@MaggieDoe, congratulations, so happy for you! It works when we work it!
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Thank you my friend! You are doing well yourself 
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Checking in and feeling really positive this morning, entering joyfully into the new week. I thought I had a break in the weather long enough to walk Miss Lupeā¦well, we got drenched. Thank goodness itās balmy out so we werenāt cold and it was actually kind of invigorating! Birdies singing their hearts out everywhere and damp bunnies and squirrels going about their business. Lupe still stopped to sniff things so I know she was okay, too. I got a message last night from the woman who is moving and finding homes for some of her plants asking if I would take the two remaining for free. Hell yeah Iām taking the plants! Growing things gives me so much joy and fulfillment and is becoming an important part of this sense of self that I am working to have a better grasp of. I hope to start propagating new plants more deliberately to sell and give as gifts (itās been a hobby of mine for a long time, but maybe I can do something more with it). I have my first acupuncture appointment this afternoon and am praying to Mother Earth that it helps me with migraines. Fingers crossed. Gratefully sober and happy to be alive today. Sending love and strength to you, amigos. 
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I didnāt even try to come and seek help, last night around ten I just had a sudden urge to use so I went and got both of my d.o.c, I didnāt even want to post this bc I already know the comments Iām gonna get, nothing changes If nothing changes. Go to rehab I know. I used Friday night events for a excuse. I crashed hard after Friday and slept all day yesterday. I woke up was fine and drew for a little and then just got hit with the letās get fucked up thought. Iāll be back tomorrow when Iām clear headed
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Hang in there, Mike! Iām rooting for you to get this figured out. You deserve a sober life.
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Rooting for you man. Just know it does get easier, the void goes away, the urges go away.
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I understand. I feel like I might have the same problem. 21 days to break a habit! You are so resilient, you will kick butt! Good luck, we will miss you!
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Good plan. Hope to see you tomorrow.
Hug.
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Made it! Today is my fiancĆ©ās birthday. Yep, we have been engaged for 3.5+ years but itās been hard and so I quit calling him my fiancĆ©. Truth is, he has been the only solid thing in my life. His love for me has been unwavering and I donāt deserve it but I am grateful he never gives up on me. Living with his parents was rough! There is so much mental and emotional abuse that goes on in that family, anyone would have ran for the hills. The only good thing that came from it was that now I understand where he comes from. Our relationship has been much better since we moved out of there and into our own house. He is also working 40 hours a week so I donāt know if that makes a difference ā¦ Anyway going off on a tangent. I am going to try and make his day special! He deserves an amazing day.
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Have a great Special day for you and fiancƩ Sarah. You both deserve an amazing day.
I love all the 444ās
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In spite of it all, look what I did! Iām so thankful I woke up two months ago and decided enough was enough. 
Thanks so much @Dazercat, @Matt, and @Mbwoman for reaching out. Thanks to those of you who prayed and sent good vibes for us. My son is doing a lot better today, the tremors have lessened, and heās not as anxious. I canāt say how thankful I am that heās alive. 
Seeing all the milestones reached makes me happy and hopeful for myself and my son. Iām trying to get him to attend an online meeting today, but Iām not sure how successful Iāll be. We live near each other but in separate rural mountain communities, so access to in-person meetings isnāt an option. Even if it was, the closest one is heavily religious, and he tried it a few times before. Thatās not happening again, so Iām telling him about all the online meetings. I believe Recovery Dharma would be a great fit for him. Keep us in your prayers. Heās a highly sought after bartender, so just since heās been at home with me, the gig offers have been pouring in. Even out-of-state offers! Iām glad Iām sober and feel a tremendous calmness. I wouldnāt be able to support him if I were still drinking.
Much love to yāall
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Keep going back to meetings, I was taught how to live a life without drugs and booze through my sponsor and other members in recovery. Itās possible, congrats on your days.
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@Jfrat congrats on your year 
@CaptAZ congrats on your anniversaries 
how lovely that you were married on the same date as you got together 
@ShesGotMoxie prayers for your son just seen your more recent post, Iām so pleased heās doing better and I hope he will follow in your footsteps, congrats on 60 days
@MagicILY congrats on 70 days
@SoberSenze congrats on your week
@icebear congrats on 4 months
@Mbwoman Iām so sorry your cat is sick, and about the troubles at home, sending strength and prayers. 
@MaggieDoe congrats on 2 weeks
@jjcarson92 congrats on 21 months I pray you find your way with the other stuff too
@SIK welcome 
congrats on 3 days
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Woooohoooooo!!!
Itās a beautiful thing when we hit milestones but even more amazing when we overcome life on lifeās terms. Congrats on your 60 days Carolyn, but bigger congrats on keeping your shit together during a crisis and handling it with grace. Youāre a great mom.
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Thanks a bunch, Stella! 
Letās hope I can keep my shit together dealing with all thatās coming next.
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@Ninjakitty happy sober birthday! 
@RosaCanDo yay for new plants! 
I hope accupunture goes well for you
@anon53116147 proud of your honesty, donāt give up
@Clarity congrats on all the 4s enjoy the celebrations
427 days no alcohol.
395 days no cocaine.
33 days no binge-eating.
Iām struggling today, another wave of depression. Big cravings for a take-away but trying to tell myself itās not worth it. I have started watching Maid, itās good but hard to watch, Iāve been in a few abusive relationships and Iāve never been the same since.
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