Day 47
After sleeping 6 hours a day for 2 weeks straight, I finally disabled my alarms for today. After sleeping a whopping 12 hours I woke up to lots of messages from work. Too bad I don’t get to enjoy this weekend as I still have a ton of projects due :’)
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A good morning is incomplete without a good ol cup of tea 
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I think I forgot to check in yesterday it’s been a crazy chaotic week. My medication is still making me super nauseous along with some other les than desirable side effects. But made it through day 18 and I’ll be fine tonight. Looking forward to 3 weeks on Sunday.
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Day 491 clean and sober today. I hope everyone has a wonderful day today, love you guys 
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Hey all, checking in on day 489. For some reason I had another dream where I drank last night. As usual, I was really upset and anxious when I woke up until I realized it was just a dream. I guess they just happen from time to time!
I hope everybody has a great start to their weekend!
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Checking 71 days AF. Today on a trip I typical drink on, all day, where morning coffee would be wine. Where I would buy cheap wine on taxfree, and lots. I was a little scared to go, that I would be triggered. But here I am.
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Moving right along. Almost to that two month chip! Now, I’m not in AA but my husband gives me these at my milestones. These are my 24 hours and 1 month. The rest will just be plain aluminum until I make it to a year. (If I make it) that one will be solid silver he tells me. I don’t get to see them before he gives them to me. He’s got them hidden somewhere lol
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Today is Day 73 clean and sober and spending it with a couple of my children… blessings of recovery!
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Hey!! Glad to see you’re still around. Man, we’ve sucked at keeping up. 
Might be time for a chat. I’d love to know how you are. Message me on Whatsapp if you still have my number!
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Checking in with 26 days alcohol free! This is scary because since I started this recovery journey back in May, I’ve had 2 long-ish stints of sobriety: 27 days and 26 days. That’s the longest I’ve gone without booze since I was a teenager. So I’m approaching this weekend with a strong motivation to stay sober, but also scared that a big monster craving 
is lurking around the corner ready to jump out and take over my brain again. I’m praying to my dogs up in heaven that I stay strong 
Have a great day everyone!
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It will be beautiful, can’t wait to see some photos of the trees.
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@Complicatedmama thank you 
the job I’ve applied for is the government office job I did for 11 years but left to go full time in children’s homes back in 2017. I’ve tried 5 different jobs since then and it’s always ended the same way, with crippling anxiety and depression. I’ve had 21 months off now, there is definitely something pulling me to try again with something familiar now that the opportunity has arisen.
@Annaka welcome back 
congrats on your week 
@anon53116147 sorry for your loss
@SassyRocks thank you
@TripnMN congrats on 3 weeks smoke-free
@Beforemy30s congrats on 6 months, nice to read your update, really pleased you’re settling into things well 
welcome to your thirties 
@Julied congrats on 250 days
@RosaCanDo sorry about the nightmare and pains enjoy your camping trip 
@MolotovMoxie I’m so glad you’ve got such a supportive husband who celebrates your sobriety 
@liv_m congrats on 80 days
432 days no alcohol.
400 days no cocaine.
Feeling ashamed to say I’ve had to reset my binge-eating counter. 
The other night when I was really craving something savoury, I ordered a 1kg bag of cheese flavoured toasted corn, it took a few days to arrive, and when I did, yesterday morning, the plan was to only eat it in 100g portions instead of 2 shakes each day that I ate some. But yeah, you guessed it, late last night the bingeing started, I wake up a few times during the night and each time I ate another bowl, and in less than 24 hours I’ve eaten the whole 1kg bag. I’ve been in so much pain with my stomach, just like the last time I had a big binge 38 days ago. I also went to the shop this afternoon and bought and ate two chocolate bars and a bottle of coke. I’ve now reset my counter and I’m ready to go at it again, back on my diet plan. There will be no occasions where I’m guilt-tripped into eating real food again until Xmas, and even then I don’t want to partake so will try to avoid it. The repeating lesson is that I can’t control myself with anything that I really like. I hate being an addict.
In other, more positive, news, I am 400 days clean from cocaine. The way that it feels like only yesterday when I last picked up and used, reminds me how close I always am to picking up again. I never want to forget that, it’s a valid fear that helps me stay in recovery, much like being here with you all does too. Thank you for being here and sharing your lives and stories. Grateful.
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Checking in, 344 days no alcohol, 94 days no smoke. Not having good days just self-loathing and getting lost in my mind. I guess this is the step back after the two steps forward. I’m glad I have a deadline tomorrow, so I can distract myself with work.
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Hey everyone, here is to day two. Did a tattoo for someone and he loved it, still more work to on it but very happy. Feeling good to be sober, I really want this and feel so good when I do have it. Really is time to put the ego aside, excited to go to a meeting tomorrow. Much love
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So glad to hear you’re feeling good man. That’s scary stuff about everyone OD’ing in your town.
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Sad thing is with the shit going around right now it won’t be long before there is another. Tupper lake actually has like one of the highest drug and crime rates right now. I could tell when I got my shit the other day something wasn’t right with it, but My stupid fucking ass put that shit up my nose anyways because I’m s powerless addict, I need to stop thinking I have control. I don’t
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keep em coming Dave 
Well done, End of the foot, 80.
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Hey everybody daily sober check in.
59 days no alcohol
22 days no cigarettes
I am doing good as far as cravings for alcohol. I got Naltrexone for the first time. I think it helps. But dang I want a cigarette. I was on my way to the gym today standing at the bus stop and saw a couple of people smoking. I started with the bargaining and justifying. If I only smoke a couple a day it’s still healthier. I should wait until I have more clean time to stop smoking etc. But I haven’t smoked for another day. I remember my grandfather would be telling a story and Pat his breast pocket looking for a cigarette and he hadn’t smoked in 30 plus years.
Anyway the gym was awesome. If you have never been on a hydro bed wow you are missing out. I loved it. This was my first work out since my December relapse. I gained 30 pounds since then so it’s time to get back to a normal weight for me. It’s hard to wrap my head around not eating and gaining weight all I did was drink eat maybe 2 times a week.
The CPAP wasn’t great last night but I will get used to it in time I know it will help. I stopped breathing 34.4 times per hour there is no rest in that.
@CATMANCAM remember your success, dust off and back at it. Sorry you had the stomach pain after but I guess when we slip it doesn’t usually go well. Let it go it’s in the past and know you inspire me.
Enjoy your weekend everyone
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