@RosaCanDo Someone told me, a long time ago, that not asking for help is robbing someone else the opportunity to give it. It doesn’t always make a difference, depending on where I am mentally when I need help. It is something to meditate or think on. Wishing you peaceful vibes.
Day 18. I am exhausted. I shouldn’t have been all boast-y a few days ago about my great night’s sleep. I haven’t slept well in three days. I am not a 5 hour a night kinda gal and I am not a napper. So, I am wandering through, barely present. I did clean my bathroom at 5:30a and finished filling and ran the dishwater.
Physically, I feel like shit. Like midshift shit. Whatever. I am sober. Reflecting back, I am pretty sure that I have never gone 30 days without a nip at something. I could be wrong. It really doesn’t matter today. Today is what counts. Today I am on my 18th day, with zero in the way of cheats, logging 2-4 meetings a day, which is excessive. If/when I get this job, I will be gone A LOT. So, I am going to need to pick and choose. So, I might as well load up now.
Morning check in
Yay!!! Im a whole 37 years old today! I woke up clean and sober, went to the gym, ate chocolate of breakfast , and now I’m drinking coffee reading through all the lovely birthday wishes. You all really made my day actually I truly appreciate you all so much! You’re all like family to me! Really you are! I’m emotional today… in a good way tho. It’s amazing I’m clean and sober and not even wanting to use. Im so excited to see what 37 has in store for me. New goals, financial security, health, a new look, better relationships, the gifts of recovery have already shown themselves and I’m so early in my journey still. It is truly a miracle. I have prayed continually for the urge to just be removed and yes I have to do the work too and not just expect it to magically disappear, but I feel a HUGE difference this time around. I feel like I am putting in the work this time. I deserve to be happy like we all do!
I feel like I’m going through some sort of change (mid life change or something lol idk). My hubby is going to get me my hair done for my birthday in the near future. I’m chopping it all off lol my hair is almost down to my waist and I’m cutting it… into a bob sort of design, do it up dark brown, with some highlights or something. It’ll be a huge release, almost like a letting go of my past. I’m ready to embrace my recovery and my life!
37 is going to be a remarkable year!
Mother nature even gifted me our first real snowfall (it’s not much but it’s a decent amount). 1st pic is from my hubbys work place, and 2nd pic is from our place.
Thank you all again! Im sending so much love to everyone on here
Happy Friday, today is my day 49…cravings have mostly passed and I have found some awesome tea substitutes to suit my fancy…water, teas, pops, juices, clamato juice seasoned up, flavored coffees, smoothies, milkshakes…eating and craving so much sugar still so am trying to watch…I gained a few but lost a few so if I stay active maybe I won’t gain too much…back on gabapentin which isn’t kind to the hips lol…stay well everyone
Checking in with another milestone. 701.
That’s right. It’s another milestone for me.
ODAAT
Thank you everyone for all the kind words and support. And especially all the love. We have to do this together. Let’s get through the Christmas Holidays one day at a time.
Checking in! Things are good.
Gonna focus on getting my house Chrismafied today. Putting everything on hold until I finally get this done. It’s happening!
Congrats on all the milestones and another sober day. It really does get better and better.
Just got back from my wife’s friend’s place. Sober. Happy.
This community sorted me out when I needed it.
Thank you.
Thank you, @Alisa for your thoughtful, detailed and caring post. I really appreciate you. You have done that for me before when I needed it.
My wife is a bit worse for wear and will be rough tomorrow. Such is life.
Goodnight.
, and now I’m drinking coffee reading through all the lovely birthday wishes. You all really made my day actually 
I truly appreciate you all so much! You’re all like family to me! Really you are! I’m emotional today… in a good way tho. It’s amazing I’m clean and sober and not even wanting to use. Im so excited to see what 37 has in store for me. New goals, financial security, health, a new look, better relationships, the gifts of recovery have already shown themselves and I’m so early in my journey still. It is truly a miracle. I have prayed continually for the urge to just be removed and yes I have to do the work too and not just expect it to magically disappear, but I feel a HUGE difference this time around. I feel like I am putting in the work this time. I deserve to be happy 
like we all do!
to suit my fancy…water, teas, pops, juices, clamato juice seasoned up, flavored coffees, smoothies, milkshakes…eating and craving so much sugar still so am trying to watch…I gained a few but lost a few so if I stay active maybe I won’t gain too much…back on gabapentin which isn’t kind to the hips lol…stay well everyone
One week is awesome! 
thank you for sharing!
