Great to see you and Day 2! I know how defeating it feels to be stuck in that cycle. I am so glad you are here and trying.
People leave for their own reasons and often ones we don’t know about, so please don’t take that on, as it is not your burden to carry at all.
Never give up. 
Glad you were honest, that is huge. Lying to ourselves becomes such a well trodden pattern. Getting real is big. Glad you are here and still fighting the good fight.
Amazing Patty!!!
I am sorry your heart is heavy my friend, wish I could give you a hug. 
You came back right away!!!
Keep looking ahead, let’s both get to bed clean today.
Yeah Day 2!!!
Dan, you’re good in my books friend. I am so glad you’re here.
It’s good you are still here. Dont feel stupid about the cravings letting get the best of you, try to learn from it. Try to distract your mind if you have cravings and if you have support talk to people. I know this is not easy but it will get easier after a couple if days!
Our Greatest Glory Is Not in Never Falling, But in Rising Every Time We Fall!
One day at a time you can do this! Wish you all the best!
Yes that is the plan. And honestly my motivation right now is 10/10. I don’t want to keep doing this.
Thank you Roland 
Not going to let that get the best of me. Just keep at it. Continue doing what I was doing for my self care. Just have to work harder at the distraction part of when I get a craving.
I understand how you feel very well, it’s exhausting. That feeling of being on a merry go round that you feel like you can’t get off. You can get off it though, it just takes so much strength not to pick up. You just can not pick up. If your husband has drugs in the house it’s going to be so hard for you but it’s possible other people have done it. I got clean from meth with a full Pyrex dish of dope in my fridge… I was just fucking done. When you are done you are done,but it still takes everything in your body not to feed that craving and not to follow through on those urges. I believe in you, I know how strong you are.
Good aftermorning!
Its a great sunny day outside. Now if it were only about 25 degrees warmer haha. Have an awesome day. Here is something a friend of mine posted today that is 100% accurate.
Checking in day 672
Of course I’m waiting on the wife 
Let’s gooooo!!
Thank you everyone for all the well wishes for my trip. I was so stressed out yesterday with dumping off my pets. The old me would have thought I deserve to get fucked up! I earned it! That’s some crazy stinking thinking right there. Instead I listened to a nice guided meditation and passed out on the bed and woke up after an hour totally rested and refreshed and felt GREAT! Now that’s something we all deserve. It wasn’t much of a mindfulness meditation. It just put me out! I guess I needed it.
I choose sober because I wanted a better life. I stay sober because I got one.
Welcome back Dan, I’m glad your alive.
Reading your check in I remembered something that I heard one time. “If you don’t fail you aren’t trying”. We all fall. If someone has told you that they haven’t tried and failed or fell at something in their life they are lying. But I do think when you fail it falls into two categories. Either you fall backward or forward. When you fall backward you give up, you fade, you loose faith and when you fall forward you keep going, you learn, you never quit. You fell forward. All the people who have succeeded fell at sometime. They fell forward and so did you. I’m happy you stood right back up and didn’t quit. 
Nice! Do I remember right that meeting you was impossible? Come back to me somewhat closer to the date and/or with some stuff you folks like and/or not (like nature/culture/architecture/old/new etc). Quite a lot to see for such a small country.
Checking in Day 92 the JFT today was about the love we all have for each other in NA and on here and a reminder to freely give the love which we have received. So there it is, I love each and every one of you on this board especially if you are struggling use the love and strength of others to push through!
Wow that is amazing great job
That is alot of ODAAT s
Surely that’s progress, We learn and move on.
I am sorry to hear that you relapsed but you are resilient. You came back again it took me over 15 times at treatment, 3 overdoses and 2 chemical dependency civil commitments by my state to get it together because I couldn’t stop relapsing and I had every intention of being sober but it didn’t matter. I was powerless over meth and heroin and my life was unmanageable You are making very good changes but maybe you need something bigger than drugs that is going to stick like I did? Working the steps and finding a Higher Power of your understanding that can help guide you and eventually even take away your obsession of crack cocaine and your cravings (if you believe God or whomever you believe in can do such a thing) maybe try some womens meetings and find a sponsor. I am rooting for you. I know how hard it is to be caught in this never ending cycle but you can get out of it. You are fighting it daily but maybe try to think if you relapse it might be the last time you ever use… that’s how I got clean partially. I was scared of dying. There’s always a possibility of overdosing or having a bad reaction to a drug no matter what your drug of choice is, no matter how little the amount is, so maybe that would scare you straight because you wouldn’t have an enjoyable high. Just brainstorming and telling you what happened to me. I am rooting for you BMW
@ShadowFax thank you 
@ShesGotMoxie I find ‘grounding’ exercises/meditations helpful when my anxiety is overwhelming like this.
@Lotusflower @Laraellelarissa thank you both
@Complicatedmama sending love and strength
@dalex77_2 welcome back 
congrats on day 1 
@Callie99 thank you congrats on 30 days of freedom from ED
@Smiller sorry to hear this, but please don’t give up
@Its_me_Stella thank you
@Hopeful777 thank you
@Hazy congrats on 7 months
@Dmcg1987 sorry about your auntie, sending prayers
@Mno thank you
@LAB congrats on your week
@Mbwoman thank you
@Charlie_C sending strength
@Misokatsu congrats on 450 days sorry about the form stuff, I can’t imagine how difficult it must be to do all that stuff in a foreign country, I hope you are met with patience when you are asking for help
@siand congrats on the offer! Really hoping it all works out for you 
@anon53116147 congrats on 3 weeks
@Butterflymoonwoman congrats on your honesty sorry to hear this though, don’t give up
