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Sitting here in my house checking in, chore Saturday is actually feeling good, my thumb print Pandora music playing in the background, painted a shelf (watching said paint dry). Daughter dropped off the puppies to dogsit while they go to a pumpkin patch. They’re sleeping. Husband went into town.
I like being alone. It’s so relaxing. I just dont have the anxieties I have when I’m around people. Something about how I was brought up with high expectations from my family that created this monster of recurring thoughts; Am I doing this right? does this look okay? What are others thinking of me? I’m too fat, too plain, too short. And then the imposter syndrome; when are they going to call me out on this? I drank to quiet the voices.
I’m trying to deal with all the insecurities now, reminding myself I am enough.
Anyways. I hope you all are having a fantastic day!
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Ya it is.
It’s one of those movies I love everything about it. I never knew Cher was such a great actress. And Olympia Dukakis such a class act 
You ok?
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Good. Thanks for letting me know.
Shit happens.
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Checking in on a cold 
Minnesota night.
66 days no alcohol
29 days no cigarettes
Way better day today! Went right to the gym after breakfast and had a really good workout. I watched football while on the elliptical and a better lifting session than I have had so far. But most importantly the self care the hydro bed was awesome and tanning is very relaxing (never thought I would say that lol). After I walked a couple of miles. When I got home the house manager and roommate left me alone for the most part so just been chilln.
@Charlie_C I want 20 drinks too but if I don’t take that first one I’m not worried about those other 19.
@CATMANCAM you are still a rockstar please don’t hurt yourself this time.
With that I’m going to pray and meditate while I stretch. Goodnight everyone 
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I need to get better at checking in on time haha but better late than never doing ok had to put up some BS last night still sober / clean. I have been put to the real test with my clean life with the Bs of family drama
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Thanks Eric I’m glad you’re here too!
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Really early check in. Day 27 of not drinking alcohol.
I didn’t slept well, but I am Hangover free and that makes a huge difference.
Enjoy your Sunday! I work from 0500 till about 1200 
One day at a time! 
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Thank you 
I am sure trying to just slow down. I of course want everything right now but I’m trying to look around and enjoy all these things that I wouldn’t while using.
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Made it through day 5. Felt good waking up early. Rained a bit which was lovely and needed. Was super productive and did well on some finals for classes I’m taking.
I’m with my bf’s family right now and everyone is drinking. Singing songs. I’m in the kitchen baking cookies for them. I’m not really triggered, just bored. Still having some fun, but I’m usually drinking along with everyone so it’s just different.
Anyway, looking forward to going home and not being f’ed up.
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- Coffee. Still need to wake up. Writing this down I immediately remember how it was trying to wake up after a typical night drinking before. Thank god I do that no more. Never again. Have a good Sunday all, or at least as good as you can. Make it sober and clean. It helps lots. Love from Amsterdam.
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No, you don’t and we are all so grateful for that. I am sorry u fell of the wagon eating wise, I know how shitty it can make u feel. Remember, u are a worthy person at any size, and eating better is about treating yourself better, rather than the numbers.
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Yes, you are. 
And you are not your thoughts… keep reminding yourself of that, too. 
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Aww thankyou. How you feeling? Wishing you so much luck for your sober journey 
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Checking in 71 days sober. I am on my last day of my holiday so back to work tomorrow but i feel ready for it
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Day 7! My god when I think about this time last week…I think that was one of my worst days ever. Thank god I stopped. Had my first sober social event yesterday. Got quite irritable but also was fun at times. Was so happy to get home sober (and be alone again)!
@hit_the_switch , well done you on making the cookies! This is a good idea to just do something else. I’d have felt too sorry for myself to do that and would have started wallowing and feeling lonely, so well done for doing something so positive and proactive:)
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Your doing great, they drink you don’t it’s no biggy. As long as we keep our side of the street clean we get to care less what other people do. Now cookies is another story, I’m up for 6 please
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Day 33 checking in have a good day sober life is your best life remember that 
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Day 1131 
Feeling blah 
Having stomach pain each day because of the gallstone. Afraid to eat because that increase the pain. Tomorow I have a phone appointment with my doctor.
I have to work loads the next two weeks. I hope I can. We have lack of personal and already help from other stores. I’m worried, but I know I have to take good care of myself now.
Picture made during our holiday in Germany last week. I always find a cow to cuddle!
Have a good sunday all of you!
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Still sober.
Sat romanticising booze this morning. Thinking about the Smyths song ‘there is a light that never goes out’
The feeling of excitement and joy of being young and care free.
The buzz of youth, the music of your generation, feeling like life is one big party.
Truth is that for most the party has a shelf life. Some people can see that and move on with the ability to keep it to weddings and events but to a balanced level.
Me I take the lid off and drink like I’m young and not a 37 year old with a wife, two kids and a career.
Some never move on and chase there youth forever.
It’s easy to see why this happens and why we can romanticise our youth and more importantly our drinking in our youth.
You just need to take off the rose tinted glasses and remember
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