way less frequent as sober time grows. Iā€™m also sure that if we stay to far away from actively working recovery relapse is almost inevitable. Stay connected in each day with your recovery. Best wishes

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Havenā€™t seen in print anywhere (or heard) that lower estimated period of ā€œrecoveryā€ time but I recognize individualsā€™ result are just that ā€¦ unique to each of us to some extent. Thanks.

Iā€™m reading, following, and learning here. Thanks.

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I am not sure what meds you take but every year I have to take a different type of antihistamine because it seems like I grow some type of immunity to them. Desloratadine is a new and improved loratadine not sure if you have tried itā€¦

Hope you find some relief soon.

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For me I couldnā€™t stop drinking until I stopped drinking. You seem to have booze around a lot, and be around it even more. We have no control over alcoholism but we do have control over our recovery. Take it seriously.

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I have not had a whiff of PAWS since around 20 months. First 6-9 months it would come around a few times for up to a day. After that it was very mild. If I feel something now itā€™s probably just cuz Iā€™m old

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Checking in on day 59. Tomorrow is a big day: day 60. However, it wouldā€™ve been an even bigger day if I hadnā€™t cocked things up roughly 70 days ago after responding unwisely to feelings of grief after my grandfatherā€™s death. In fact, tomorrow I would have been be joining @Misokatsu and @CATMANCAM, my erstwhile sober twins, in celebrating one year. I am very proud of you two! A year is an amazing achievement. I hope you are extra kind to yourselves tomorrow, and I will be thinking of you. :grinning:

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I feel like Iā€™m in the thick of it sometimes at just over 6 months so thanks for the validation (& hope).

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Spilt milk ā€“ congrats on your big 60 tomorrow. Bravo!

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Proud of you for getting right back up on that sober horse :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:
Early congratulations for two months.

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:pray::heart:

Remember that it is impossible for you to drink normally. Remember that one drink will lead to others and you will eventually be drunk. Remember what happened to you in the past as a result of your drinking.

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My pleasure. I was married for such a long time. My 2 husbands were pretty much back to back. Iā€™ve been either married or a relationship since the age of 16. I forgot who I was. I always put my menā€™s needs in front of my own. I lived to make them happy, and apparently I really sucked at it.

I was so terrified of being alone. Looking back now, I canā€™t even imagine being that way. Now Iā€™m terrified of someone trying to enter my happy bubble. Iā€™m so much happier without a partner. It was hard at first. Slowly as I got sober and went through therapy, I started to become interested in things again. Things I loved when I was younger. I got back into photography, and I got back into fitness. Plus, my house is always immaculate. Laundry is a snap, I donā€™t fall in the toilet, I donā€™t have clothes on the floor NEXT to the hamper, I donā€™t have a soaking wet bathroom floor, and I donā€™t have someone up my ass 24/7 telling me how much I suck.

It doesnā€™t happen overnight, but when you make an effort to get to know yourself and what YOU enjoy, itā€™s a really liberating feeling.

What I thought was the end of the world turned out to be the very best thing that has ever happened to me :heart:

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Today was a good day back at work.
Super busy but good.
I came home and relaxed after work and really wanted a drink but I worked through it.
Adjusting to my work schedule so going to bed early.
Grateful for another night sober :heart:
Have a good night all hugs hugs hugs

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Have a good and sober day.

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Im up, drinking my coffee and getting ready for work. Ready for a new sober day but not work :see_no_evil: It was really hard 1 day back yesterday. But for my sobrity its good vacation is over and Im back to work.

@CATMANCAM Me to, I love it. At first I was like naah this show is boring, but ohh no, Im so hooked, staying up to late at nigth for Just one more episode :see_no_evil:

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Love hearing that. Thank you for sharing Xx

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Day 360 :star2::sun_with_face:

Have a nice day to everyone. Today my husband and I are going on a short vacation together. Undoubtedly, I will be able to remember every moment of it, I will be able to wake up early in the morning. Iā€™m not going to think about what time I start drinking. Iā€™m going on a peaceful vacation where I wonā€™t hide how much I drink from my husband. 'Cause Iā€™d rather be sober

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