Im here recovering, doing what I do best escaping in art…
I hope everyone’s having a good day
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Glad to hear it Danni! I love the art
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Looks rough but your ship is still floating.
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@Girlinterrupted this really is amazing 
@Complicatedmama prayers for your family 
sending strength 
@Betteroffbaby congrats on your first sober wedding, and that ‘99’ is likely 100 by now so extra congrats on triple digits 
@LabLover222 welcome back 
@zzz never stop trying, I think it’s great that you keep coming back here and I want to see you succeed
@Nordique congrats on 450 days
@Misokatsu sorry you’re struggling, sending strength
@Rockstar24777 sending love and strength you are doing an amazing thing but you will definitely need to find a balance to shake off the work stuff, camping sounds like a great way to do that
@beachmouse it’s great that you’re here sharing how you feel, I’ve seen it compared to when you love someone but you know they are toxic for you so you have to break-up, congrats on 30 days
@Bomdhil prayers for your mother sending strength
393 days no alcohol.
361 days no cocaine.
6 days no disordered eating.
So I only made it 4 hours without nicotine. I don’t even know why I bought more, I felt completely and unexpectedly fine for those 4 hours this morning, but I found myself walking to the supermarket to buy junk food, so in catching myself I diverted to the vape shop, bought the liquid, and returned home, without any junk food. I barely remember walking there and back it was so autonomous. I will try again, but maybe after day 365 of no cocaine, there is something in my mind telling me I’m not safe before then, even though my rational mind knows I’ll never be safe from addiction no matter the day number or the year number.
I just want to buy and eat junk food, it makes me so sad that I’m so fat though, and without exercising I’m definitely not going to lose weight, so I have to stick to my meal plan. I miss eating big bags of crisps all the way through an episode of the show I’m watching, there’s something I find really comforting about that. -there goes my addict, romanticising 
I do really feel like I want crisps though, it’s only been 6 days 
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Thank you Tyler! And I’m with you on the smoking thing! I made it about 4 hours as well yesterday, I will try again. Have a great day!!! 
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just install zoom and enter code.
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Good lord can I ever relate to this.
You are almost at your milestone, and you are doing a damn good job getting there.
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If you have time to relapse, you have time for a meeting a day. Download the zoom app and utilize the code @Dolse71 provided. Google “AA meetings near me” and start finding out when and where meetings are. Many local meetings are still being done via zoom. You will find a sponsor by reaching out locally. We are rooting for you.
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Second check in before I hit the bed. Staying sober and doing good with not drinking. Need to find a balance in my everyday life where I dont need to keep my self occupide all the time, stress around, I get so tired and my body is tired, all I want is sleep and wake up fresh, not exhausted all the time.
Good nigth to you all
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24 days wooo
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Dally check in. Having such great day very happy to be here and alive thankful for good happy sober day free of self harm sometimes it takes rock bottom to get to the best days of our lives I hit that rock bottom this year now I have found my happy days enjoying each and day
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Day 135.
7.19am.
Yesterday I got my 2nd dose of vac… I feel like ive been shot in the arm. It HURTS. The first dose wasnt so bad, this one killed my life last night. I couldn’t sleep. Hot sweats then cold. The pain was next level. I feel like s%&t today.
The cockatoos woke me up for there breakfast at 6.40am. I got up for them to see how im feeling, I’m very tired.
I might just do some reading and go back to bed for a bit because I have a job interview this afternoon at 4pm. I want to be focused for that because its an online 3rd stage interview.
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Water and Tylenol. It got me through the worst of it.
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Day 8 
worked out this morning, then felt anxious and jittery on the way to work. My job is stressful and I’m working on my resume to have an exit strategy by the end of the year. So, I think I’m just done. I’ve been eating a ton the past couple of days. I quit smoking cigarettes Friday, so pretty sure that’s not helping either. The important thing is I didn’t drink and the stress of the day would have usually given me cause to do so. 
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Ah thank you!
I’m a pretty healthy person generally, but last night in bed was next level weird. I was shaking freezing cold then sweating like I’d run the new york marathon 
so strange.
And the arm pain felt like I’d been shot 
il get onto the tylenol 
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Day 1 of a long life to come!
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Welcome Aemb,
Today is a great day to be sober. Perfect for a day 1.
Today is the only day we all got to be sober.
ODAAT
Love the kitty 
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Checking in on night 54.
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My first psychologist session will be in a month… Yehoo! It’s about time… I’m changing and I can feel it. Last night I was on here and I figured two things, First: productivity directly fuels self-worth, progress, growth… and Second: toughen up if I want to be strong. Excessive self-pity is counterproductive. It’s good to be proud, just not of weakness. What I’m seemingly also addicted to in a way is self-sabotage! And that can F right off… Sometimes change needs a kick-start, not soon but right now - nothing in life is for granted… 
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Checking in with 5 weeks of sobriety.
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