Good to see you checking in M. I’m sorry you’re hurting. Sending you hugs!
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Oooo!!! I’m over the moon for you!!!
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Congratulations on your 20 days Kady.
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superrr
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Your username gave me a hint. There are places on the web where my username is mno020 
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Checking in… haven’t been coming on here daily like I used to and engaging in posting and I really wanna change that. I have been so caught up in the spiritual aspect of my recovery that I forgot how it helps me to read others posts and see how others are doing rather than isolating. I have been making new friends in my apartment building, went out to eat with two people this week which is a HUGE step in my recovery and mental health. I don’t do stuff like that and I laughed so much I had a sober life high and was ok so I am going to do that more. I have been listening to testimonies on people who became addicted and were redeemed through Jesus Christ, which is what happened to me. So I think my Higher Power is trying to tell me something, that I am not alone, that I am not just making it up in my head, that I am not crazy because for the longest time everyone around me
Made me feel like I was because I kind of lost my mind to find my actual sanity if that makes sense… but yeah I am having dreams about my Higher Power. Last night I had a dream that I was somewhere and I was using (because I have a lot of using dreams) and I said something in the dream to a man like “I believe in Jesus Christ” and the man said something back to me like “if you believe in Him why do you do the things you do?” And I said “I don’t know why I do the things I do, only He does, but I know He walks with me no matter where I go, even if I am in Hell he will be with me!” I don’t know but I know my faith is that strong now that I dream it so this isn’t the first time this has happened to
Me but a lot of spiritual stuff and introspection is happening at this point in my recovery but yeah I am hoping everyone has a blessed day and I am
Hoping to get on here more. Thank you for listening
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536 days. Today is only day 2 after officially saying goodbye and walking away from my relationship. I have chose to treat this as an addiction as I have obsessively thought of him like I used to think of beer. I cried so much yesterday I honestly thought I should have ran out of tears. Today I have planned a couple projects around my house and am going to start a new coloring page. Trying to attempt anything and everything that will distract my mind. Have always been doing it ODAAT but it’s going to be hours at a time for a while. My upcoming milestone and the holiday are on my mind as I will need to get through both alone. I know I can do it and will try my best to just stay in the moment until then. Much love to you all.
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Huge HUGE hugs to you 🫂
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Last night was difficult and frustrating.
I wanted to do something, anything other than sit in my apartment alone which my soberity has seen me doing more often than not, but no one wanted to do anything. The odd time when I felt strong I’ve been going down to me old pub to hang out with the people there and have a pepsi or two, it hasn’t been a problem, but last night I didnt feel, I guess safe, doing it.
As the clock struck 1am, my phone notified me that I’ve been dry for 2 weeks. Still being bored and frustrated the thought of going for a pint struck my head and wouldn’t leave, my mind trying to justify it with “at least you would be out doing something and with people.”
To hell with that. I went to bed.
Day 14, despite being frustrated I’m still going strong
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congrats Eric 
this must be an amazing one 
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Morning checkin
Well the 1st day of my 37th year on this earth is going well! At work until 4pm and then home to relax and enjoy the rest of my weekend. Set some plans for myself for this year…
• This is my year for recovery (stay clean and sober)
• Work on health and fitness… get back to goal weight
• Pay off debt (or most of it)
• Potentially getting a house ???
• Improve relationships with people
• Improve self care practices
• Get creative!
• Find ways to be of service to others - Where I can volunteer or share my story. I really want others to not feel so alone in their experiences. That there are people out there with similar stories. The reason why I talk so openly on here about my past experiences with the sex trade, addiction, domestic violence, assaults etc is bcuz u just don’t know who on the other end can relate. There is such power in feeling accepted and not alone. We all have “stuff” going on and things we have had to overcome or are still working through. I want to find my purpose and I want to help others. Just need to figure out how 
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Doing fine but waiting for an operation and because of Covid that takes a while 
Going to get married in february
Kids leaving the nest, proud how the are doing.
Life is good for me
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Way to to for not giving in!
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@KevinesKay 
40 days!! Sweet!
@Squirt 
Kudos to your for knowing when to walk away.
@Scrammbles Good for you knowing it wasn’t safe to go and then doing what was best for your sobriety. Wouldn’t it be great if there were alcohol free hang out places with music and dancing and darts and pool. Hmmm…the entrepreneur in me just went: ding ding ding 
Anyway, just keep doing awesome like you’ve been doing for 14 days
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Day six (6) and still going strong
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Checking in on day 118. I’ve been waiting to get a sponser; mainly because I didn’t trust myself to stop drinking and hold myself accountable to do the work and attend in person meetings (which are crucial for me in this early phase). I’m a lying deceitful drunk and I wondered if I’d really take getting sober seriously. Well today I asked my sponser to be my sponser and she said “yes”; which makes me really happy and really scared. Her shares, no-nonsense attitude and decades of sobriety makes me want what she has. I now feel safer in my sobriety, so that’s good. I wasn’t sure if I’d feel trapped and regretful once I committed to a sponser. I had my doubts for sure, about the whole program in general; but for today I’m a grateful sober drunk doing what I have to do to keep this happy, sober heart.
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Checking in here Day 122 zero desire for drugs or alcohol but I am bloody starving. Starving. Starving on this pre-surgery all shake diet.
I am having massive cravings for food.
Ah lol. I will stay strong and try and drink some water. If you guys can resist your cravings, so can I!
Love Kat
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