Been up for an hour. As I drink my morning coffee and reflect on my life. I can only find gratitude for how difficult the last two years have been. The fact, that I can say I accomplished my five year plan in three years… leaves me in a very quiet place mentally. Where once my thoughts rushed with everything that lay before me. I now sit, not fully at peace but content.
My long term goals have moved into the category of short term and for once, the future I envision seems so fucking attainable it damn near brings me to tears.
@Hopeful777 thank you congrats on 9 months I hope the anxiety settles, my last years of employment followed a very similar pattern @Misokatsu I see the advice has already been given, but here in the UK, the normal shops only sell stuff that kill the adult fleas, but from the vet you can get the stuff that kills eggs, larvae, and fleas all in one. @Classix welcome back congrats on 2 days @Dmcg1987 congrats on your week @Bomdhil congrats on double digits never lose that hope @1in8billion congrats on your PB @Clarity I hope your family reunion is full of joy @CrazyDucks good luck for your new job @Kaeo congrats on quadruple digits @Complicatedmama sending strength and prayers that you and all the children will stay healthy
@MwinecwaftOwO congrats on 30 days @M-be-free49 cool catch congrats @Mno enjoy your 5 days off @Chiron I love your insight @Rockstar24777 day 3 no cigs! You’re doing it man I’m still struggling to put down my vape so seeing you achieve this is encouraging for me
414 days no alcohol.
382 days no cocaine.
20 days no disordered eating.
Checking in for yesterday.
I was so tired yesterday and even had to have a nap in the afternoon. Tooth still is really sensitive, I usually clamp my jaw and grind my teeth 247 so the positive is that it’s stopping me from doing that!
Nothing much else to report. Will check in properly for today later on hopefully.
537 today. It’s been a little bit since I have been on. Things are going well. I get to resume my classes at work after covid shut us down. I hope everyone has a great sober day
Super catch sister.
I remember when you were first here, I was at the lake reading a response from you to a post I had made. The reason I remember it is because at that point in my recovery I was still numb, but your words touched my heart. I remember feeling a tear which I hadn’t been able to feel for a very long time. You are such a massive asset to this forum and I absolutely adore you. Thanks for hanging onto your sobriety all those super tough days.
Congrats on your recovery.
It freaked me out a little when Kaeo and Hotic took 1000 days. I never really absorb how many days I have, I can’t, if I do for some reason I start to get so overwhelmed. I spent a good chunk of time in a disassociative state this past weekend, and I can feel myself slipping in and out of it still. It’s a shitty feeling because I get complete amnesia and when I am driving it can be dangerous. Understanding what is happening and why it happens is helping me not berate myself. I am coming to understand due to all my past trauma that when I start to get overwhelmed emotionally my brain will go on a vacation. Sometimes it feels like an out of body experience and I remember there were times when I was being sexually assaulted that I was not in my body anymore. (Dissasociation is a trauma response and symptom of BPD, PTSD and other mental health diagnosis for those who are not familiar.)
My eating has been… subpar I would say but I am creating a therapy plan with a new psychotherapist. I did a 2 hour pain management class yesterday and I am on my way to see a physiotherapist right now.
So with all this tough shit I still managed to do a bunch of stuff. I am still managing to homeschool my daughter. I am still managing to get my butt to meetings and be open and honest about where my head is at. I can only do all this stuff because I am clean today. Thank you for the MASSIVE role you play in my recovery. I couldn’t do this without you.
If you like to listen to podcasts this one was amazing…
It’s been one week…
Long week, work is stressful, but I’m handling it way better. My kids tested me this morning and I had a way low point and just felt like a bad mom. I’ve got an angsty soon to be teen boy in my house and I know he doesn’t mean to make me feel like shit, but sometimes words cut deep. I didn’t handle it well, and we’re in for a talk this evening to figure out those moments together. Hope y’all are having a great day today!
Day 1002 clean. Thanks again to everyone here you are all my idols and inspiration cause everyday clean or sober is a day won in my book. Keep up the good fight for recovery and have a blessed day/night
Today I hit a milestone. The quote is fitting too because today I got offered a promotion. I owe it all to you peeps on TS. The posts have made me steadfast in my pursuit of a better life. I could not have made it this far without your support.
2nd check in today. Had a bit more energy today then yesterday, so got some stuff done, not the weird headpain was as bad as yesterday either. Stuffed my self with a bit (well lots) of chocolate to comfort myself. I should not do that, but oh well.
I Just want to feel normal rested, with energy, happy and full of life. How do you guys do it? I try to eat healthy, but kinda wobble back and forth, know I should exercise but cant find the motivation or get my self up and out to get to it
Checking in! Day 432!
Currently drinking my first pumpkin chai of the season!! … waiting for 12:15 AA meeting to start. Had the best yoga class the morning, first day back with my favorite instructor ever!! Today is off to a great start. @Its_me_Stella Thinking of you! Hope your friend is doing better. I will definitely check out that podcast! I listened to a good one two days ago by Deepak Chopra! Will have to find it. @Kaeo CONGRATS ON 1000 DAYS!! That’s incredible! You are doing so amazing!
congrats on 9 months 
I hope the anxiety settles, my last years of employment followed a very similar pattern 
congrats on 2 days 
congrats 
I’m still struggling to put down my vape so seeing you achieve this is encouraging for me 
It’s been one week…
… waiting for 12:15 AA meeting to start. Had the best yoga class the morning, first day back with my favorite instructor ever!! Today is off to a great start.