Checking in daily to maintain focus #35

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Morning check in
Wanted to share one of my favorite stories. I remembered it this morning as I was thinking about my state of mind lately and how I am feeding it the wrong things. We experience what we think… and lately I’ve been feeding into ALL the wrong things. Anyway, here it is!

THE TWO WOLVES PARABLE

The story is often told as follows:

An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “There is this fight going on inside of me,” he says to the boy. “It is a terrible fight, and it is between two wolves. One wolf is evil – he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.”

He continued, “The other wolf is good – he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you – and inside every other person, too.”

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”

The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.”

[Newlife5]

Checking in on Day 8. On my own at work this week as my team is traveling doing site visits. Feeling grateful to have a clear head and no hangover this fine Monday morning.
Have a grwat sober day!

[DryIn785]

Dammit. I need help.
I screwed up big time over the holiday weekend. Been drinking pretty much continuously since Thursday. Figured I’d sleep off Sunday and go back into work Monday night.20 minutes ago, I got a call from my peer support counselor. Asked him why he was calling on Sunday.
“Dude… it’s Monday.”
F**k! There’s no way I’m going to be able to work tonight. We had a 4-day weekend for Thansgiving, and I missed 2 days the previous week because of my chest pain issue. I can’t afford to miss any more days, but I can’t make it in tonight.

[DLS]

I’m sorry to hear this; maybe this is the day to be honest with everyone. Your work, peer group, etc. Starting with a clean and honest slate.
Work may give you time to get your life in order. Keep trying, bud.

[beachmouse]

Checking in on day 113. I started on Sober Time the day I got sober. When I wasn’t working or sleeping I’d be here reading through posts to get through urges. After 30 days I learned from here I wouldn’t make it alone and started to go to AA meetings. I went to my first meeting on my 30th day sober. I picked a woman’s group meeting because I figured I’d just cry through it, which I did. It was life changing. I could never imagine the stability and support I’d find there. Today my group read the below and sums up what AA means to me:

“Humility brings me closer to the actual spirit of togetherness and oneness, without which I could not stay sober.” - Daily Reflections pg 342

Today I give thanks to my amazing sober community and all the brave vulnerable shares. I’m about to decorate my Christmas tree purposefully sober for the first time in 30 years and for that I’m grateful.

[Callie99]

Checking in 63 days sober. I’m feeling really detached and out of place. I think I’m lost, like I want something new of of life. But I’m not sure what that is. Sitting in this uncomfortable place trying to find out where I go next. I know drinking won’t make any of these feelings go away. Today is just the kind of day I think why am I doing this. Am I truly any better off then 63 days ago? I’m more isolated and loosing connection with my friends. Just a really difficult day for me.

[iheartchickens4]

Day 1 check in. I feel better than I did this morning but I know by this evening and especially tomorrow evening I will want a drink but I have to get that it doesn’t just stop there for me. Hopefully by this time next week I will feel much better about it all!

Also thanks for having me here

[Shae]

I haven’t been very active this past week or two but I’m getting my 30 day tag this evening and I couldn’t be more proud of myself. In the beginning I honestly didn’t think I would make it this far. However with the support I’ve received here, through my local fellowship, and with the support of my amazing sponsor I pushed through the negative mindset I once had and I reached a milestone I once saw unattainable. I’ve been doing service work with my local group and I’ve been working my steps. I got my mental health headed in the right direction after several pitfalls and to be completely honest, I can’t recall a time I’ve felt so good in my own skin. I’m falling in love with myself… my true self. Not the me I fabricated through addiction. I’m shedding that skin and a new healthy beautiful me is emerging. That first 30 was difficult, but with the continued support from all of you and my hometown group I have a new found faith that I don’t need any of that. I’ve never felt as good as I do now, 30 days down…. A whole lifetime ahead