River swim and a night camping at the beach over the weekend was perfect, felt happy and alive. I woke up this early Monday with a knot as it’s a work day, but trying so hard to get over it, and to work out why I get like this it’s so tiring and not helpful, treating it like my addiction voices and telling it to F.O!. So bored of it. @CATMANCAM thank you for your reply on this, its hard pushing through the anxiety but for me it’s the only way I have to break the pattern.
@Charlie_C great catch @Butterflymoonwoman good you back I do think visualising sober life is key, best wishes and strength sent your way @Misokatsu good luck with f2f today @anon53116147 listen to yourself noone else, wishing you a good night sleep and better mindset for tomorrow - believe in yourself.
Off for my early morning walk with my dog, wishing you a great sober day all
Coffee. Late shift coming up later, first this morning I have to prove my technical nursing skills. Since I’m a typical mental health nurse I suck at those. But it’ll be OK. I’m not having trembling hands and a clouded mind from last night’s bender because I don’t do that no more. Never again. Have a good week all, or at least as good as you all can. Making it sober and clean helps a lot. Love from Amsterdam.
Outside it’s dark and rainy. But in my mind it is all clear and I am shining.
Last night I was feeling anxious and grumpy, but not for a particular reason… Normaly I would associate those feelings with the problems I face in life.
Problems or not…
Those feelings will always be there. Because we are human. No reason to start drinking. Instead of fighting those feelings just let it go.
I had a good long sleep… and while writing this I do feel great!
Hangover and guilt free. Patience is my closest friend right now. Just be patience and life will change!
I wish you all a great and sober start of the week.
Morning beautiful people. Day 3 back on the wagon. So tired OMG. Body is in massive recalibration mode. Happy my co worker is always at it and also at Day 3 hoping we can help each other stay on the straight and narrow. Grateful for this place to check into daily. Makes such a difference wow. Filling my spare time with reading sobriety literature and podcasts. Picking up all the tools this time
Day 8 and feeling great! (Wow I’m a poet now, amazing what sobriety brings) @ShadowFax yes! Totally agree about the patience thing. I’m TERRIBLE at that! Accepting the feelings will pass in the end does help, even if it seems to take too long. @Butterflymoonwoman you can do it! I do think you learn something new each time, let’s both of hope this one is the one that finally clicks and sticks. Others here have done it, so we all can too @Mno good luck! @Misswest recalibration mode! Yeah! My body is still like " what is going on here? No poison to deal with?" But it seems very happy about it, if a little puzzled and doing weird things!
Have a good day all
I’ve been working very hard the past few weeks, and I’m now on a break. I’ve tried to wake up early, but I end up sleeping 12 hours a day . Guess I must be tired. Anyway, my goals are to be achieved so that means I’m still working
I make a list of tasks that need to be done everyday, and today’s list is looking kinda big 0.o
440 days no alcohol.
408 days no cocaine.
1 day no nicotine.
Checking in for yesterday.
Had pizza leftover from Saturday night so was still eating that until lunchtime yesterday so don’t have a whole day yet. I weighed myself so can now draw a line under it. Hoping to stay on track with the diet for the rest of the year atleast.
I am now on 0mg nicotine vape liquid. I absolutely hate how I can hardly get out of bed, and how much my body hurts, and the psychopathic nightmares I’ve been having. Hoping this all gets better after some time.
Something I remember clearly about when I first got sober (i had 3 years and since then been struggling to get back) but I remember clearly been so incredibly tired all the time. For at least the first year. I remember my sponsor at the time telling me to treat myself like a baby. Just food & rest and food and rest. Lots and lots of fruit and liquids. That’s my plan for my first week back
Day 500 clean and sober today. I remember when I first joined this forum at around 30 days sober WOW! I still have the 60 day token @DLS mailed me, thank you Donna. Thank you all for helping me get through the really tough stuff at the beginning and for helping with all of the really tough stuff I’ve been through so far. You all are amazing to me!!! Have an amazing day today everyone, love you guys!!!
@Butterflymoonwoman good you back I do think visualising sober life is key, best wishes and strength sent your way 
congrats 
