I have not attended the meeting, but it appears it is for both. If you hear someone speak that you think would make a good sponsor you can probably message them or something. I’m an in person meeting type of person so I am not sure what’s going on with the Zoom stuff these days.
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TY. If I lived in a more urban area where meetings are more anonymous or not held in churches that are inevitably inhabited by close-minded, small town, gossiping church goers, that would be my choice too. My experience with my son going to meetings in those places was something I have no desire to repeat.
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Hey guys sitting here in the waiting room to talk to the psychiatrist she always wants to change my meds every week so I need to just say no if she wants to today. I was at my last full day of treatment this morning. I’m going to miss my groups and the routine I have right now but I’m sure I can quickly start a new one. Maybe this will give me time to write before school starts. I not sure what is wrong lately my motivation level is dropping but I have a great group of guys that go to the gym with me and meetings and give me a reason to stay active and social. I did isolate over the weekend but it was nice to just have some alone time.
One of the guys that I have gotten kind of close to at treatment is really having a hard time. I’m seeing him have a psychotic break down and the staff doesn’t seem to be intervening or helping him. I feel helpless not knowing how to help him.
God is good friends today I have 83 days sober and have hope and gratitude for the first time in so long. Sober Trip is a mystery I can’t wait experience.
Be safe and sober for today
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Checking in. Im having hard time making good routins, and follow them. And even harder time going to bed at nigth, I know I need sleep and Iam tired, but I never get my self to bed when I should, just watching TV, scrolling on the Phone, I like spending evening alone like this, me time. But I know I need sleep more/better, have routins, to feel and get better. How do you guys do it?
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Checking in 
So… I took the $100 I recieved yesterday and went shopping. I am so proud of myself right now!! Instead of getting drugs that would have maybe lasted 1-2 hours, I bought food, toiletries, a pack of smokes for hubby, put $20 on the laundry card, some winter gloves, and have $10 for my hubby for coffees for work! I HAD to take a pic as a reminder to myself and also cuz I’m just proud and wanted to show u all haha
Oddly enough tho… I have a stronger urge to use right now then I did when I had money. So im not sure what that is about… any insight on that would be great! But… im happy and going to keep on keeping on
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Checking in 39 days. (Oops, I thought it was 40)
So tired the last few days. I just want a nap. Kinda frowned upon at work. Hubby put up my new ceiling light fixture with my full spectrum bulb. Tonight I think I’ll spend some time in that room see if some regular exposure will help.
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I function well on routine and I am one for making lists lol what I do the night before is I actually plan the next day. So on my phone I will write the time and what activity I’m doing. Sometimes I even set alarms to get me up or to remind me of something I need to do. For sleep, I usually like to wind down by doing a guided mediation or deep breathing etc an hour before bed. I’ll put my phone down and limit anything that may keep me awake. Have a hot shower or bath to relax. Sort of develop a good routine. I like to get to bed by 1030pm. So I can sleep well. If I dont sleep well my day is shit lol which can cause me to think of using
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until she steps into water and sinks 
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@Butterflymoonwoman you did so well buying the necessities of life and not using! Craving sucks try to keep busy till it passes. Can you hit a NA meeting on Zoom? That will help. How many days are you now? We can do this together!
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Thank u so much! Ya I felt good doing it but afterwards I was like, damn I have no money now to use 
stupid thinking. I do have an app for online meetings… thank u for the suggestion I might do that. I am at day 3 as of this evening! U?
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@Butterflymoonwoman Huge congrats on 3 days that is huge, I am working on ending Day 97…
Oh here’s a site for virtual NA meetings
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Woooooohooooo
1200 days look at that!
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I think of addiction as being possesed because that is exactly how I feel. I feel like I have a demon inside me all the time. So when things like this happen it just solidifies that I have done something RIGHT and I pissed off that demon. Your addiction feels hungry seeing all that food and no dope that’s all. Tell it to fuck off and make yourself something yummy to eat. Super job I am so proud of you.
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I’m so happy to read this, Dana!! 
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Sleep hygiene. So like brushing your teeth, washing your face, changing into pajamas, which is also a routine. Taking melatonin or drinking sleepy time tea. Maybe meditating 20 minutes before going to bed. Or progessive muscle relaxation technique. I literally meditate at 7:30 to 7:50 then take my night
meds at 8 pm. I always say my prayers and tell God what I am thankful for and ask Him for what I need then I get my cat and go to bed. I fall asleep after 9 o clock but I have been doing this routine for a little over a year and it works for me and since I enjoy it and like it it is reinforced. Good luck with finding what works for you!
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Wow girl! That’s awesome! I’m excited to get that amount of time in my recovery but it is only one day at a time no matter where we are at in our recoveries thank u for the site too!
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Checking in… today was a good day! I met with my therapist who I have been seeing for over a year (we meet weekly, also I am in DBT) and made some new goals for myself to work on. Also, since getting sober and dealing with some of my mental health (anxiety and PTSD) I have become quiet a homebody when usually I used to live my life and not think twice about it. I now stay at my apartment a lot because it’s safe for me and I feel comfortable there and I rarely go out but I have been pushing myself to get out of my apartment and get back to living life without fear. So my roommate and I went with her cousin and her cousins grandson to a place for kids where they can play indoors … like a huge jungle gym then we went to Mc Donald’s and then Hobby Lobby. Sounds like a pretty semi simple day for most people but when I tell you I RARELY leave my apartment I am serious. I don’t work, I don’t drive and I cut off all of my using people so I don’t have that many sober people and my roommate who I am close to doesn’t drive either so we are both stuck at home with our cats for now. So yeah I got to get out and have a good time and decided I am going to take any and every opportunity to get out of my apartment and live life to the fullest.
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Checking in clean.
I just found out my homegroup lost a member.
I thought I would offer the reminder to everyone that this disease kills and it doesn’t play favorites.
RIP Dan 
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Love this 
cuz yes that’s how I want to look at it. I’m doing what I can to not let my addictive thinking have that much power over me. I learned today to view addiction has having no value to my life (which I guess I sort of knew… but at the same time I initally did view it has having some benefit - numbing my emotions… which is a lie). It adds no value. It does nothing for me. Adds no real fulfillment or joy and is a cause if chaos and stress and pain. And it helps actually if I view it like a demon and I’ve pissed it off by doing something right. Yup going to tell it it fuck right off lol I. Having chicken tonight with stuffing and either frozen veg or steamed Asparagus nice hardy meal. A hot shower. And a good rest 
thank u for your support 
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Awe Donna I’m happy to see you! You are another person who has always checked up on me over however long I’ve been on TS thank u for your support Thanks for cheering me on! How r u? Good I hope
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