My kids have today off school, but I had to work so they were home alone.
Teaching was a little shitty as the students really struggle to produce any language spontaneously. They will happily read a conversation they wrote on paper, but ask them to produce a similar conversation without looking, (and all they need to do is change some verbs/nouns), and they panic. They have been learning English for more than 6 years!
Then coming home was literally shitty as the cat had pooped in his litter tray, the smell had bothered the kids so their marvellous solution was to dump it outside the front doorš .
Day 1100.
Feeling good once I am out of bed and get my my body moved a bit. My heart goes out to everyone having constant back pain.
Will take the train later to get blood drwn for double check on my thyroid hormone levels in hope they will help me.
I am having another week off so thatās cool.
#Day 1146
Long story short:
Yesterday my partner for 25 years and father of our children has asked me to merry him and I said yes!
I didnāt saw that one coming!
Had a lovely time at the beach, it was windy but I loved walking along the beach with the sound of the waves. There was also a big firework display on the beach which I was able to watch from the warmth of my van, it really was a magical and magnificent display and a lovely surprise to see. Picture of me walking on the beach at night all wrapped up and enjoying the sense of freedom.
@Callie99 congratulations on your 40 days, @determinedworkingmom on your 50 @Kareness thank you so much, yes it sort of helps in voicing these feelings, it helps to break them down and rationalise them, big thumbs up on your days @Tomek so good you see improvements to your mental health I am excited for you @Its_me_Stella hope you get some relief from your migraine very soon, virtual pain-relieving hug @SoberWalker wow massive congratulations to you both! I get after 25 years it would be a surprise, but so lovely your children will be so actively involved in the wedding fabulous news
Second coffee. Gym in a moment, a late shift after that. Work my recovery a bit. Repeat tomorrow. Life feels pretty good ATM. Nothing spectacular.
I slept long and deep, happy with my new comforter. Iāll take the sometimes crazy dreams as a sign Iām enjoying a healthy sleeping cycle. In stark contrast with the black holes I used to call sleep when I used to drink and drug myself into a coma each night., from which I woke up hungover and still under the influence. Never again.
Have as good a week as you all can friends. Make it sober and clean, thatās half the work already done. One day at a time. Love from my little square.
@SoberWalker major congrats and do very happy for you. Your partner is very lucky to have you. @Misokatsu i do understand that the litter box smells bad, but dumping it outside the front door?! SMH. Kids are something else sometimes.
I shared my journey with some loved ones. When I talked to my elderly mother about my interest in sobriety, she said, āThatās too badā
She eventually said the right things but sheās pretty sure Iām exaggerating my concerns in order to get attention. This is a very long pattern of behavior in my family. My father was an alcoholic and abusive narcissist with untreated mental health issues. He completed suicide 20 years ago when accountability for his actions finally arrived in his life. He regarded any need from the children as a distraction to his agenda.
I told my brother. He is addicted to narcotics and struggles to maintain sobriety. Iāve been a support person to him over the many years of that struggle. He immediately questioned me about the depth of my use and diagnosed the relative severity of my problem within the first few minutes. He was subtly dismissive in that he determined that Iām only mentally addicted, not physically addicted. Well thank goodness for that. No shit, thatās why Iām trying to stop before it gets worse.
He proceeded to highlight all of his worst use scenarios to me, including a recently undisclosed relapse and the suicidal thoughts that accompanied it. He assures me he is much better now and more determined to be clean.
He also made it clear that while he is glad for me, I definitely need to expect my own relapse.
So my mother and brother may not be the best support for my self care. I should have known better.
Fortunately my husband, my son, and my bff are right nearby with very encouraging and supportive words. 2 of those 3 have struggled with use issues and are nothing but positive for me.
So Iām checking in here on Monday morning with 10 days accomplished without any alcohol! I feel pretty good!
I hope you all have a good day and stay healthy and strong. I appreciate the support from this group and Iām looking forward to more clear headed days for all of us.
I remember opening up a bit to my family. I guess they will never understand and there is no need for this. Well, I tend to run to my mother, seeking for validation which I will never ever get. So, I had to let go of this.
What might be possible is that your sobriety shows your family the weak points, you are leaving the system. Bad thing for a shiny happy family.
Itās soooo good that you started your journey and congratulations on you 10 days!
Hey ho. Checking in for 150 days. Having coffee and applying for a new driverās license. I just realized my current one expires on my birthday this Friday
Congratulations on the engagement, @SoberWalker that is wonderful.
@Misokatsu that sounds like something my kids would do
Congratulations @SoberGuyUSA on 1200 days, that is many one days at a time.
Congratulations @Dansig on 6 months of sobriety. Keep up the hard work!
Congratulations @LAB on 10 days. I hope you focus on the supportive people in your life!
@Nordique you have doubled your sober days NINE times! That is amazing!
fabulous news
That is amazing!
