Checking in and feeling a bit “off” with the time change. I was late to visit the bunnies this morning, poor kiddos, but they seemed happy to see me. They make me smile! Weather is moving through and I’m feeling the pressure across my eyes and forehead, makes me want to lounge and not do much, so now that some chores are done this morning I’ll take it easy for a while. Grateful to be sober and hangover free this Sunday and every Sunday. I’m looking forward to another great week ahead.
@EarnIt Jené, I am so glad you’ve been sharing every day through your challenges - it’s so important to keep the connection to peers, now more than ever. Sending strength to you.
This made me chuckle, the amount of times I poured alcohol down the loo worried about what a waste of money it was, that’s the insanity of the alcoholic bc never was I worried about all the other times I had wasted money in the slow process of killing myself. Getting rid of it was the best £12.99 you’ve ever spent.
Checking in sober! Not having a good day, all I want is crying all day and I have. Cleaning the house and crying, feeling really down today, dont want to eat or nothing, not even chocolate. Hope for a better day tomorrow, and hope you all at least have a good day
This little baby, plus some long stretches with yin yoga helped end my long bout of plantar fasciaitis…ugh, such a painful thing. Hope you find some relief!
Insight Timer has some really powerful teachers and courses. My two current favorites are Sonic Yogi and Kenneth Soares…I get so much from both. I also enjoy davidji’s courses.
Stayed up all night tonight to reset my sleeping schedule–again. I chose last night because of the time change. Having a harder time letting go of caffeine this time around than I have in many of the other times I’ve quit. Kind of having a rough time of it in general.
Welp… I guess I’ll quit or I won’t. Just like all that matters is if I’m clean in the now. I’m just kind of feeling like a weakling that needs to get my ass in gear.
@SoberWalker That pendant is beautiful! @Its_me_Stella Migraines are so terrible. So… I know this might sound a little crazy, but I’ve been told by the woman who trained me in Frequency Specific Microcurrent that holding something heated in both hands (like those temporary hand warmers that get really warm/hot) for a long period can sometimes help with migraines. I’ve suggested it to a couple of friends who get migraines and it didn’t help them, but I figure that it can’t hurt to pass it along in case it does work for you. I’ll send migraine free thoughts your way. @Fury That is a very beautiful instrument.
I don’t know why, I always want to cry as soon as my girls leave. I never feel like I do enough with them, the other part of me is so afraid to do anything with them, literally going for little walks drives My anxiety so fricken high. The promises states fear of people and economic insecurity will leave us, and when I had my year yeah I can say it did, but since I’ve relapsed it’s like starting all over again. Literally the only thing I want in life is to be an amazing dad, for my girls to always want to be with me, but im such a boring dad no wonder they don’t want to be around me. It’s been a minute since I’ve wanted to use but right now that’s all I wanna do is have some drinks and just let go for a little bit.
One year, eight months and sixteen days checking in… I had some anxiety going on, don’t really know where or what that was about so I decided to hop in my bed and log onto here and check in. Well I guess I have to take accountability for it but I have been eating so much lately, also just over hydrating… like I am trying to always keep myself filled and it really needs to stop. I have gained a lot of weight in recovery… from eating again, my medications and quitting smoking cigarettes but now I am using food negatively. It’s not out of control but I used to have an ED when I was younger (anorexic and bulemic) so yeah I am trying to avoid this turning into another addiction but it sucks. So I am trying to hold myself accountable, eat healthy, and in moderation. Otherwise, I have my first NA in person meeting that I am going to tomorrow since I got sober this time around (because of the pandemic) I go to online meetings but I just haven’t made it to an in person meeting and really became a homebody so I am excited to get my key tags and ask if anyone is sponsoring. That’s about it wish me luck bc I am a little nervous about getting my key tags and talking in front of everyone but I know I will be ok lol
@determinedworkingmom congrats on 50 days @anon27760155 sending strength @anon74766472 I hope your back feels better soon @Harold glad you got through it and had people to reach out to @ShadowFax congrats on 6 weeks I hope you can get some rest very soon @Rockstar24777 have an awesome time tonight I will have to check them out, I used to love Blink back in the day @Its_me_Stella sending sympathies, migraines are fkin awful, especially when they are so relentless, I hope you feel better soon @EarnIt congrats on a powerful day 1 @RosaCanDo oh my goodness, that bunny looks just like one of mine I had as a young teen, his name was Joey I’m sure they are very grateful for you @Wakikki sorry you’re struggling, sending strength
@Fury awesome! @anon53116147 I think this just shows how much you love them, don’t pick up, it won’t help, all those girls need first and foremost is your love and presence, and sober you can give that to them best @moonchild7994 good luck for your first in person and getting a sponsor
454 days no alcohol.
422 days no cocaine.
15 days no nicotine.
I was really hoping to check in with 2 days at the bottom, but although I haven’t necessarily binged, I have eaten off plan by ordering a carvery and cake this afternoon, so I have reset and I’m going with the ‘new week new start’ mindset again. Today is my first day without my vape at all and it has been very strange and I’m not surprised that I’ve eaten off plan. I haven’t craved it, but I have had to catch myself, because out of habit I’ve thought about it. Tonight will be my first night without it so that will be interesting too. Hoping I might sleep a bit better. I’ve napped a lot again today, need to not make a habit of it, especially if I’m going to be starting work again.
And this is the only barrier you are building between you and your girls. Without it you’ll have so much more but like everything it just takes a little time. Looks like they had great fun face painting the other day, these are their memories irrelevant of what is happening in your head this is what they will remember and your doing a great job. Trust me it’s more than I did for my girls. Your a very blessed man to have the chance to spend any time with your children. They love you just bc your their dad.
So… I know this might sound a little crazy, but I’ve been told by the woman who trained me in Frequency Specific Microcurrent that holding something heated in both hands (like those temporary hand warmers that get really warm/hot) for a long period can sometimes help with migraines. I’ve suggested it to a couple of friends who get migraines and it didn’t help them, but I figure that it can’t hurt to pass it along in case it does work for you. I’ll send migraine free thoughts your way.
I am trying to avoid this turning into another addiction but it sucks. So I am trying to hold myself accountable, eat healthy, and in moderation. Otherwise, I have my first NA in person meeting that I am going to tomorrow since I got sober this time around (because of the pandemic) I go to online meetings but I just haven’t made it to an in person meeting and really became a homebody so I am excited to get my key tags and ask if anyone is sponsoring. That’s about it 
wish me luck bc I am a little nervous about getting my key tags and talking in front of everyone but I know I will be ok lol
I will have to check them out, I used to love Blink back in the day 
I’m sure they are very grateful for you 
