You’re already winning bro. That’s a strong sober number. I know ur feeling blah…but that number is something to be proud of and maintain!
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Checking in on day 30. One whole month 
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9 months sober today 
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congratulations!! 
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Hey all, checking in on day 426. Officially 14 months today, according to the calendar. Thank you guys for all the help along the way 
Have a great one everybody!
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Hooray for 14 months! Congrats!
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Little man so focussed! How’s mama doing?
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I hope it all goes well, I’m sure she’s anxious to meet you all!
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Dik gedaan man !!! Probzz
Regulate !!!
Bless and joy for every fighter, living soul and those in struggle…
Quick check in for me … heading up @ 2 years of the schnatse , again almost 90 at opioïds, which should have been at the same as the coke but he… Shit happens, deal with it. I’m trying anyhow and feeling good. Also allready 2 months of all meds. Unfortunately next op. will make me reset that again.
But does that count?
@SoberWalker how’s life dear friend?
@Mno love postNL 
YOU delivered it better if on bike
@lisa07 … Nala gives you love and light
@Dolse71 … Still waiting on that sarcasm
@flamestar… You still here
@jimieg … Let me know wassup
@littlemisschatterbox … Can’t reach you… All things good?
@DLS my sweet Donna, angels for you
@Girlinterrupted … Lemme know w’sup aight
Peace to the tribe and stay safe
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I created my own sunshine state up north in the Netherlands…
Storms will come and last
Life will form and pass
Choices will be history or come
But life…
That’s for everyone to decide ~~ , what’s on…
#spokenwordmindflow@once
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Checking in
594 days substance free.
8 days sugar free
Feeling pretty scattered, I can’t seem to focus nor make decisions above and beyond my day to day attention deficit woes. Definitely had worse days though so I will take it.
There is an AA camp out happening about 30 mins away so I am considering heading up there for a bit of fellowship. Hopefully hit a meeting around a fire tonight, it would be nice. I have mentioned it to a few homegroup members and they have turned their noses up to it. I find it funny when NA members and AA members don’t attended the other fellowship especially if they were druggers and drinkers. What happened to the “openminded” portion of their recovery program? Hahahah. Not my circus not my monkeys, I am just glad I am open minded as it gives me so many more meetings to attend!!!
Have committed to starting a journey with my ED recovery. I don’t tend to make things public until I am ready to jump in both feet. I have a huge fear of failure and my perfectionism tends to force me to keep things quiet until I “know” I will be ok. I sort of hope this doesn’t run smoothly just to force me to learn that it’s OK to slip and slide infront of people. Teach me that I don’t always have to suffer in silence until the dire end. That I do not need to be so ashamed.
Anyways, i am keeping my spirit full while I head into this stage of my recovery. I do believe this is the core of my disease. This is where all the real pain and ugliness lays with me and that is probably why it is what I have been left with. The self injury, the substances, the sex… if I had any sense of self worth and loved my body I probably wouldn’t have been so quick to hurt it.
@RosaCanDo my beautiful honest friend congrats on adding another 90 days to your recovery. Love you. 
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D 317
I started my day freaking out, yanked awake by shocking nightmares.
In between it was ok although I’m exhausted to my limits.
This evening I heard terrible and disturbing news from my neighbourhood. Not related to me but enough to knock me off balance again.
It’s ok to feel but it doesn’t have to pull me under.
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Can’t DM you but this is like X marks the spot… That feeling , the thaughts, open for hurt, but yet so closed… What you will encounter, I think you might allready know… The dept of it and the reflection is the never ending spiral when kept unlit.
Just wanted to say that speaking out like that… Really grateful to had the opportunity to read it and feel how it takes me back and forth… Where or whatever someone comes from…
All you take everywhere is you… So I wish you a great and difficult good journey into that fear and self awareness…
Be proud !
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Just doing a quick check in day 51 alcohol, day 2 cocaine. Trying to love myself and be easy on myself. Sometimes I feel I don’t deserve to be a father sometimes and these girls deserve a better dad. Was scrolling through my photos and autumn was taking videos of herself saying hey look guys just some tattoos I did today and it broke me down to tears bc I was yelling at her for drawing on her self and losing my pen, when I saw the video I realized what I had actually missed. I wish god would just help me be the dad I’m supposed to be. Idk much love
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Busy with holiday. Just came home after 5 days Amersfoort. Monday my hubby and I will be away for a couple of days as well. We would like to hike a lot but the weatherforecast is bad.
We’ll see 
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Thank you!! I appreciate it so much 
Congrats!!! I used to take it a long time ago. It didn’t work for me, I’m seeing now that it’s probably a good thing haha. You, my dear, are kicking some serious ass!!! Way to go!!
