I’m sorry but the ‘small’ bottle of wine made me chuckle just now F. Ridiculous indeed. Personally I would be tempted to buy a double magnum instead. But we aren’t buying wine and we won’t be buying wine because we don’t do that no more. Instead we deal with life on life’s terms. Which at times sucks pretty damned hard. Yes. There is no alternative though. We have to live our lives sober, and we do. Congrats on 1108 days. That’s an awesome count. Keep going. Hugs friend.
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Hang in there and work your stuff Charlie. You need your sober wits to deal with this. And you will. Hang in there, take care and do the right thing friend.
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Welcome to the check in thread Kady! Glad you found us. Excellent spot to keep accountability, to yourself in the first place of course. Will see you here in the weekend for sure right? 
One day at a time yes. You’re doing great.
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Checking in. I went to four meetings yesterday and still drank. Three meetings today, two different programs. Each meeting gave me something. I am not sure what else to do. If I don’t find the pause button between urge, purchase, and drink I am screwed. So, I threw away another six pack today after 6 beers yesterday. I think I am going to have to get a J.O.B. other than my business and out of this house.
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@anon53116147 sorry for your loss 
@shinysoul welcome 
congrats on 3 days 
@Hidden congrats on your honesty welcome back
@ShadowFax thank you
@Steeze congrats on the new place sorry about the friendship 
@Bomdhil welcome back keep trying 
@LAB congrats on getting through your events sober
@Luckyredz nice to see you checking in congrats on your longest stretch
@anon86198612 welcome congrats on 3 days
@EarnIt prayers that it will stick soon rooting for you
463 days no alcohol.
431 days no cocaine.
24 days no nicotine.
Today has been long. I am craving a vape and junk food, I haven’t given in so far but it has came close a few times with nearly ordering a takeaway of desserts.
I received a phonecall today from the private hospital, I will see their physio team and hopefully start shockwave therapy for my feet on the 26th.
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Welcome kady! Good you are here. This is an amazing place if you desire sobriety.
One day at a time, we can do this! 
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And bc honestly I never really liked the taste. No matter how low I feel, alcohol would only make it worse. No exception to this for me. I am grateful that no matter what I cannot romanticise it. I only want to destroy myself. But this also is no solution. It is this : 
Just had the lymphatic drainage with the other therapist and she was much better. Grateful I stood up for myself last week.
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473 a recovering addict.
Getting super excited… Not long!!!
Packed
Ready for a trip that was once just a conversation.
Thanks giving in Amercia
All made possible because of this place!
Sobriety has given me more than i ever expected!!!
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Hope you all have a good day, much love
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Welcome Kady! This is an awesome place to hang out when especially tough times when you’re challenged with staying sober. Hope to see you this weekend 
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Checking in, 375 days no alcohol, 125 days no smoke. Trying to find my place in my life that I abandoned and it’s going to be a huge work, especially that I just started to get to know myself. It’s weird how different I am from the person I used to think I was.
It hit me again, that I must focus on real people who are around me instead of chasing ghosts that I kept feeding with my fears and desires. ’Real’ starts to have more and more value and seems less disappointing in my eyes as I’m recovering.
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Day 71 AF today. Been hitting the gym regularly after work and it’s starting to pay off. Feeling good and losing a few lbs.
Went to my first beard competition last weekend at a bar that I used to frequent when I was in town. It was challenging but I’m glad I went. I got to meet some new bearded brothers and a few of them were sober as well, so it made it easier to have folks who can relate.
I took 2nd place in my category!
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Checking in, just reached day 10 sober, it’s been hard but I feel great and smiling more each day, thanks for the support!!! I love this place x
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I appreciate you, Tyler2020! Congratulations on your continued sobriety 
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Day 4 - Feeling good and moving right along! This morning - prayer, meditation, light workout since I’m fasting, and telehealth therapy for an hour.
Sending everyone positive vibes and lots of encouragement for your Tuesday
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Midday check in
Amazing how my mood can changes so quickly. Had a good morning and then bam… stress and frustration hit. But oddly enough my 1st instinct isn’t “I need to use”. Still learning as I go through this journey.
• When I get frustrated I’m learning to listen to my body… am I uncomfortable, hungry, tired, hot or cold. Once I figure that out I take care of it. Like right now my damn kapris that I was wearing were pissing me off (lol… I literally am laughing while I type this) cuz they felt uncomfortable and it was frustrating me, so I changed. I was too hot so I opened the window. Like my God… do “normal” people feel this way? Lol literally… my shoe lace could untie and that would normally be a reason to use lol not anymore!
• I’ve also learned to slow down. Cuz I get going and if I just pause for a sec and chill out, I start calming down.
So ya im going to eat, and then slowly do my tasks for the day. Do a guided meditation and smile 
cuz I’m clean and sober and I’m not having crazy urges like I used to during stressful moments.
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1st check in, using the same account from like 4 years ago, but things have been happening & this time going going to do it for the right reasons, which are myself and my family.
I’ve been really scared of living without weed for over a decade as it’s been a huge part of me avoiding dealing with my trauma recovery etc. I could definitely go on with this but right now I’ve just got to keep it short and say I know that I’m only going to get more angry and anxious if I don’t give this up based on the actual science based research I read this time instead of going on Facebook groups and forums…I mean this is a forum but like not so much a ‘cherry picking my information to meet my narrative because feelings are terrifying and I hate them’ kind of way.
I also struggle with admitting the gravity of how much marijuana I’ve been smoking and the realistic effects it has had on my life just due to the popular idea that it’s totally fine and dandy comparatively, but today reaching the acceptance point that that’s actually not true for people like me who are using it far more than recreationally here and there.
Lol, also read as: grappling with agreeing with my psychiatrist and really struggling to let go & feel & grow.
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Thanks for the reply Stella 
Yeah my job is writing and performance, which is, or at least was, my hobby. In all honesty it’s probably not so much related to giving up meth and more giving up downers… Weed and later Xanax to be specific. It’s unfortunate that they both got me to a state where I can really get into a zone to write music. Without one or the other I get itchy feet. Still, I can’t smoke weed again and I’d rather get used to writing music sober, I don’t want to rely on Xanax.
I expect the annhedonia left over from my meth use has a part to play still tho.
But enough ranting, do still have a load of new hobbies I enjoy - piano, DIY, lots of sports, cooking. Jajaja I tried some woodworking too and it was really terrible, I made a birdhouse, totally wonky it stands crooked and proud in my back yard 
One thing I find interesting is it turns out i was never addicted to playing video games, I was addicted to playing video games stoned. Barely have the patience to play anymore.
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Good day or night Sober friends, Yay, abstinence from alcohol and nicotine for 4 months! You all played a big part in that with TS.
Focusing on health and weightloss recently lost 25lbs from a few months back, jus t need to not regain the fat.
My Uncle Dennis past away before I could see him at the hospice sadly, but saw him recently last couple months for family dinner and talked on the phone. Nothing but abundance of love from this kind soul that he was. He made it to 80 and I will miss him dearly. 
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Checking in Day 104 clean from Meth pills haven’t been to a meeting since last Thurs due to holiday with family so looking forward to NA meeting tonight, my homegroup as well.
Slept all day till 4pm which was enjoyable but ridiculous it means me skipping my walk too. Will set alarm tomorrow and obey it.
Wish everyone a clean and sober 24hrs!
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