Yesss… I tell everyone to watch this film! So good.
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Nice to hear from you.
Congrats on your days.
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22 days today 
had an awful nights sleep. Lots of anxiety and restlessness for absolutely no reason! Now got a 10 hour shift to get through shortly 
hoping for a better nights sleep tonight!
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- Coffee. Work. Going to bee a lovely day. Too bad I’m going to spend inside by enlarge. At least I’m sober and clean and that’s the only way I want to be. One day at a time.
Yesterday night and old friend called and said he could get me some LSD. In the past I did ask him to get me some should he encounter it, also after I became sober and clean as LSD is said to be non-addictive on it’s own. Anyway, I was tempted for a moment. But I rejected it. Live is a huge trip on its own. Not going back to using anything. Don’t need that no more. Don’t want that. Never again. Have a good day all. Clean and sober. Love from Amsterdam where the flower garden is still awesome.
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Day 1083 
Thank you for replying @CATMANCAM , @Mno , @M-be-free49 , @050Nl , @pinkcloud , @Hopeful777 and hope I mentioned everyone. It helped me to get my thoughts on a straight line so to speak…
Got a sign from TS that I’m here on this app for 3 years now. And yes: almost sober for 3 years as well. When I first came here I wasn’t sober but I knew I was on the wrong road again.
So a little while later I quit.
Happy that I do not need a substitute to feel good. Do I miss alcohol? Yes to be honest sometimes I do, I call it cravings
When I miss it it’s mostley when I’m in a bad state of mind. Why I do not pick up? Because I know when I do my life won’t become better, It will become worse. I would be thinking about drinking all the time. When may I drink, how many may I drink, where do I hide that empty bottle, etc. My brain won’t be my own, but that alcohol voice will have it!
(And then Im not mentioning all the rest that would change in my life because of the drinking, but you can imagine that as well
)Never again!
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Good morning all ,going to my sister, and tomorrow to Terschelling for a week. Told my sister i quit drinking and she is supportive. So i am going to enjoy the beach , sun and bitterlemmon 
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Have a great time Claartje! Terschelling is my favorite from all our Wadden islands! 
And you are also very lucky because of the weather forecast! I guess you deserve it!! 
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Thank you so much 
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Just a tiny little bit jealous here! Enjoy Terschelling Claartje. Such an awesome place. Say hi for me! 
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252 days
Waking up to sunshine is the best, off for an early dog walk to make the most of it.
Cooked from a recipe yesterday, stuffed pasta shells with homemade pasta sauce, it turned out lovely so surprised, and i enjoyed it. But my kitchen was devastated so need to work on being a bit more organised. But shall dig out more culinary delights to master. A benefit of sobriety having the headspace to try new things 
Have a great sober day all 
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Day 132.
5.32pm
2nd check in.
Strange day today… I didnt really Get much done today, but I havnt sat and chilled all day 
Sundays are sloth days for me, but today I’ve been feeling pretty manic and not focused.
Also feeling extra Hungry today for some reason…
So this is what happens when you go to the supermarket and your manic, aswell as hungry… I went to the supermarket to buy some dinner for tonight… Did I remember to buy something for dinner whilst I was in there?? Of course not lol 
My stupid manic monkey mind came home with a ton of junk and rubbish and it all made no sense at all
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Lesson learnt!!
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I do that type of shopping 
when hungry, not a meal in sight when i unload. I used to eat it all, but now i eat before the trolley dash
See if you can hide it away for treats… nice selection though 
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Its completely bonkers how our brains can get hijacked and the snack monster takes over our logical thinking
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Hey all, checking in on day 448. I hope everyone has a great one!
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Day 450 clean and sober today. Up early and having coffee before work. Nothing is wrong with my life right now but I’m feeling yucky inside. I hope everyone has a good and wonderful day, love you guys 
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I have those days too, I try to figure out the reasons behind the feelings but sometimes I just can’t. It always passes though, hopefully sooner rather than later for you today! Keep your head up bro!
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Thank you @Nordique!! And yes, they do pass for sure. I’m with you on trying to figure out why and not really knowing 
they’re just feelings. Have a great day bro!
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5 months!!!
And then I reset. What the hell! Why am I drinking again?!?!
I had to re download and reset my password to get on here. I was clean so long I forgot I even got a new phone and hadn’t bothered regetting the app.
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616 days substance free
1 day sugar free (ate a rice crispie square yeaterday)
Life is alright, I am questioning myself quite a bit then remembering to just let go. I keep worrying about choices that I have made when so far the outcome seems great. I have “prayed” on it and listened to the direction that was offered. I guess that is just my ego trying to control the situation as per usual.
Letting go is so difficult for me, I really hang on to things until my fingers bleed. I leave claw marks in it all and there is no benefit to that for anyone. Holding on only causes more uncomfortable feelings for whoever happens to be involved in a given situation.
I recently found myself gravitating back to a very unhealthy relationship I had ended a few months back. I have been doing so well with no contact, keeping myself busy and unavailable. Said person managed to get ahold of me and for a couple of days we chatted and I don’t know how but their side of the conversation ended up circling back to us being together. My boundaries have been very firm with this person. What they want from me I am not prepared to give them anymore, the whole relationship I was participating in previously does not align with my values. It never did and I was having to get loaded to be apart of said relationship. Anyways, this person has a way into my brain and I need to be very careful that I do not put my guard down with them. Yesterday I did well and I stood my ground, I am pretty sure they will piss off again.
Boundaries are one of the things that I am really enjoying about recovery. They are so empowering. After living my life, my whole life, allowing people to use me in whatever way they saw fit or suited them best. To be able to say “No” , sounds so easy right? It’s not. We teach our children their body is theirs and they have the right to say “No” and all it takes is one person to push past that boundary and suddenly it holds no power anymore. Relearning boundaries of all kinds is hard but wow, what a difference it is making in how I feel about myself as a human.
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Yesss! @MagicILY I was going to say watch this documentary, but April beat me to it!
My mind is still blown that a tree can communicate with its offspring through the mushroom’s fibrous root “network” 
like how we communicate through WiFi? And that we are most related to mushrooms than any other kingdom?! Did I hear that right?! Mushrooms are amazing.
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