That is amazing. Huge congrats on 1400 days!! Proud of you 
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So awesome Patty !! You are a role-model in every way!
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Wow what great clean time on here! I am checking in on Day 91 things are going well. Here is my keytag from last night and serenity ring my bf gave me.
Have a clean, sober and happy 24 all!
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Congratulations !! Love your key tag ! Good for you!
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Good job getting to bed clean, now you start your next 24 hours, you’re doing great. I feel like this is the most active you have been here in the 2 years I have been on the app. Keep at it, stay with us through these really hard first few weeks.
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WOOOOOHOOOOOO!
Nice Kat!!!
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On the struggle bus. I really do learn something profound with each and every battle I fight.
I will win the war.
There’s a difference in my 10% effort and 98% effort. With the 98%, the deep shit shows itself much more quickly and far more strongly. I was really waylaid by the onslaught, presenting as shame, fear, phobia, mental dis-ease, strong suicidal ideation.
On Day 21 I skipped a SMART meeting because I was too busy doing for other people. On what would have been Day 22, I drank, just enough to shrink.
We talk about it here all the time. Nothing can be allowed to come before sobriety if it’s going to last. Yep. Struggle bus. Doesn’t feel worth it, at least not today.
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Thank you so much! I really appreciate that! Its nice that things are noticed cuz sometimes I don’t always see them in myself. I feel like I’m doing diff things this time around and learning more. Not falling into that same old trap 
how r u doing?
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You hang in there, my friend! I am rooting for you.
I think somewhere between 10% and 98% (100%) is the difference between being dry and being sober. When I just “don’t drink,” I don’t really dig deep. I don’t try to fix anything. I fill the dry time with something else: Netflix, Candy Crush, mindless scrolling.
The more I try to heal, the bigger the mindfuck. I really don’t want to uncover all that ugly, horrible stuff. I mean, I pushed it down for most of my life AND I don’t want it sticking around.
There’s only one way through it and that’s through it. 
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That is true. We have to uncover it. We have to go down and switch on the light and look at us. It is so hard to be honest with ourselves and it gives so much. And you won’t have to do all the work at once. You still have a whole life to go. 
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So you actually DO want to uncover it right? It’s what I’m trying to do right here, right now. It’s messy. It’s bloody hard. It’s a dirty job but somebody has to do it and that somebody is ME. One day at a time. And I absolutely positively 100% have to be sober to do it. Well you know that. Keep going. Hugs.
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You can do it! One day at a time.
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Thank You … appreciate it!
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Thank You!
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That’s exactly it. Go and pick her up and tell her you are there for her. 
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All Day - YES!
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Wow can I ever relate to this. It hard, it’s scary and it hurts. I am finding that if I dont look too far ahead, and I have faith that at the end of the process there will be that serenity that people talk about, it’s enough to push me through. I have to remain willing and in order to do that I need to let go ALL THE TIME. I seriously breathe deeply and remind myself to let go so many times a day because the feelings are uncomfortable that are bubbling up. My automatic response is to push them down or to search outside myself for something to distract myself with. I feel like I am walking into a room blindfolded after being spun around so many times, I feel lost, and confused but I know I am not alone so that makes it better. You are right we have no options we have to go through it. This is such a big job now that we have years and years of trauma that’s not been dealt with. The way I see it though is I have survived, I am a fucking survivor and I will be damned if shit I have already been through ruins me now.
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