You think you want, but you really dont. And if you pick up, you will regret it, you know you will. What will drinking do you better now or less bored? Remeber all the shit drinking gives you, all the pain, anxiety, working against your work to get back to your weigth goal. Think about all the negative alcohol gives you
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@zzz congrats on your week 
@Its_me_Stella congrats on 6 months so proud of you 
@Truckinmonster21 I really hope can stay strong, you know you donāt want to drink deep down, well done for reaching out, sending prayers 
@HoofHearted thank you for this, Iāll try it for sure 
@RosaCanDo thank you 
I really am so dreadfully nervous, the interview is being done by a video recording program, so no real live people, my first experience of this. Also, they have changed their whole interviewing process in the last few years and Iāve got no idea what type of questions Iāll be asked. I am going to do my research on their new process and see if that sheds any light
@Hopeful777 thank you 
I will try my absolute best
@icebear thank you
446 days no alcohol.
414 days no cocaine.
7 days no nicotine.
Feeling really disappointed, Iāve had to reset for binge-eating again today, didnāt even make it to a full two days. I wonāt give up with this though. Itās so frustrating. Starting to feel similar insanity to when I was repeatedly relapsing with cocaine. I know once I string a few days together I start to feel hopeful again.
Happy to have secured a week without nicotine, I am still using a vape with 0mg liquid, but will run out in less than a week, I am anxious about how I will cope without it completely, but I really want to stop so I will have to deal.
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Hi TS family. Thanks for being here. All are doing greatā¦staying strong. Checking in Day 6. Feeling good. Picked up my new old car today 2017ā¦Ford Escape. Pretty happy. Need to gather the strength to not let me ex use my carā¦as he had multiple accidents in my other carā¦when he was drinkingā¦ breatheā¦part of the healing from the tramua I endured in the unhealthy relationship I was in with him for 20 years. Going to stay strong and sober! tonight. Heās still in active addiction yet doesnāt think he has a problem.
Have a few assignments to complete for my yoga certification completionā¦n hot bath. This is how I will stay grounded and sober this evening. Good day all 
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@Dazercat my friend thanks coming here honestly was the best thing I could have done itās 5:38 pm and not a drink in my hand Iām so F*** glad I came here and have this support 
Unfortunately fathead ( my pitbull) had to be given away while going thru my break up it was in the care of my ex and she couldnāt take care of her anymore so I had to give her up I couldnāt keep her where iam renting now unfortunately I miss fathead everyday she was my companion but Iāve learned to live without her life goes on until I get a new puppy 
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Thank you for the prayers 
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@Jennajen Welcome back!
@Callie99 Asking someone to a date to a brewery is proof that drinking is seen as important/cool to that person. I think better to be clear that it doesnāt interest you. Also breweries are stinky. A cafe would be a much better date.
@anon53116147 Good for you! Keep at it.
@Annaka The not pretending is great.
@Singtone Congratulations! 300 is so great!
@Its_me_Stella You are killing it! Hope u find pretty sparkly things.
@Truckinmonster21 Stay strong!
@CATMANCAM Good luck for the interview!
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Checking in, day 40.
Struggling to stay sober because of the holiday and being triggered by my lonliness. I canāt help but keep thinking that our kids(one each from previous relationships) and us shouldāve been doing all kinds of fun halloween stuff together but not this year.
I miss them. I miss home. I miss all of us being a family. My kid misses it too.
I canāt help but wonder what theyāre doing without us.
Sighā¦
On a positive note, i feel attractive today?
Yet overwhelmingly sad.
So thatās an interesting mixture of emotions haha.
I get to stay locked inside, feeling cute, and crying.
Sounds beautifully healthy 
At least Iāll be sober 
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Haha I agree Fleur. Cafes are WAY better then breweries 
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Stella! Iām so happy for your 6 months and wow - 671 days substance free. I hope you got yourself some crystals to celebrate.
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Checking in on 197.99 days sober. Somehow Iām all over the place.
I know that in the past during each binge while still using, during each depressive episode there was some kind of breaking point. One point in time where I pulled myself up from the floor and told myself āEnough, Iām gonna clean up this messā and went on with my life. I used to rely on my resilience and stubbornness to move foward a lot.
This time Iām doing everything right. I told my closest people about the drinking and mental health stuff, I started therapy, I low key got a little more organized, spend more time on hereā¦ but Iām not reaching any kind of breaking point, I still mostly exist curled up on my couch, only moving when I really need to be somewhere. Itās been one year since I worked in the job I spent 6+ years going to school for. There are enough open positions, I just donāt apply.
I have a hard time accepting that I seem to need all this time to process it all. Iām afraid that by moving to fast, I will fall back into old habits. Never gave myself that kind of time before, I just hope itās the right move and my attempts to build a sober, healthier life are not in vain.
@Its_me_Stella congratulations on all the days and especially on your 6 months today! Glad you found something that worked for you 
@CATMANCAM yay, congrats on the job interview! Those things are always less scary than we make them out to be in our minds, youāre gonna rock it! Everybody here is rooting for you 
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Hey guys itās a great day to stay sober.
I feel like Iām flying through this year way too fast. I know that itās strange to be able to recall the last months being sober. The lack of holes in my memory is a blessing. It really feels like I put down just the other day.
So my day was like most for me I spent about three hours or so at the gym. Talked to some of my new sober friends. Now just bindge watching Blacklist.
I am concerned about shopping. I have spent too much money the last month. I havenāt worked in soooo long so it was nice when I got some cash from selling plasma but I spent all of it. So a little background. I lost everything last year December. I went to my exes from my sober house and everything was stolen. Everything I had my outfit I was wearing thatās it. So Iāve been buying things I still needed shoes and clothes mostly. So that seems ok to me. Way better than alcohol or drugs. The problem is I wanted to slow my role and take a week or so off buying things and havenāt. That is why Iām concerned.
But Iām so happy to say
73 days no alcohol
36 days no cigarettes
Great job on 24
I love being sober happy free
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Wow. I feel you so much. I have been there. I wish I could give you an answer but I think, from my experience, it takes as long as it takes. You are trying a completely new approach, which sounds a lot like a process I went through this year where I was shifting my mindset from the super highs and super lows to something more sustainable and balanced. And for a while, that meant a base level that wasnāt very productive (in my mind, which meant some kind of output or āproductā). I had to accept that the work is happening internally. At some point there will come a time where you can take another step, I started with small things identified through therapy, like adding a daily routine activity and follow through. Example: spend x amt of time with my feet on the earth outside per day (sounds silly, but being barefoot in grass or earth is grounding). Anyway, Iām babbling. Hang in there and trust the process. Bring up your concerns in therapy and talk about it. Iām so glad you are coming here to share, too. I feel seen! Sending strength. 
Edited to add this! I loved it and hope it helps, T.
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Iām so sorry you donāt have Rosie. I was almost afraid to ask. But I guess things like that, and everything else, we have to deal with sober right? Iām glad you didnāt pick up. You know weāre here. And you know this place works if you work it.
We got you back man.
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T
I know all about those "funks. When my depression is bad I donāt leave my bedroom let alone the house. Then after days turn to weeks to months I get anxious thinking about leaving the house. So not doing stuff makes me not want to do stuff. Thatās a heck of a circle. For me daily routines have helped me to get motivated. I spend every day out of the house even if itās just to go for a walk and it has helped me alot. But the therapy is a great choice my therapist is helping me so much with all my crappy tendencies.
I also wanted to say that taking your time is a great thing if you are able to. I have stopped drinking before then after a couple months Iām feeling good and get a new job and other commitments and start to ignore my recovery and self care.
Sorry to write so much all I wanted to say is push yourself off the couch. Take your time. And therapy is great.
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You are going to do great!
Honest I think doing it on video is way better. I always have high anxiety so if Iām in a different room I think it would be easier to relax. Remember youāre a bad ass. If you can kick alcohol cocaine and the worst for me cigarettes youāre gonna slay that interview.
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Good job coming here not the store! This is a great place to get stuff off your chest, get motivated, support, or just a laugh. Iām so glad I found this by mistake.
Glad youāre here and sober
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Ending day 22 now! One day at a time!
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