Day 11. Good Morning TS Family. Happy Thursday…my favorite day of the week!
Feeling stronger…had a better sleep last night. Therapy yesterday withy trauma counsellor was healing…as I continue down/, up the road.
My oldest son turns 14 tomorrow so today will be busy preparing for a small get together on Saturday. I usually decorate the house on the night do they wake up to a house full of decorations. Glad I’m sober . Great Sober Day all!
Today will be day 7. I’m pleased with the progress so far. I’ve told a few people close to me about my learning here. The talk with my adult son was pretty special. Thank you to all of you who are sharing your journey. Even if I don’t interact with you, I’m enjoying your company and am sending my positive wishes out to all of you (us) who are on this journey. With thousands of posts here I can see that we are not alone.
I hope you all have a safe and happy day.
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@CATMANCAM. Hope you have a great interview!! Sorry about the binging. I relate to the “just one” observation. I’m doing no sugar for a while because of it. Doesn’t help that SO has a vat of peanut m&ms sitting around. Can’t eat just a few so I get to have none.
Your other numbers show such amazing success!!
You CAN overcome addiction. You have shown yourself that. 
Day 450
Morning was nice, husband was off, so after joining forces to do some chores, we went to Turkish restaurant.
Afternoon was the kids’ karate class. I made some mistakes with a form. It sorted itself out, but I have made a couple of blunders recently, no biggie, but sometimes living abroad gets tiring. I have to try extra hard, and still make more mistakes. I hate feeling in the wrong, and feeling in people’s debt when they have to help me out. I want to be 100% independent and correct, which is impossible for anyone, but extra so in a foreign country.
Day 1278.
Nerves are all over the place. We’ve had an offer on our house but a lowball one. So we’re in the process of negotiating and working out what the counter offer should be. Our house does need work but we’ve put it on at a price to reflect this. We don’t need to achieve the full asking price to move so trying very hard to put aside my feelings about what the property is worth and focus on what we need to make the dream a reality! Feels like it’s so close but also could all fall apart at any moment 
Even though I don’t feel I am handling this in a very zen-like way, I am letting myself feel the emotions and I will move through them because that’s what we do. Reminding myself that these are the kind of situations where my sober toolbox is helpful as it can be applied to all sorts of life stuff 
Hey all, checking in on day 508. I hope everybody has a good one today!
Quick check in - slept well but woke up from a strange dream (again!) and felt pretty groggy. Probably due to my husband’s earlier wake up time this morning. I needed that extra half hour! Off to visit the bunnies - I found out a group of bunnies can be called a fluffle!!! How cute is that. I have been having flashbacks to Watership Down, the book about rabbit politics and allegory for society that was a bit traumatic for me as a young reader and rabbit lover, not to mention the cartoon movie that was made in the late 70s and the imagery I did not need to see as a child! Great book, though.
I heard from my friend asking how the bunnies are doing. She said that she and her family are getting through it but it’s so difficult - I can only say that I cannot fathom the pain they’re going through. I am just happy that I can be helpful during their time of grief. A gift of sobriety is to be fully present and available to our family and friends when they most need us.
So much for quick - time to go! Sending strong sober energy to you, amigos! 
Day 21, much love
There’s a blast from the past! Did @SassyRocks and @Robin recruit you back in to being moderator?
Good morning! I have 243 days which equates to the number of times I opened and closed the bathroom door this morning to let the pets in and out so as not to wake SO. Really?? 
Thank you, Stella. I agree… outside things can’t always fix inside issues. I rarely stop and realize all that I do for my family and the toll that sometimes takes on me. It’s only afterwards that I collapse, my heart and mind are heavy, and I am physically drained. I just need to recharge. I have a long weekend coming up, and I’m looking forward to that. I appreciate you. 
Thanks Caroline 
I just don’t have the time for feeling like this right now. I’m needed too much. But our emotions don’t work like that, and I can’t just conjure up some enthusiasm at the drop of a hat. I know days like these are gonna happen. I’m still working on how to be ready for them. 
Big hugs to you for always being there for me. 
Day 510 clean and sober today. Wishing everyone a wonderful day, love you guys! 
Good morning, just wanted to check in Day 0
Had to reset my timer 
Dont feel good about it. Yesterday I had 3 days coming up to 4 and I fought n fought that craving, even after all the things I did , I still used. Fu$king shitty. It wasn’t like a full blown session but I still used and I’m really beating myself up for it, bcuz I thought something was diff this time. I feel depressed and guilty. I feel so fu$king stupid for letting that craving get the best of me.
I was going to come on here an pretend like I was fine. How would that help me to lie? Was going to lay in bed all day, but again how would that help me? I feel like I let you all down and I definitely let myself down. Going to continue doing what I had been doing for the past 3 days. Bxuz even though I relapsed, it still helped me and I DID get through my 1st craving the other day. Sooo that’s a huge accomplishment for me. And I’m not going to ignore that. Anyway, I’m going to get some coffee and something to eat. I will check in in the afternoon 
Welcome back man, I’m glad you’re here! Time to start racking those days back up
Checking in with 88 consecutive days sober. Drove home from work this morning and default thoughts were to stop, get booze, get home, get drunk, sleep, wake, go to work tonight most likely still drunk, not just hungover. And in that split second shame entered at the disservice I’ve done to those who trusted me to provide my best care to them in their weakest moments. Second to that are those I’ve encounter throughout the years struggling through similar addictions, caregiving for me when I should have been kinder to them. Needless to say I did not drink today. I guess the point of this ramble is you never know others situations and to be kind. Like my grandma always said, “common sense and good manners go a long way”.
@EarnIt Oh Jené, it’s a struggle but YOU are worth the effort! YOU are worth the recovery! I think I’m getting your gist in the sense that I made a decision to deal with my shit some years ago. I did that angry, kicking and screaming. I’m not gonna lie, it’s been tough, scary, costly and at times hopeless BUT. It’s also been glorious, life giving, restoring and given me hope for future. It’s a season that will end at some point.
@Complicatedmama Patty dear, congratulations on 1400 days! That’s so awesome! I’m sorry about your friend 
Hugs!
@dalex77_2 Dan, you’ve been terribly missed and I’m glad to see you back, no matter what your counter says!
Felt the need to check in. Don’t know yet what mood I’m in. Try to tell myself, "Don’t feel anything until the meds kick in because it doesn’t count. Woke up an hour earlier cuz I had to pee, and instead of getting a head start on the day, I just feel grumpy and out of sorts. 
Checking in. Sobriety is ok but I could be better. I really like my job try out but it feels physically so demanding. I’m starting to feel I’m failing, what’s the point of me being there, etc. So it’s not surprising my mood has been low this week 
Did HALT last night and realised I was tired and lonely. My country was already sleeping but luckily @Fury, my favourite dumbass 
, picked up his phone. So great to have friends on different timezones 
Hey!!! So great to hear!! Congratulations!! Always a great to ‘see’ you and know you are well!!!