Up early to get stuff ready for trip to Peak District, its freezing, snow and strong winds forecast - perfect walking weather but bringing suitable walking gear as i do love getting out in all weatherās.
@Bobby38 and so you should be well done @anon53116147 so sorry to hear you feeling so down its not good at all. When I get drowned in negative emotions I go for a long walk nature always helps, anything to distract you focusing. Do you still go gym? @Dolse71 the words in that screenshot @CATMANCAM glad you going to spend some time to rest, you supported your friend alot this week enjoy, and fingers crossed the the therapy sessions support your needs. 3 weeks is a long time, could you contact them? Enjoy your weekend @Flagrantfowl welcome , so much support here for you
Coffee. Weekend. Cancelled spinning class. Too cold and wet outside, and too early. Might bike to the dairy farm later and get some, well, dairy. Do some home chores. Think a bit. Try not to think for a bit too. Enjoy my day. Try to love myself. If I donāt who ever will? Sober and clean.
Have as good a weekend as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober. Love from Amsterdam.
@Englishd Huge congrats on 4 years Derek. Thanks for leading the way. @TripnMN Triple digits Trip! yay! Congrats! @Hopeful777 11 Months already Marie! Happy for you lady. Congrats.
Nice family day. And a great day of co-operation with my husband. He took my son to robot class, I took them both swimming. I cleaned in the morning, he made dinner. He will go to band practise later, I have my own zoom book club later. It wasnāt always like this. When I was drinking, there was anger, and guilt, and punishment and over-compensation.
Yes! We need to do this as much as we can. I try to think of these things when I have time away from work. Iām working hard to have these actionable thoughts replace the drinking thoughts.
Good morning to Saturday!
Iām in my fav chair with the dog and the first cup of coffee. Iām looking ahead to some more outdoor walking with my dog, maybe the hubby.
I have some more lesson planning to do today, my goal is to have pretty smooth sailing to get to Christmas break.
The desire to drink landed on my head in the early evening. Instead I took the dog for a longer walk and came back and put club soda and cherries in my wine glass. That worked out great. I do love the ritual of the wine glass. Iām so glad that Iām getting through that each time. I was also too hungry, so some olives and nuts settled me down until dinner. I must keep paying attention to that hunger and thirst and respond appropriately. Wine just makes me sick the next morning, and here I am now, feeling refreshed and well! Yay!
I wish you all a beautiful day filled with great options to care for yourself. You deserve it!
Day 533 clean and sober today. Going to work over in detox today and learn that part of the process. Wicked ass using and other horrible dreams last night. I donāt feel like I slept well at all. Good though to know they were just dreams and that Iām still clean. I donāt like them one bit. Have an amazing day today everyone, love you guys!!!
Edit: Makes sense why I had nightmares last night. 9 months ago today.
Day 54 for me. I had my first dream/nightmare about drinking/relapsing. Not fun at all. I am relieved it was just a dream but the guilt and shame is clinging to me. I do not care for this feeling at all.
Day 169. I have been super lazy the last two days with very little physical activity. I made a plan to go for a run this morning, but woke to find a blanket of snow and ice covering the land. Already my brain is making excuses to just lie around again I guess I should at least break the snow shovel out. Hope everyone is having a nice weekend.
Checking in Day 8 Good Morning T S Family. Happy Sober Saturday. Had to rest againā¦yet for the last time. Hit my bottom last Friday.A lot of anxietyā¦ difficultly sleeping .off to clinic today for help with sleep. And still I rise.
@Mno I want to be close enough to a dairy farm to go buy dairy. Or, I just might get a couple of milking goats this coming Spring. That takes commitment. @Englishd Congrats, Derek. Thatās an amazing string of 24s. @Lotusflower Des, glad to see you posting on here. And still you rise, indeed!
Day 12, plugging along. It feels soooooooooooo long this time around. I guess itās because I sit on so many meetings and announce my number at everyone. So, every day feels like 3. Thatās OK. All you have to do is look at this forum to know they just add up, slow/fast - whatever. Just donāt drink/use and before you know it: Boom!
but bringing suitable walking gear as i do love getting out in all weatherās.
I guess I should at least break the snow shovel out. Hope everyone is having a nice weekend.