Oh my goodness say that! I was just sitting here about to go out telling myself that I can have a good time without drinking. I feel and think and look better today. I’m on my 7th day. This is a wonderful beginning and I’m ready for the challenge!!!
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I’ve crumbled…
I don’t know how to handle… What my ex has done but for today… I’ve decided going to a swinging event will allow me to escape.
No matter how hard I try I feel I will never succeed…
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Even crumbled crayons color beautiful pictures. From what I have seen on here, you are an amazing human.
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Hi Pinkcloud, I hope your day is better. I’ve learned if my thinking takes me to a dark side then I have to change my thinking. I had this tag at the end of my name at work and it reads “ everyday is a new beginning and happiness is a choice” You can’t change what happened yesterday all you can do is move on too something pleasant and happy. That’s what I have to do when I’ve done something dumb, stupid or shameful and believe me every one on here has done something that they are not proud of. So pick yourself up and dust yourself off. Your the only one that can make life happen for you, literally. I mean your the only one that can do this we can encourage and pray for you but you have to physically do the work.! Proud of you for being honest and sharing. Hang in there and you’ll see it will get better. One day, one moment at a time.
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28 days. Pains in my body, trigger my anxiety. I hate when my anxiety gets like this.
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There are no saints. We are humans. Sometimes we fall. However hard we try to do the right thing there are moments we fall and we fail. Because we’re human. After that we get up again. Might take some time. That’s life. Life’s hard. At times life’s cruel. It’s good you’re here friend. I’m glad you’re here. Tells me you’re fighting. You’re not alone. Please know you’re not alone. Big hugs.
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Welcome back to the forum. It’s far more than a counter. Spend some time exploring the different topics. Ask questions. You can do this!
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@JLove congrats on 50 days 
@Hopeful777 congrats on 250 days
@MolotovMoxie congrats on 2 weeks+
@anon53116147 aww bless her, I hope she has a great time 
@Laraellelarissa congrats on 200 days
@pinkcloud welcome 
congrats on day one
@Complicatedmama congratulations
@Mdtayl38 congrats on your week
389 days no alcohol.
357 day no cocaine.
2 days no disordered eating.
I managed to avoid ordering yum yums mid morning by attempting to nap. It was close, the compulsion was strong but I said to myself I finally managed my first day yesterday after feeling so trapped again the preceding week, so I didn’t want to reset again. I even bought a variety of fruit today and I feel good when I eat it and haven’t binged on any of it as I had feared.
I had another nap before finishing typing this, it happened yesterday too, but if it stops me from bingeing after dinner then I’m all for it! 
Wishing you all wonderful weekends, I hope you all have moments of joy 
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20.7 days! Went out for a meal tonight was an indian and no alcohol licence. One of those bring your own (which i didnt) was lovely and i was very happy with my water. We did go for a drink after and i bought my friend an alcoholic drink and i got a 0% Heineken (which are quite nice btw) very pleased with myself! Back in the day id have probably got 2 pints… (dispite driving!!!) Then more from the shop on the way home and got drunk!!
Instead im in bed watching tv with my chamomile tea <3
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Welcome Pinkcloud
And congratulations on your last day 1 God Willing.
I’m happy you were able to get that off your chest. Our shame, teamed up with our addictive brain, is a very strong one two punch to our psyche. It can makes us feel like a looser when we’ve hit an embarrassing low. None of us are losers. Many of us have been where you are and worse. It’s a progressive disease that eats away at all that is good in us. And continues to make us feel like shit until we stop and make some big lifestyle changes.
Get as much support and knowledge as you can.
Gratitude is my best tool. I start every morning right here at TS on the gratitude thread. I don’t think I’ve missed a day how grateful I am for the love of my cats and dogs. I honestly believe they know I’m sober. And I know I’ve been a much better dad to them. And I know they been loving me a lot more since I quit drinking. Sorry I get a little long winded too. I’m glad your here. You’re so worth it. September 3 2021. Protect this date at all cost.
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Sorry. One more thing.
@JasonFisher
Recommended I listen to the audio of the big book chapter 3.
I listened to it 3 times. And now I’m listening to the whole thing. One of the best pieces of advice I gotten on here.
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Day been great went out for dinner now just enjoying the weather and watching the nice cars going by don’t need to go to a car show here nice cars go by in front of my house daily from Corvettes and mustangs now at 2 months & 28 days clean
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Feeling low tonight…but this is my view, so can I really complain? Trying to let the water soothe me.
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So I checked in at dinner time, was really struggling by early evening. Had actually called my dealer by 9pm. Fortunately the sobriety gods smiled on me and he had nothing!!!
So…I’m still sober, and I’m currently drawing faces on balloons and creating their backstory with my niece. Absolutely having the time of my life.
So happy I didn’t use. And So grateful to be enjoying this time with my niece and hearing her laugh. She’s 13 now so getting her to be with us adults is getting harder, but I know these are memories she’ll take to adulthood and I love it xx
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Congratulations on 8 months @Singtone!!
I really enjoy reading all your posts. It warms my heart when you talk about how close you are with your family. This happiness is all due to your hard work at sobriety.
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Hi and good to see you back around! 🙋
You’re honesty is a great beginning, I look forward to seeing your progress one day at a time.
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Delete your dealers number 
And anyone else like that.
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