Sending love and strength 
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Checking in 37 days sober. Also something that I don’t really chat about much but 30 days without restricting and ED behavior as of today. Which is a big accomplishment for me. My guitar lessons went great on Monday, work is stressful ( but it always is). I went for the coldest swim ever today. Other then that everything is quiet and calm. Feeling at peace tonight. Snuggled up in bed with sparkling water and trying to find something to watch. I’m open to suggestions. Also @CATMANCAM if I remember correctly good luck on your interview tomorrow!
That’s all I’ve got for today
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Glad to see you man. It’s hard coming back after a relapse I know dude I really do. But don’t give up, I learned alot in my relapse, part of me liked getting high but the other part knew it was all wrong. Everything in me was off, My moral compass was fucked and I was becoming the shittt person I once was. Hope to keep seeing you stick around bro
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Don’t give up. Just as a downward spiral can pull you down, if you progress a little upwards you can build on it and build on it. What extra help can u get in your area? Rooting for you.
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I’m really glad to see you back man, please stick with us and don’t pick up. We all miss you and want you to succeed.
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Got a suggestion for you. I watch this before I go to sleep. Works well for me 
https://www.netflix.com/nl/title/80049832?s=a&trkid=13747225&t=cp&vlang=nl&clip=81080318
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Congrats on your 37 days sober and your 30 days ED free! That is huge!
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One day or day one. You decided to start somewhere and end cycle. It starts at day one so congratulations. One day at a time!
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Sober twin! I love nature/ animal documentaries. David Attenborough is like the Grandpa I wish I had. I think I will put this on thank you 
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Thanks Flannery 
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Day 17, today was a good day. Low stress, tried to think as positive as possible. Spent good quality time with my daughter then went full beast mode on the punching bag for a few rounds followed by some pull ups and jumping jacks. Training really makes me feel like a Warrior, the more I taste that feeling, the less I want to feel weak and hungover. And of course, family time gives me the love and affection I need. Love and exercise y’all 
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I know the feeling…Keep your head up ! Sending positive vibes your way, you might feel like ish now but think about all the negative things that intoxication brings and how it’s immensely not worth it just for a temporary feeling that is not real. Exercise is a great idea, it doesn’t just help the physical but it also make you feel better mentally. Doesn’t have to be anything intense, find what you like and maybe throw some good music with it and let it out
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Eric…22 months!!! Great job. Safe travels tomorrow!
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Checking in, Day 94 no alcohol / Day 340 no weed.
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Happy to see you back here @dalex77_2. You’ve done this before and you can do it again. Try to think about how great you felt when you were clean. Keep checking in.
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Just reading your post through a couple times you seem unsettled today which probably feels uncomfortable. So much so that you would like to “skip” the feeling. That’s why we are here though, we aren’t going to skip feelings anymore. So maybe all you’re to learn is that yucky feeling inside won’t last forever, that it doesn’t matter if you read, listen to amazing tunes or try to talk it out… somethings just take time and will pass on their own. Outside things can’t always fix inside issues.
I think you are doing a spectacular job, congrats on your days Carolyn. Don’t forget to breathe.
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Checking in…
675 days substance free
32 days super sugar free
Speaking of avoiding feelings to Carolyn…pffft I am the queen of trying to avoid feelings, or trying to feel. Hell trying to be anything I am not. Even pre-planning… if I am going to be emotional and then giving myself a dopamine burst ahead of time. Prepack those puppies. Who does that??? Addicts do that that’s who.
All this behavior has gotten better with time. At first I didn’t even recognize I was doing it. Then I could see it but couldn’t stop it. Now I can see it, stop it or not stop it if I don’t give a fuck, BUT now I have a choice. Recovery has given me choices, I never had them before. My whole life was dictated by my addictive mind and body. It’s so nice to have a choice.
Not eating sugar is a choice today and 32 days is the longest I have been so tomorrow I’m walking in record days.
I love my life today.
Congrats everyone on your recovery.
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So happy to see you posting @dalex77_2 . Can you get into a detox? Don’t ever give up, just feels impossible now. You can do this, don’t stop trying.
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I failed. I made it the farthest I have in 2 years. And I failed.
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You slipped?
It’s only failure in my books if a person never ever tries again.
Sucks when we slip but if we learn from the event then we can add that to our “tools”. We can learn what not to do or maybe we learn what we need to do more of.
Try not to be too hard on yourself.
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