I am having a good day. My mood isn’t exactly where I want it but had some really good talks at treatment today. My anxiety went from a 9 to 7 so I’m not on the verge of a panic attack today😁. I talked with my doctor about it today and all she wants is to throw more pills at me. I guess my house manager and roommate got into a fight today with pushing and stuff I’m so glad I was gone for all that I like the peaceful atmosphere I have created for myself. Thanks for being around I look forward to reading your posts each day. While I unwind and thank God for
69 days no alcohol
32 days no cigarettes
@Frank68 you can’t say it’s Thursday you’re gonna throw off my whole week lol
Starting a new business always brings the self-doubt, but after reading your posts, I know you can do this. Let these heavy emotions be catalysts for your creativity. Charcuterie is fun and even therapeutic. Deciding what goes where, choosing flavors that mingle well, the act of actually placing each food in an order that’s pleasing to the eye… all of that can be soothing to the nerves when you don’t allow your thoughts to take over. I believe in you. Keep on keeping on.
I can relate to this so much. I have been drinking on a regular basis since I was 11 I am now 42 and not sure who is really in here. I am grateful to be sober but terrified peeling all these layers back will disappoint everyone. I think I am a good person kind and compassionate but really who knows I’ve been in a fog since I was a child. But I do know I couldn’t go on the way I was “living”.
Tonight I picked up my new couch and am very pleased with how it looks! It may not be much to some but it’s everything to me and my kids. I worked so hard to get to this place in my life where I can afford new things instead of hand-me-downs. When I bought my house I told my kids we were getting everything new. It’s now all coming together and I couldn’t be more proud. All of the kids are so excited. Still waiting on a couple more pieces to complete the look but I’m happy . My youngest son kept FaceTiming me when we were in different rooms and he said Mom please answer so I did and he goes look at our beautiful new couch and that in itself made it all worth it. My Sobriety is worth every struggle I’ve ever had because I’m worth it. I’m no good to anyone if I ever pick-up again. So I’ll fight to ride this sober train forever…God willing Have a good night TS fam
I remember the first time I downloaded the app I was 6 months in and some change , spent the rest of the year with all of you lovely folks who helped me along the way to celebrating one year of sobriety , I shared all of my bumps and scratches losses and wins , can’t forget the sober selfies and the weightloss I had kicked off (feel free to check them out ) then out of nowhere life hit me HARD in the tracks I moved in with my brother and sobriety weekend by weekend was a thing of the past I put the app and forum in the back of my mind I lost my grip and ever since it’s been a drink here a drink there not exactly where I want to be but I decided to come back to the forum and app miss you all miss everyone miss the genuine support we all give each other
So I promise I won’t do this ever again, bc I did take down my thread. But this is my first time attempting a tattoo portrait on fake skin. I’m actually pretty happy, not perfect at all and used my new black ink
@Complicatedmama I’m sorry about your presentation, I’m hoping there is a way for you to hear from the speaker and re-do the slides, or that the slides will be there when you check at home sorry about your kidney stone too that sounds so painful, can something be done? Congrats on the lovely new couch @RosaCanDo I’m sorry about your pot hope the pizza comforted a little @Rockstar24777 thank you! And likewise @liv_m congrats on 90 days no weed and 1186 is a massive number, congrats on holding on to that @Clarity congrats on 456 and to becoming a foster dog home so cute! @Tomek YAYYY! all the best for the tooth surgery first @paper_boats welcome congrats on 35 days @TripnMN sending strength @Dolse71 congrats on 400 days @Callie99 that’s a nice looking guitar sending strength
@Charlie_C congrats on 345 days @Its_me_Stella Congrats on your devilish number @Twizzlers welcome congrats on 27 days @Wakikki sorry to hear, glad you’re back @Smiller sorry to hear, glad you’re back @ShadowFax congrats on your month @ShesGotMoxie I relate to this I’m glad it’s coming back @Quinny251 congrats on the new position and for challenging the addict voice enjoy your meal @EarnIt keep banishing that doubt with these affirmative thoughts, you’ve got this @AyBee congrats on 900+ days
442 days no alcohol.
410 days no cocaine.
3 days no nicotine.
Still struggling with the nicotine withdrawals but absolutely no desire to start using it again. Sweating loads. Can’t sleep but also can’t do anything so kinda just laying here feeling shitty, which is how I spent early sobriety from cocaine too. Caved in with a takeaway late last night, not beating myself up about it but really do want to get back on track with my diet again, I feel better when I am.
Thank you Tyler! My presentation went great! I actually had the COO and a Council member send me an email stating what a great job I did! That made me feel pretty great!
I have a CT scan scheduled for tomorrow! Hopefully they’ll be able to tell me more of what’s going on. Thank you for always being so encouraging it means a lot to me!
Big feelings tonight, big triggers. Same big damn trigger that hurt me most and isn’t going away anytime soon. Working through the Naked Mind / Alcohol Experiment program and hoping to dig deeper. Also going to start working with a recovery coach through a local organization as well as all the books, podcasts, workbooks, etc and hoping today’s 24 turns into tomorrow’s, and the next. I want to be stronger and not feel all the gut wrenching feels but I know i’ve got to go through them and learn my truths before I get to feel better on a daily basis. I used to drink my way through nights like this but today I am swaddled with dogs, cats and the Braves. I can do this one hour at a time.
Hugs, sounds like u are going thru. As u know, alcohol only numbs and delays, it doesn’t solve anything. Triggers can feel huge, but u have the power to control what u do. Own that power .
. My youngest son kept FaceTiming me when we were in different rooms and he said Mom please answer so I did and he goes look at our beautiful new couch and that in itself made it all worth it. My Sobriety is worth every struggle I’ve ever had because I’m worth it. I’m no good to anyone if I ever pick-up again. So I’ll fight to ride this sober train forever…God willing 
Have a good night TS fam 
sorry about your kidney stone too that sounds so painful, can something be done? 
hope the pizza comforted a little 
so cute!
all the best for the tooth surgery first 
