I can relate to this very well, I am the same way with sugar. You are doing great, keep trying it will stick Tyler and congrats on your week without smokes.
Thanks for your support.
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Day 90 no alcohol!! This is the second time Iāve ever hit 90 days. Feeling strong.
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Really happy for you Stella!
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Late night check in ok day/night. I hope for a better day tomorrow
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Way to go MagicILY
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I just finished it!! Amazing. Great acting. Truly showed how addiction makes a mess of things. Sorry there wonāt be a season 2ā¦but I can see why.
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Checking in L A T E! sleep has been a bit of an issue but I know Iām slacking on my routines. 30 days from my mindset reset and renewed alcohol free and anti-codependency commitments and Iām feeling progress. The alcohol free part is a no-brainer, I needed to get back to some basics, but the co-dependency and self worth/intrinsic motivation work is, well, work. But Iām so relieved to at least be gaining awareness and identifying areas to work on with specific actions. Lots of sitting with discomfort, getting curious about my thoughts feelings and reactions, and reframing self-talk. Lots of asking myself, āwhat is the story I am telling myself right now aboutā xyz. Also, pausing to think through this before reacting or ājust doing it myself,ā if that makes sense. Catching the resentments and the need for praise or approval.
Today was a superb day. Canāt say that often! Unexpected gorgeous weather, was super productive (even if I only crossed a couple things off my listā¦see there I go again), quality time and talk with my partner, time spent outside and a short drive in the evening sunset time with the gorgeous autumn leaves shining in the sun. Oh! And we carved pumpkins. I love mine. Itās the calavera 
I am so looking forward to another full, fun day tomorrow culminating in treating trick-or-treaters in costume with a fire pit going (itās going to be frigid)!
Much love, amigos. 
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Wanted to give me another try of checking in.
Have a good and sober Sunday and Halloween 
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Yesterday my son gave an early Halloween party for a couple of his ten years old friends. I spent the night before the party decorating, inflating balloons etc. (my son had a bit of cold and anyway, since Iām a fā¦ing perfectionist, we decided that I would hang the decorations). So, I only slept two hours since I had errands to run in the morning and cakes to prepare later.
Then had ten children in our house, running around, playing, screamingā¦ and was really glad thay had fun.
But, boy, it was a long and stressful day.
To cut the long story short, when everybody left, I was on the verge of pouring myself a large vodka and actually had to take antabuse to prevent me from slipping. I already did that before a trip to Turkey, but now I feel I cannot really trust myself to just say no to booze without the extra help of a medicine.
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- Coffee. Got another spinning class lined up but when the alarm just went (extra hour because weāre back to standard time and all) I very nearly turned over for some more zzzz. And I didnāt even drink last night. Itās good Iām up and about. Iāll have some breakfast and get moving. And have as a good a Sunday as I can. As I hope youāll all do. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
Lots of stuff happening on the thread. Keep going all!
@Its_me_Stella Huge congrats Stella! And lots of love.
@LuluOnTheBridge You take the action needed to protect your sobriety. Well done.
@RosaCanDo 30 days! Yes amiga. Felicidades.
@MagicILY 90 days already! Yay you! Big congrats!
@Penguin I canāt tell you what to do, but seems to me you are doing things just right. Make sure to keep going, if the pace is slow thatās OK. Hugs.
@paper_boats I feel you friend. 40 Days is an awesome feat. Congrats. One day at a time. Good days and bad ones
@Truckinmonster21 You didnāt come back here to start using again friend. Sorry for you doggo. Keep on track. Love.
@CATMANCAM Itās the toughest one to beat I feel. The binge eating that is. On the vaping: youāre already free from nicotine. Now all thatās left is habit. Think of stuff to do with your hands and mouth instead of having the vape around. I still use tooth picks six years after quitting. Especially when I think/write about smoking. Like now 
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Thank you it was fun! 
I even tried some peanuts and my stomach didnāt complain 
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90 days! Thatās awesome. Congratulations 
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Checking in day 34,5. Woke up way to early this morning.
Not much going on for today. Trying to relax a bit and prepare myself for the nightshifts which start next weekā¦ Am not looking forward to thisā¦ I find it really difficult to sleep during the dayā¦I hope it donāt stress me out to much.
Looking forward to reach my 5 weeks sober!
Wish you all a great sober day!
And donāt forgetā¦ One day at a time!
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Well done! 3 months!! 
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Day 40 checking in got to keep on moving forward feeling blessed for another day sober odaat all the best
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Checking in on Sunday morning. Day 31 sober.
Feeling blessed and grateful for the life thatās been given to me. May God bless you all and keep you safe.
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Thank you for your kind reply Rosa, itās so good to be heard I absolutely love the chart about being productive, this is a great change of perspective ā¦ I think I only measure my productivity in work output and donāt recognize all the inner work Iāve been doing. Need to take care of myself before I can throw myself into taking care of others again.
I was really surprised when my therapist praised me for having come so far already when I first came to her, I thought: āI just told you Iām too big of a mess to take on a stressful position again and need you to help me get there again - what are you praising me for?ā. So, thank you for that! It helps a great deal! Also love the idea if feeling the earth outside, but Iām afraid itās getting cold in Central Europe 
@TripnMN donāt apologize for writing so much - thank you for sharing your experience with me. Even though Iām sad you also have to live through the depression circle I know too well, itās good to know Iām not alone in this!
You have a great point there about creating a routine, thatās what I struggle with at the moment. I will go on walks, hikes and so on, but there is no consistency in my daily actions. Will work on that, Iām leaving the couch right now to go on a bike ride 
thanks again and hope youāre doing well!
@Mno thank you for the encouragement! Patience with myself ā¦ thatās a hard one to learn for me 
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Second check in. Because. Also I forgot to congratulate Tony @Singtone. Big ones your way friend! šÆāā
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Day 11. 
Still so much I could and want to do better to be honest, one day at a timeā¦! I feel like little yet lots is going onā¦ But the cup is half full, Iām the real me, and at least I care and am trying!! ALWAYS look at the bright side of life my friendsā¦! 
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