60 days sober from alcohol today 
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Great work! Congrats!!!
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@Tomek congrats on 90 days smoke-free 
@Amawat88 congrats on 3+ weeks
@Misokatsu feel better soon 
@ShadowFax difficult but good decision, I had to make a few of those myself, no regrets.
@Hidden Iām sorry about the break-up, sending strength 
@Misswest welcome 
congrats on 3 days
@Dmcg1987 congrats on 3+ weeks
@Charlie_C stunning photos! 
Congrats on all the 3s
@zzz feel better soon
@Rockstar24777 congrats on 16 months
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@Complicatedmama bless his heart
@Kkirka231 welcome congrats on day 1
429 days no alcohol.
397 days no cocaine.
35 days no binge-eating.
Had support group for 2 hours this morning, it gave me really bad anxiety and I had palpitations and dizziness during the whole second hour. Itās a good group, there are a lot of similarities which is really interesting for me. Since then Iāve been calming myself down by doing breathing exercises and meditations, and looking at some memes. I feel okay now, better than Iāve felt in a few days, itās so nice 
I ordered an electric blanket for my bed, for the cats, it arrived an hour ago and I was apprehensive about it possibly making me sweat but Iāve got it on the lowest setting and itās actually really soothing, since I do suffer with my back, will see how I go during the night. Iām so excited for my cats to join me on the bed because I just think they are gonna love it. 
I was supposed to start my psychodynamic psychotherapy next week, but the Dr called me today and said his supervisor thinks I need someone with more experience. So I will be put at the top of the list for a more suited Dr.
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Ohhhh me cats loved it when the electric blanket was onā¦ the sleept the whole night on it. When I turned it of they looked really angry! 
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Day 16.
Really nothing new to say. The new migraine medication is making me super nauseous but I donāt have a headache today so I consider it a win.
Hope everyone has a wonderful day.
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Day 3. Exhausted. I have no motivation. I am launching my charcuterie business this weekend. So, I better find it somewhere! I am excited but also filling my head with negative self-talk and trying to meditate and read that away.
I have so much to square away. I have made the mistake in the past of trying to do everything at once and then just opting to do nothing at all.
Things I am doing this time that I havenāt in the past. 1. Taking a selfie every day and writing the day on it. 2. Checking Butchās daily post every day. 3. Posting gratitude every day. 4. Scheduling every waking moment (at least beginning tomorrow). Why quit drinking if I am still losing hours? Before I ever decide I will pick up a drink, I will 1. Look at the selfieās in order of days clean. 2. Read my gratitude posts. 3. Reach out to anyone, everyone, here, RD, the Moon. And as I advised someone today, 4. Go back and read all my advice to other people - no matter how long it takes. If I still wanted to drink after all of thatā¦I might but who would?
What I was doing before that I am engaging anew: Daily RD meetings, readings and podcasts, meditation and yoga.
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Needed to check in.
Insomnia last night led to a really awful day. Shitty mood.
Plus I donāt like my job. Very sad thinking about it a lot in the past weeks. Actually my insomnia is related to overthinking about what I could do after this last year in this program.
I still canāt figure out what Iām going to do after. Itās really hard to just let it flow since I donāt like where I am at right now.
Still proud to be somewhere around 394 days sober. Tomorrowās my 13th month sober.
Still, yesterday and today have been 2 days in which I found myself conscientiously letting myself thinking about drinking. Itās been awhile since Iāve romanticize drinking like that. I get itās because Iāve had enough of thinking about my futur and my career , but still freaks me out to let me think like that about drinking, knowing exactly where it could lead.
I see my therapist tonight. It always help. So until then Iāll call it a day and make some casual food while forgetting myself with netflix.
Some days you just have to get through.
Hope everyone is doing good
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Good morning. So Iāve woken with anxiety panic attacks every morning now for 18 days straight. They last for a few hours and longer if I donāt get moving.
Does anybody have any other ideas on how to work through it? Iām leaning in and not taking any meds for it. I donāt want to mask it, I want to know whatās happening. 
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Checking in, 341 days no alcohol, 91 days no smoke. The last two weeks of the month will be very intense. I will have a medical examination that canāt be delayed otherwise my whole treatment gets postponed 3 months. My other examination didnāt go well, so itās still not sure if I can start at all. I will have an other appointment to monitor that newly occurred problem. I will also have a tooth surgery which Iām really afraid of, after the one I had at spring. My brother will come to visit with his family for a few days which is nice but Iām not accustomed to have others in my home, so it will probably make me anxious. And I have to travel to my homeland to an emotionally draining funeral. Its date is unknown at the moment, so it can cancel any of the stuff above. And I have a lot of work. Itās the schedule, but I guess it will be more chaotic emotionally. Iām glad Iām doing it sober, one day at a time.
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Hey guys I hope you are all doing well.
56 days no alcohol
19 day no cigarettes
I havenāt been as āupā the last couple of days. Iāll tell you what. The cloudy Rainey days might take some pep out of my step but I thank God for blah sober days too.
You all deserve to be sober, happy, and free.
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I really wish I had an answer for you. I have high blood pressure so the medication I take dramatically lowers my anxiety. I hope you can get them under control it is scary and draining for sure.
I start my day praying then meditate and stretch. It starts my morning very peaceful.
All I got hang in there.
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Omg I am seriously so sorry everyone 
. That was not me, I was blacked out and obviously hurting and lashing out. I honestly donāt even know what to say i am really sorry thatās not who i am
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Donāt smoke kids! Here I am, at the dentist for my quarterly cleaning. Even though I quit smoking/vaping 3 years ago, I am at risk of tooth loss for the next 15 years!!
Edit to add its also been over 3 years since my last drink. Also edit to say, I hate this, anxiety through the roof.
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All good, I did shitty stuff drunk, totally opposite to myself. But what if next time you get mean at your mum or your ex? People who wonāt be so understanding. For the love of God, get help. You are sinking and your current program is not working.
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I remember when you first came here you were hungry for sobriety, excited about itā¦ man you were one of the biggest contributors to the community. You gotta try and get that back manā¦ you gotta do whatever it takes to stay sober if you really want it. Weāre all pulling for you.
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Check in Iām doing great sober life is a better life
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Iām pretty sure you said this before but I honestly canāt remember or find itā¦is there a reason that rehab isnāt an option?
I want you to succeed just like everyone else, but you gotta try something different.
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