Folks have all shared sentiments I hold. I just wanted you to know I’m here with you on this and you can get through this day. That’s what you need to do, just get through this day. Sending strength and big love, amiga mía.
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Day 509 clean and sober today. Little bit of a late check in for me lol. I hope everyone is having a great day, love you guys! 
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Checking in day 9. Feeling better.
Have a good 24 hours everyone
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@Stormy congrats on 80 days 
@Quinny251 congrats on 30 days
@RosaCanDo thank you 
@Dazercat congrats on 22 months Enjoy your trip 
@Clarity congrats on getting rid of it all
@ShadowFax congrats on getting through your long weekend
@Lotusflower congrats on double digits
@Pickles congrats on 9 months
@anon53116147 sending well wishes for you and your girls 
@Complicatedmama congrats on 1400 days
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@EarnIt sorry to hear this, glad you’re back 
I really don’t like to feel things either, I’m terrified of how therapy is going to affect me 
450 days no alcohol.
418 days no cocaine.
11 days no nicotine.
There was almost a ‘2’ at the bottom of my check in numbers but I’ve just binged again. I feel horrendous and I’m in so much pain. I am completely powerless over junk food and I need to stop giving in to my cravings, it’s insanity. I’ve known for a really long time that I can’t ever have ‘just one’ of anything, but there seems to be something different when it comes to food. I never binge because I’m hungry. I’m having enough of my diet shakes that I’m not hungry, I just need to regain my self control and tell my cravings ‘no’, if only it was as easy as it sounds.
I’m going to do my interview tomorrow at 11am, because my lucky numbers are 4 and 11. I’m absolutely terrified but I’m gonna give it my best! 
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Thank You!
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Checking in midday… day 3
Noticing alot lately…
- Noticing my emotions more and trying to name them as they come up
- Noticing that food really effects how I feel!!! Strange
Does anyone else experience this too? Like high sugar, high fat, tons of carbs almost makes cravings come on faster than eating well? Or is this in my mind? 
- Unfortunately noticing how dishonest I am. For example, I saw a package (that wasn’t addressed to me) in the mail room. They don’t usually put packages there as there are no cameras (just mailboxes that require a key) but sometimes they will put them on the floor. I could’ve easily taken it and no one would know. My addict mind was saying “take it and sell whatever is in it, no one will know”, and my recovery mind said “NO” don’t take it. I wouldn’t want someone taken my packages. So I didn’t take it.
- Noticing my appetite really increase and eating out of boredom, stress etc. Gotta get back into exercise more often
- Noticed how empowered I felt and how confident I felt to get through that craving yesterday! Really feeling like I have a chance at this after over 20 years of on n off again using. I’ve been trying to get clean since 16 at my first rehab. I want to live a clean life and REALLY see what life has to offer! See what I can experience! And to create good memories! I’m excited honestly. I know the drug filled life… I want to know what it’s like to be happy, joyous, and FREE!
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Thank you! Got to remember that it truly is 1 day at a time 
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Nice to see you outside of the cats thread @Dazercat! 
Thank you @Lotusflower76 for your kind words.
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Good luck with your interview tomorrow! You can do this 
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It’s day 83 and I’m feeling completely drained. It’s like the anxiety of the past few weeks has just slammed into me all at once. I don’t know what to do. I’m reading, then I randomly stop and listen to music, then I cooked a gumbo, then I tried to have a conversation with my husband, but I feel so detached, so deep inside my mind, that it’s hard to find connection or sustain focus on anyone or anything. I want to skip the days like this or at least know what I should be learning from them.
I wish I was my giddy up self for y’all today (and for me), but I’m just not feeling it. Thanks for hearing me.
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You are awesome support on this forum. Thank you Tyler.
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Jeez, still here, still sober, but having a hard time of it now. The reality hits eh?
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Please say a prayer for me I’m having a really hard time right now I am on my way to say good bye to my friend. 
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Not feeling it today… Im fighting it though. I’ve discovered that between 3pm-4pm is when I get cravings. Same time yesterday and same time today. Recorded my thoughts and feelings. Figured out my trigger (payday is in a 1 week so maybe I could front and pay later type of thinking). Did a guided 3 min meditation with focus breathing. Reminding myself of my reason WHY. Did an affirmation and repeated it like 500 hundred times lol now I’m eating even more like I haven’t eaten enough already (not the greatest choice but it’s better than using). Going to do dishes mindfully and be in the moment. And then my next course of action is to exercise. Came on here cuz I said I would when I’m feeling a craving coming on. Ugh this fucking sucks honestly 
as everyone here knows lol
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Prayers My friend. 
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110 days alcohol free
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Sending strength
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You don’t have to be giddy for us. We love and care for you through all the moods. Sending hugs, I hope the anxiety eases. 
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