Checking in day 358.
Got a kind of a “ha ha” moment yesterday when I realized that since I quit drinking I also became a non smoker of any kind. I used to be a smoker than I was only smoking when drinking for the last couple of years.
So in a week I will officially be a non-smoker (in the eyes of medical / insurance policy you have to be one year without any smoke to be considered a non-smoker).
Here to another collateral good to being sober!
Have a good day y’all!
Checking in at the end of day 247.
Sober and grateful.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
That sounds tough. Hang tight!! This too shall pass. I was stranded at home for 2 weeks and I was losing it… so I sorta understand where you’re coming from ! I pray your car gets fixed soon. I pray you get connected with nature soon! 
Love ya! Will be praying and thinking of you.
Checking in on day 30 and I’m more scared now than when I drank. I knew how to get drunk, be drunk, be hungover, be drunk again. That was my muscle memory for decades. My new sober muscles aren’t strong yet and I’ve only gotten here desperate that I’d fuk up and drink again, thus staying sober for 30 days. I must admit I’m mourning the loss of my drunk self, she wasn’t pretty but I knew what to expect. This new me is so boring and predictable which just makes me want to stab my eyes out. For today, I’m not buying booze, hiding booze, drinking booze, and should probably hit a meeting, or two.
Hang in there, you will find your sober groove! That might be learning to appreciate the predictable, or you might find a sober wild side. Either way it will work out the way its meant to. Great work on those 30 days 
Well yesterday turned out OK in the end. Seems like I might have a job starting in October and I’ve been referred for counselling. Definitely pleased about the counselling. Not sure about the job but I think it’s time to try and dip my toe in again. Only two days a week so hopefully will be manageable. Not for a few weeks yet anyway so will deal with it all when it comes.
Going to a festival this weekend and had a weird fleeting image of being there and drinking at the bar, letting loose a bit. It will be my first big event like this and my energy levels are really low at the moment. I think I was just feeling a bit nervous. Reminded myself that I’m going with awesome friends, the music will be off the chain amazing and it will be so good! Plus I am the designated driver 
Ordered myself some cool raving t-shirts and am currently listening to the festival playlist, now I am excited!
Yes, and I wasn’t expecting that, or I hadn’t been told to expect that, but am glad (not “glad”) others have been though it too.
Day 41 . Taking care of my mother, she is sick with a really weak heart. Grateful for being able to serve
Thank you and congratulations on 41 days! 
Your mom is lucky to have your care and love. 
If I never started drinking I would have never __________. Fill in the blanks.
“If ifs and buts were candy and nuts it’d be Christmas every day.”
-Mallory Archer
I remember this feeling very well. I felt like a robot, I was just repeating what I heard and doing what I was told for fear I fucked up. I knew how to burn my life to the ground quickly but living this new way of life was completely foreign to me. There were many times I referred to myself at a 47 yr old toddler learning how to walk, that is exactly how I felt. After a lifetime of living very dangerously the stability felt “boring” . It’s not boring though, that was just the only word I knew at the time to explain what I was feeling. Now, 21 months later after sitting in this new lifestyle and learning how to live it I have come to understand that feeling I felt wasn’t boredom it was security, a feeling of being safe. I have never felt safe before, I had no idea what that felt like, I had nothing to compare it to.
So it’s been my experience that once I was able to get the ball rolling and make healthy choices to fill all those countless hours I had been wasting getting loaded. My life started to feel full and I was safe. The combination of those two Julie have been a beautiful thing for me and they have been why I have been able to allow my spirit to be filled. If you keep putting one foot in front of the other, I think you will find yourself in a similar situation. Congrats on your 1 month of continuous sobriety, very happy for you. 
Rob I can imagine how hard that is on you, I know how much of an empath you are. I haven’t seen you making any candles lately… are you just doing them on the sly??? 
I guess finding any way to get a little peace of mind until your car is fixed would be helpful to you. You always have my love and support.
That’s right and look at you now, so excited for you.
@zzz you were here when Paul was slipping. Don’t stop trying, but keep adding new tools. The same shit that you are doing over and over again isnt going to work. You need to try something new, or something old with a new attitude.
Not even sure how many days today.
Higher power at work…coming back from a 4 day weekend to a train wreck. All I want to do is throat punch every single person. I was at my breaking point…and in comes the First person in AA I talked to when I first went.
Not going to throat punch anyone…
Thanks Sarah, love you too!
Thank you Stella, I love you too! I didn’t even think about the candles thank you for reminding me!!!
I’m more or less in the same boat. I’m trying to find ways to keep busy especially in the evenings. Hang tough.
