Day 16. Check in 3. Third meeting of the day helped, along with you beautiful people.
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I am sorry you are having a rough day, they can really send us on a tail spin. Getting into recovery and even being willing to look at ourselves let alone our past takes so much strength and courage. You are already āstrongerā . Everyday you wake up and are willing to take on another 24 you are being stronger than the day before. Everything you do today makes you stronger for tomorrow.
It is sometimes easy for me to lose sight of just how fricken strong I am everyday when I am feeling so beaten down by the process. I understand you and what you mean. You are really doing such a great job by simply showing up, and being honest about where you are at. Sending some love, an hour at a time has worked for me. 
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Thank you so much. It really helps to hear those words and youāre so right. All the numbing I have done over the years has led to the pain growing and now I am really feeling it. Itās hard but I am glad you guys are here.
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Thank you, I appreciate that so much. It really is so hard and I need to keep remembering that showing up, feeling these feelings and being sober is my super power today. I appreciate you.
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Checking in on day 137, friends. Crazy day, busy times. Hope everyone is doing well.
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@Wakikki Iām sorry you had such a rough day. I hope a good night sleep helps.
@AyBee Great catch after the decimal! Congrats on reaching 900
@IamThechange Day 9 is good. Keep it up!
@Butterflymoonwoman Good to see you feeling so positive. Youāve got this.
@Lotusflower If you never give up, then you havenāt failed. Day 2 is still walking the path.
@TripnMN Panic attacks can be really hard to deal with. Iām glad youāve created a peaceful atmosphere for yourself.
@Complicatedmama What a nice couch! Iām so happy for you!
@Truckinmonster21 Iām glad to see you back.
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Looks great!! So happy for ya Patty.
And I love your floors.
So cute of your boy doing that. You are so worth all the goodness.
Bless you,
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Welcome back!!!
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I can really relate to your whole post. I mention it often, that it took me about 15 months for those feelings of detachment and numbness to start to dissolve. I have found there is an ebb and flow for me in recovery when it comes to feelings and the most important thing I have learned thus far is not to judge any of it. Itās just where I am at right now. It may not make any sense to me that at one point I was there and now I am here butā¦ not much makes sense anyways.
Recently it seems I have shifted a bit into a place of being more detached, I had experienced about four months of a more open and vulnerable feeling. At first it made me sad that I was withdrawing again but I am learning to trust myself, so I will trust this part too.
I know that in my own life even before it became chaotic I was living behind masks. I was not my authentic self with anyone. When I came into recovery I had no idea who I was, I am just learning and that takes time and patience.
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Im up, did not get a well sleep. Feeling really tired and heavy head. Think Im going to try get some more sleep. Sometimes it works opposite and I feel even more tired after 
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Checking in day 30,5. Ready to go to work. Didnāt sleep well. But I will survive the day. Have a nice sober day!
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Checking inn, been busy lately
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Back to day 1ā¦ 
I went through a party with friends (they all drink TOO much), and I only had diet coke. Felt strong ! But these days iām visiting my parentsā¦and I had a few drinks. Theyāre winemakers.
Alcoholic friends and winemakers family, canāt say itās an easy configurationā¦but itās not an excuse. And they know for years that i generally donāt drink. I was weak. Since my divorce Iām sometimes so weak. Oh, excuses again.
Anyway, Iām going to do this. So, Day 1, here I am 
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10 months 
Longest period of sobriety ever, longest period of self awareness and continued working on self growth, can be difficult but when Ƭ beat a little demon I know its because I am sober, and I look forward to the future to see what good things can happen, life is opening up for me sober filled with challenges and wins. Yes I am sometimes scared but I am winning 
@ShadowFax congrats on your 30 days that is such a important milestone 
@Charlie_C and @AyBee great catches
@Truckinmonster21 good to see you back
@CATMANCAM you doingso well on stopping smoking so damp hard I am vaping my next challenge!
Working from home today so thatās good, I also got paid today, first time in 4 months, so having an eye test and get myself some proper glasses thatās how I rock and roll these days.
Have a great sober day all 
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Thank you! 
And congratulations yourself on your 10 months of sobriety. Thatās really awesome!
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Day 36 checking in sitting with my morning coffee and my 4month old baby girl feeling blessed to have another day sober odaat
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DAYS congratutaltions Rob! 
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- Coffee. My day off. I had planned to
today but the greyness outside made me change my plans to 
instead. So off I go and do some dredging through the mud to the north of town. Sober and clean. Have a great day all, or at least as good as you all can achieve. Being clean and sober helps with that. A lot. Love from my living room.
@MolotovMoxie There you are Kimberley! Whereāve you been? Happy to see you.
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And @Dolse71 
days
@AyBee congratulations as well, on your way to 1000 days! 
@Truckinmonster21 glad you came back man, you can do it again 
Great numbers @Charlie_C !! Nice catch! 
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Checking in ā¦ 3 years no Marijuana
About 6 months in no Tobacco and about 3 weeks no Alcohol goodmorning everyone have a beautiful amazing day God bless 
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