- Coffee. Free! Weather looks nice but I did my biking yesterday going to therapy and back. Think I’ll stick with spinning class in the afternoon and not do much otherwise. Yesterday was intense. After the funeral of a resident I attended, and purely by coincidence (?), I ran into the grave of an old friend I used to drink and drug with back in my high school days. Him drinking himself to death 5 years ago shocked me but didn’t make me think about my own drinking. Or maybe a little but not enough.
Group therapy had its own challenges, but all in all it was a good session. Made me exhausted though. Coming home, There was one moment I remembered how I used to open a bottle of wine straight after closing the door behind me. How I used to think that I needed that to unwind, to relax, to process (??), to think (???) about what happened that day.
Never again. Drinking is stupid and all it did was push me deeper in the hole. Drinking last night -any night- would obliterate any progress made during the day, physical, mental, spiritual. Never again. I’m so happy to be free. And I’ll take the occasional urge or memory of past using for what it is: a memory, a knee jerk reaction to a certain situation, a call from an addiction that I’ve starved and will keep starving one day at a time from here to eternity. There was nothing good about it.
So have a good day all, or at least as good as you all can. Make it sober and clean for starters. It helps lots. Love.
@icebear Double congrats Drew!
@Ravikamor Love that Rebecca!
months. Great achievement!
e Birthday!
Time for a quiet evening & a restful sleep I hope 
sober life = my best life. It’s true. No matter how often I doubt it, I know that to live my best life, I gotta live the sober life 
All of you understand and know we don’t take those moments for granted anymore!! 
