Thanks Joe.
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Congratulations on 700 hard-fought days!
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This is a big deal!!! Congrats 
you give newcomers like me hope that there are brighter days ahead!! A day at a time!
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Itās been a long time since Iāve been on the site! Life is good Iām still clean and sober going on 15 months
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Happy birthday, Dana! I wish you can sleep well into it 
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Nice to see you Melisa.
15 months 
. Way to Go!!
Youāre awesome.
I hope to see you around.
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I am feeling really needy lately. Iām really not good at asking for help or even knowing what I need. I know I need to ask and to put myself out there on all the groups Iām a part of. So please send me your good vibes. I donāt want prayers, Iām not a religious person, but if thatās how you share of yourself I wonāt deny your way. I am reevaluating my self care routine and know that will continue to be important.
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Hey guys! Sorry Iāve been absent lately, my life and mind have been a genuine mess to say the least. For the first time Iām concerned about the probable effects self-isolation have had (and still) on my anxiety and self-esteem. Iām worried that my psyche might be more scarred than Iāve liked to admit even to myself. I feel like Iām helplessly drowning. That Iām a lost cause who might just not make it after allā¦ My abnormal and truly destructive dependencies are killing me softly, and Iāve merely been staying alive for that to happen for the past decade! I want change so badā¦ Iām sick to the core of fucking hopelessness. Of failure. Of pessimism. Of negativity. Of procrastination. Of excuses. Of just getting by instead of really living! Because you know what? I am worth it, and I do love myself! I know that deep down. I canāt promise Iāll succeed where my to-be-proud-of past self has tried and seemingly failed before. But I sure as hell aināt done yet wonderful world. This is NOT the end - but a chance! Iām trying again.
Plan for today: reestablish contact with a psychologist after sending this off; book a psychology course I want to study myself; note some places down and tune my resume for them. See how far I can come. And hey, look up, keep your fires burning guys!
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Man you are amazing and trust me being resoursefull is your sving grace your super power, stay strong.
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Happy birthday today. Have a great day
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Sending positive thoughts your way my friend. Reach out anytime
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You both sound really self-aware, u know something is not right, and are looking at ways to fix it. I admire that, and hope u find what u are looking for soon.
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Day 479
Students are feeling the cold, the time in the semester, and are pretty unmotivated. Had to pull it out of me to be strict or coaxing depending on the situation, not sure if I always got it right.
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Happy Birthday Dana.
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Checking in day 67.5
Yesterday was a tough day lots of moments I really felt like drinking a lot. I pretty sure this has something to do with my starting to play video-games again . This always has been a huge trigger for my.
Havent played any games the last 2 months since Iam sobering up. Iam not sure I am gonna continue with this. But for now its helps me to get true the boring days at home while the sh*t weather continues.
Within 2 weeks my holiday starts, I am looking forward to that and I hope it will take me out off this isolation where I am in at the moment because of the early morning shifts
I am struggling with my motivation and missing the inspiration for being sober.
But I will not give up, I will stay sober, one day at a time!
Wish you all amazing sober day 
After rain comes suneshine
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I hear yah there man. Use to be a major gaming geek,call of duty for days on end not sleeping, drinking, skipping work. Havenāt played in idk how many years, I thought about getting one as well but deep down I know Iād definitely never get anything done and would be a huge trigger as well. Have a good day
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700 days!!! You are so amazing! Congratulations! Iām so thrilled for you!
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Spent three hours on the phone listening to my mother talk about herself, her problems, etc. She is an emotional child (not an insult, but simply the truth), and I felt completely drained after getting off the phone. The older and more mature I become, the clearer I understand why I developed the issues I did. Truthfully, I never had a āmomā. I had a woman who birthed me into the world, then turned to me for the emotional love and validation she never got as a child.
The empty and sad feeling of getting off the call is one that I would have unconsciously tried to escape from in the past. Now I simply allow it to be there while mentally poking and prodding it like a curious scientist. If I canāt escape from it or make it go away, I might as well understand it.
On a funny note, we had a misunderstanding where she kept asking me to send her some of the pictures I was sending my sister-in-law. I had agreed to make a little video about how to care for herbs and send it to said sister-in-law, so I was really confused because I hadnāt agreed to send any pictures. After several go arounds, I finally figured out what my mother was saying.
Memes.
My mother wanted me to send her MEMES. 
(Iād been sending my SiL memes to keep her spirits up while she was illāwhich has become my go-to for sick friends and family.)
@apes2020 Iām so sorry about your loss. Thatās so hard. Youāre right though. This life is short. Every day is a gift. Itās hard to see that sometimes when youāre lost in an emotional and chemical hell.
@Butterflymoonwoman Happy birthday.
@Its_me_Stella Before I read your post I was eyeing your picture and trying to figure out if they treats were sugar free.
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341 days
Ticking along looking forward to my long weekend, getting my Christmas tree and decorations up and present buying. Sam my son home Wed from uni so i want our home all festive ready. When I recall last year, as always left it so late as it felt like a chore any Christmas spirit battered by alcohol. Not this year super excited.
@apes2020 so sorry to hear about your friend very sad take care
@Butterflymoonwoman Happy Birthday and lovely to hear about your unexpected treats to celebrate
@Its_me_Stella have a wonderful weekend, looks like Hot Chocolate going to be looking really pretty
@Dazercat 
on 700 days amazing 
work
@Deadman 1152 days how inspiring 
for us all
@RosaCanDo and @1in8billion virtual good vibes and hugs sent your way 
Have a good day/night all 
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