I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 348
My husband recived a letter from the Police two days ago. He is cleared from everything and they also called and apologized for the inconvenience of them coming to our house. I’ve never experienced that the Police calls to apologize like that ever. But I’m glad they did. We said that we where grateful that they are around doing their job.
All the paperwork for my husband to get his driver’s license is also done by now. And he only have a few lessons and tests until he’s actually getting it. So things are going great over here.
I’m still working on renovating our staircase, what I thought was going to be a weekend project has turned in to at least a month of work. Honestly we didn’t expect it to be four layers of paint and some hard carpet glue from around the 70’s to remove. At least it’s going to be beautiful when it’s done. And while we’re at it, we’re going to make a built-in shelf with a bench in the downstairs entrance hallway to save space and finally get some order there. And another built-in book shelf on the upper floor to create a cozy ready corner and finally be able to use a space that’s now useless because of the loose banisters. We’re counting on being done around Christmas 
Everything turned out fine with the basement guy as well. My husband went to talk to him last weekend, he refused to open the door. So he dropped his things outside and getting the word out in the village, that we wish for this guy to leave us alone. We haven’t heard anything since. We’ve seen him around the village but he hasn’t even said Hello so that’s good.
Yesterday was the day for us to meet with a auditor to get Pa’s will. I was the only one required to be there for some reason. Nothing should be strange about that. My Ma gets it all, and we all know it was written that way. My Ma refused to have any of my other siblings there, claiming that I’m the only one who knows juridical issues and also the only one not making a big deal of everything, keeping the peace.
It was in a nearby village so I could easily take the bus. So I did, I was there a few hours before we had the appointment, because of the bus schedule.
Not a Big deal, I took the time to walk around the village and visit a store with foreign food mostly from middle eastern. That me and Pa used to go to. It felt strange going there without him the owner recognized me and asked for Pa. I told him the reason for me being in the village. And he got to get his Pa from the office of the store. They gathered with me, said a little prayer and was sad for a while. Then they sent some cookies and snacks for the kid’s with my purchase to Honor Pa. It was a beautiful and very peaceful moment, even if we don’t share their beliefs. I thanked them a lot of times saying that I really appreciates the gesture and promised to be back soon.
I already had a strange feeling about the day, but that moment made it a lot easier.
I finished my shopping went to meet up with Ma, who was a little late. Like usual. We all went to the auditors office, and met the auditor a friend to my parents. And another guy I assumed was his colleague. I haven’t been present for something like that before so I didn’t ask about the other guy. Ma seemed a bit nervous but I thought it was about the entire situation. And I knew she was going to have unexpected guests. Her childhood friend from Switzerland was going to come and visit.
Like usual I should haven’t listened to my sixth sense or whatever you should call it. from the beginning. Because one again things was about to have a Plot Twist. It turns out that I have a big brother. My Pa had another kid with another lady before he ever met my Ma. This other guy I assumed was the auditors colleague was no one else than my big brother. He’s about my husband’s age. Aka 15 years older than me. He didn’t claim anything he was just there because he was required and took the opportunity to make himself known for one of us. That’s me. Fun thing is that when I was a kid I always imagined me having a pretended big brother.
We changed phone numbers and decided to meet up and have lunch in a few weeks. He lives in another village close to my grandma’s sister and my father’s cousins on a farm. I didn’t say much about it, I kinda just accepted it. He seems like a nice guy, and I’m sure all the questions will be answered eventually. It does however put me in a strange situation, Ma apparently choosed to only have me present to not make a big deal of it. But now I’m the only one who knows. I have no idea if I should tell my siblings. i know two of them probably is going to create havoc and the third would possibly refused to accept it at all. I don’t want to create that kind of chaos. But I don’t want to be the one keeping a secret from everyone either. The entire situation is just awkward. And feels like one of those things that only happens in books or bad soap operas on tv. To surreal for real life. But yet here I am.
My Ma more or less pretended that it was raining. She didn’t say anything, and when we where done she bought us all lunch that we ate together, like we’ve always been a family. I don’t know if she knew we of if she got the information just before I did.
Besides that everything is mostly like usual here.
My husband has been away for work. Last week, and this week too. He’s going to be back tomorrow or Sunday. School starts Wednesday for the kids here. And on Monday we’re going to have a play day with a restaurant visit. I’m looking forward to that.
This Monday we had Mystery Monday solving a Sherlock Holmes digital escape room Mystery, and had afternoon tea. The boys loved it so much that they decided that we’re going to have afternoon tea or high tea every Friday from now on. It’s Friday today, so it most definitely means afternoon tea. Next Time we’re in the city I’m going to take them to a tea shop so they can choose a beautiful tea cup they love to use for afternoon tea.
I Also manage to find a lot of amazing gluten and dairy free cakes and cookies for myself in the other village yesterday so I’m looking forward to today’s afternoon tea as well. We’re also planning to do a virtual tour of Buckingham palace before the tea.
Wishing everyone a great weekend 
That’s horrible.
I dread that ever happening to my morning. I’m pretty sure I got a back up something somewhere. I hope Amazon comes through for you.
so happy for you 
Hopefully back at it this afternoon