As for myself…checking in on day 488 today. I hope everyone has a good one!
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Day 13 and feeling good!
Need to start getting vsome meditation back in my routine. Just mad busy this week.
But as someone once said if you don’t have 5 free in a day you need to take 1 hour. Or something like that 
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Yes, that’s it exactly. And me to a T! That’s tied to the extrinsic motivation vs. intrinsic - being driven by their own satisfaction as the driving force rather than external reward systems, like praise, outside pressure (or perceived pressure) and so on. Something I am striving toward. I used to feel defined by my success at work and when I burned out in that job I was an emotional mess. Thanks for bringing this up. @4lilcinny Cindy I’ll have to check out some workbooks - thanks!
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Checking in - busy day ahead with errands to run, chores to do, plants to transplant (digging holes is hard work! I only managed to plant one hosta in the ground yesterday) and camping prep to complete. I felt good yesterday until I didn’t, and realize that the booster shot was still affecting me some toward the end of the day, so I rested. Slept another 9 hours - yikes! And I’m slow getting around this morning. I’ll listen to my body and I hope Lupe will be amenable to a slightly more leisurely walk this morning compared to our usual power walk (she’ll get over it eventually). I received a couple books in the mail yesterday that were highly recommended by my friend and I’m excited to check them out. Apparently a former rocker that tells stories about drinking and drugging out on the road touring and whatnot and how he found recovery, with an interesting combo of Buddhism and 12-step methods. Being a former rock and roll party girl and band wife/groupie/roadie, it will probably hit home. I’m very grateful to be sober and still able to love all the rock and metal and grunge music of old, as well as all the other wide variety of music that I enjoy - I’m very lucky to not be triggered by music these days.
I hope you all enjoy your Friday and remember to come here or reach out to your other recovery supports if you’re struggling this weekend. Sending love, mis amigos. 
@Charlie_C congrats on your 11 months and my condolences on your loss. I am glad his last days and his passing were peaceful.
The books:
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Well here is to day 1 again. I didn’t use anything yesterday but needed a day of rest. Got ahold of my sponsor and will be going to a meeting Sunday with him. Triedto get ahold of north star again to see about some outpatient treatment again. First I need to get insurance going again. Been posting some of my drawings on fb and a couple ppl messaged me asking to do some paid drawings for them. Having a hard time saying yes bc I’m not even close to being good enough. Good couple days with my girls. I’m sorry again for my inappropriate behavior the other night. Much love
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Awesome Mike, those sound like some huge steps in the right direction.
Why not sell your drawings if people are asking? I think it’s a great opportunity. Glad you’re still here man.
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@Charlie_C I am so sorry to hear about your dad. Congrats on 11 months, and I’m so glad this cruise met all expectations. Thanks for sharing the beautiful photos.
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Idk man. Yeah it’s a great opportunity, but I’m know where near good enough as some actual portrait artist who do it for commission. They say artist are there own worse critic.
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Still catching up here. Day 448.
Wasn’t feeling that good yesterday. I took a scoop of pre work out to get things done and it just made me feel dizzy and sick so I sat on the couch all day and watched 5 episodes of MAID. Just one of those days! Such a good show, I cried 3 times in the first episode. But it definitely made me feel lonely and depressed. Sooo…
Gonna just stick with the coffee today.
@Rockstar24777 been thinking of you! Good job blocking what’s her face. You deserve only the best! 
@Charlie_C Loving all these vacation photos!!
@anon53116147 Much love to you mike! Just glad you are still here and still trying.
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Thank you, Sara!! 
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I don’t know of any artist who believes they are “good enough”. I think some are just braver than the rest of us. I look at my art and think, eh it’s rudimentary, looks like a child painted this. If you have had interest, go for it! Who knows it might lead to more opportunities. And it’s good practice.
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Damn!! That beats any breakfast view I’ve ever had. I need to take a cruise lol I’ve actually never done one.
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Amazing view! Kind of makes me jealous, even though I live right next to water. I should consider hopping on a boat sometime too 
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Day 490 clean and sober today. Thank you for your support through this mindf**k of a situation, love you guys 
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Hope you won’t have any long lasting effects. You should have a good resistance now for a good while anyway.
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Sorry for your lose cc. This has got to be a hard time. My dad is in that age range and I have been thinking about when that day comes to my family and it is tough enough just to think about it. Nothing can really prepare us for when family is lost. Stay strong and congratulations on your 11 months!
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Checking in 62 days sober officially on holiday for a week too time to relax!
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I absolutely love Ft. Lauderdale! Been there several times. Can’t wait to head back one day.
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Day 160. Seeing real gains in my fitness goals these days. Have a great day everyone!
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