I’m back to my 4 times a week training sessions, as it suddenly got pretty chilly and not really ok to go for a swim. I don’t mind cold water, but I do mind cold wind and the possibility of getting a cold.
Not much of anything going on - I rarely see my friends, since one of them had a baby a month ago and spends most of her time at home, the other is recovering from Covid etc.
In my country the pandemic is wrecking havoc and the number of people infected and/or dying is off the charts, so I try to do my best to avoid getting into crowds, which is easy, living in a small town.
Anyhow, I’m a bit frustrated because I can’t fit studying (I wanted to continue and work on my Italian literature knowledge) into my schedule. Between some translations I do, the private lessons and my son’s homework (4 hours of looking around, wanting/not wanting to eat something/ talking etc. and 30 minutes of actual work 
) I cannot organize myself and find those 4 hours a day I need to sit with a book.
Well, enough of me babbling: I’m sober, sometimes nervous and anxious and not living my life at full at the moment, but I don’t wake up with the feeling of shame and guilt and impotence.
Good day to all of you!
(I rarely check-in, but I always feel great stopping by, reading your stories and feeling part of this community)
Cheers mate getting there odaat 
I know how you feel. I was in exactly the same situation 2 years ago. I ended up drinking for 10 days. Don’t walk that path it’s not worth it. Reading your post you have no intention doing it.
Stay focused and wish you all the best 
Day 22 checking in odaat
- Coffee. Two days off. Not too well rested but I’ll be OK. Got my old mates coming over for dinner. Not too much to do to make my place presentable. How different that was a couple of years ago. Never again. Looking at how much progress I made in my physical world makes me realize I made quite some progress mentally and soulfully too. By being sober and clean and working it, one day at a time. Have a good day friends, or at least as good as you all can. Love from my little square in autumn.
@hidden Sorry friend. Drinking won’t help. You know it. Hang in there.
Enjoy & plz say hi to this little tropical part of the Kingdom of the Netherlands for me!
Checking in sober on Wednesday morning.
Sober October in full swing.
Thanks for posting this. I knew Stephen King was sober, his journey was interesting. I love seeing how life does improve with sobriety. Mine certainly has and I’m not close to three years.
That mushroom doesn’t even look real. Looks like something out of a Disney movie. Fungi are fascinating.
Checking in and feeling great AGAIN first thing in the morning…looking in the mirror saying, “who even ARE you?!?” Did my morning stretches and exercises, had breakfast and a cup of tea and I wish I could beat the rain we’re supposed to get and walk my dog now at 6:30, but it’s pitch black outside. So, we’ll gear up in rain gear when we head out in an hour or so and hope it holds off. I am grateful to have the luxury of time to be so focused on myself right now, lots of reading/listening to recovery and self-help lit, my favorite Brené Brown podcasts that teach me so much, journaling and working on my vision for the future while taking good care of myself each day. I’ve written about this before quite some time ago, but I feel a renewed effort to examine intrinsic vs. extrinsic motivations - how can I find and focus on the motivations within me to be and do better without an external reinforcement in the form of praise, or attention, or that awful people-pleasing tendency that is so deeply imbedded within my psyche? I am working really hard to examine this and shift my focus to having what I need within myself. Hard work, amigos. Very pleased that my craving for alcohol is minimal, some occasional romanticizing, and has been for a long time (for the most part).
This time of year is reminding me of last year when I was playing nurse and momma to my baby Chucho as his health slowly declined and how having a purpose was part of what helped me stay sober. I would never have been able to care for him and give him the best last 5 months possible if I was still drinking. I remain eternally grateful for that.
Sending love and sober energy to you all, amigos. 
It makes me happy to read this this morning 
I don’t feel like that, @anon53116147 I have been around and relapsed far more than you. I still think people think I am a vital member of this community. How you stay vital is how you handle your relapse and return. What you did just there: That isn’t it. You feel like shit because you fucked up. That’s OK. Get back to it.
Also, if anyone really is doing that - What they think about you is none of your business AND you know that, too. There is no place for “high-horse” sobriety. I know there are people on here who stick together outside of the forum, good on 'em. Stay in your lane, buddy. Work on you. That finger you’re pointing? It left the other three pointing right back at you.
Come back. Get better. Don’t give up.
Day 488 (16 months) clean and sober today. Wow have I come a long way. Thank you everyone for being on this awesome journey with me, love you guys! 
Hey everyone, checking in on day 486.
I hope everyone has a good one today!
Huge shout out to my almost sober twin @Rockstar24777 for hitting 16 months! Congrats man!!
- Our morning…this kid right here inspires me to be a better Mom everyday. He had his pacemaker put in at the age of 7. This pic is us sending a read to his cardiologist. He was breathing through it. It turns his pacemaker off to make sure everything is working properly and his heart stops and restarts. My daughter said to him why are you breathing like that (she was annoyed). He said my heart just restarted and it takes my breath away. He’s my Ogitchidaa (warrior-Potatwatomi language)! Words can’t express how strong he is. This is why I stay sober every single day…why I work so hard. My children are my world and have loved me unconditionally even after everything I’ve put them through. Have a Blessed Day TS fam
Check in on what will be my first full day. Got plastered at work yesterday. My wife told me I needed to change. She believes I can do it and believes in me. She hasn’t demonized me for it but wants me to do better. I need to change before I no longer have a job to go to or I one day don’t make the drive home. Day one here we go. Many more sober days to come I hope.
Support isn’t all that common! I’d wish you luck, but luck has nothing to do with it. You can do this. Make sure to check out the resources for recovery. It’s full of helpful information. Welcome to changing your life.
Wow. What a fighter…glad he has such a good mom to take care of him!
Thank you bro you’re right behind me!!!