Congratulations on your 11 months Charlie!! And I am sorry about your Dad, and understand 100%…my Mom is 85 and my Dad is 87 and they have lived full lives as well. 
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@JLove congrats on 90 days 
@AyBee congrats on all the 8s
@Misokatsu thank you 
@Complicatedmama I’m so sorry for your loss this is heart-breaking 
sending strength
@Dazercat Thats so lovely that you can see photos of them while you’re away 
. Thank you
@SIK thank you
@Charlie_C I’m sorry for your loss, despite the comforting circumstances, it’s still hard to lose a parent. Sending strength Congrats on 11 months
@Rockstar24777 It’s a shame she wasn’t blocked already but glad you’ve done it now, definitely do not engage, you’ve came really far, stay strong and focus on your healing
@TripnMN congrats on those results!
@anon53116147 your drawing of you and your girls was amazing, you for sure are good enough, take the offers Congrats on day 1
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@Stormy enjoy your time off 
@Soundlab welcome back 
congrats on 3 days
431 days no alcohol.
399 days no cocaine.
37 days no binge-eating.
Home from the meal out with family. The salad was really nice but I feel so uncomfortably full after only drinking my diet shakes for nearly 3 weeks. Meals are so strange for me because I find I only speak to the person opposite me, especially when it’s really loud with music blaring out like tonight. Chatted a bit with everyone on the walk to our cars so that helped me feel less awkward. My dad has asked for my help sorting his paperwork out on Monday, I’ve said yes because I hate the thought of him stressing about it, I know it’s always a burden for him, it always has been, when my mum was alive she kept on top of it all for him, but she passed away in 1996. I’m good at organising papers so I feel capable of helping. I told him I’d applied for my old job back, he got stressed with me and said it was a bad idea since I’ve only just got out of my financial crisis from not being able to cope with work. I just feel so much shame from being on benefits and my life feels so small and I worry that if I don’t find my way back out into the world then it will always be like this. It’s so hard to know what to do, because I’ve got no way of knowing if I could cope with working again or not, I just really like to think I might be able to be a functioning member of society again. I may not even get an interview let alone be offered the job, so I think I will see it through rather than withdraw my application.
I have got 25mins left of the final episode of Maid. It’s been quite an emotional series, but I’ve kinda enjoyed feeling something, most of the time I feel so numb so it’s good to touch on some stuff from the past and acknowledge there are still wounds there. Makes me eager to start therapy so I can start processing stuff in a safe way.
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@CATMANCAM There is nothing to be ashamed of. My suggestion is that you take baby steps. If the last job stressed you try something new. A coffee shop or grocery store. Just to see how you can handle it nothing to overwhelming to start. It takes time. Your mental health is most important first and foremost my friend! I hope you can find balance. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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Checking in, day 7 today.
I am really sad I just was not able to kick ass. Had two years in december. And from january on everything just fell apart.
I cant really remember, but had always like 4-5 days sober from then on before the next Episode came.
Shit, maybe the pandemic was too much for me and I was to stupid to reach out for help before I relapsed.
Now trying my best to end this and get clean andsober.
Started online Meetings of AA…still to afraid to go in Person.
Should do this I think it could Help a Lot.
Yeah so… Not really proud of the last 9 months…
Feeling like a failure and even hating myself more than before.
But yeah, you know doesnt help so, i Just try to live from hour to hour right now…
Have a good 24 hours everyone
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Another friend of mine just over dosed, that’s like 6 of my friends this year. I say friends, but really they were only drug friends but still it’s sad when that shit happens, and literally off the same shit I just relapsed on the other day. Someone is looking out for me and I need to wake the fuck up fuck is happening to my town
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sorry I missed this, this is huge and your yet another shining example of what you get if you never stop trying. An inspiration to many and loved by us all. Well done Donna
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If only it was that hey, the pandemic didn’t get you drunk, millions of people have suffered and not touched alcohol or drugs, we are addicts, we are alcoholics. Given enough time like maybe 6 months a year or maybe 2 and we believe we are cured so we dip our toe in the water and before we know it we’re in over our head again screaming for help. AA do good life jackets if you choose to use them 
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Thank you, Paul! Glad to have you in my corner, 
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You are working so hard at life…it is really inspiring and great to see.
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Good evening checking in kinda late but better late than never had a good day I guess still keeping clean. Thank you for this group
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Quick check in at day 1018 ckean…at the tattoo shop again for more ink lol. I’m just grateful for another day clean and the pain I put myself through today is way less then the pain I used to put myself into. I hope everyone has a blessed day/night 
I will post a picture later on the tattoo page I dont wanna get flagged here
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Daily check in
58 days no alcohol
21 days no cigarettes
I got my CPAP today and hope I can get a good night’s sleep. It was a long day and I have been trying to exercise. In the last 2 days I walked over 12 miles. That might not sound like much to some but that is alot for me. I also got the new gym membership that I will start using tomorrow. I am determined to get this weight off. Since December I gained 30 pounds just sitting in the bedroom day and night drinking. I didn’t even go to the liquor store just had delivery. Thank God I’m not doing that today. I was just existing at that point.
Not sure what to do about dating. I think no but I am not used to being “Alone”. I was thinking. maybe something casual as long as everyone understands that. But I know it’s not worth my sobriety. That is how I relapse last time. I drank to get over the anxiety spending the night with a woman. This is why I’m supposed to get a sponsor.
Life is good I am blessed
Thanks for listening
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Just thinking about HALT
hungry angry lonely tired
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Post it on my thread as well man, I love looking and studying them
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Checking in AF.
I’ve been struggling to address the problem between my wife and 8 year old son. She is constantly yelling at him, but won’t follow through on a real punishment. He feels like he is a bad kid. He told me that again. I don’t want to choose sides, but she needs to find a new approach. I told her that nicely tonight. We’ll see. When I try to give him a real punishment, I get told I’m going to far. Can’t win…
I glad to have my eyes wide open to deal with this shit. I hope I can find the answers.
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Don’t you love it when you say things outloud and then end up answering your own question? I love that!!!
I hope you sleep well tonight, congrats on your days.
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Day 75 no alcohol. Going into the weekend feeling good!
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