Checking in from day 6. Feeling good about today and this week. I have not told anyone about my new sober walk. I’ve never actually done this before, and with all my recent failures (not saying I will fail at this) but I’m just not ready to share this with anyone yet. I’m barely admitting it to myself if I’m being honest. I have quit drinking many times. I’ve quit many different times, for many different reasons. Sometimes even for years, but somehow I find myself drinking again.
I wanted to address anxiety today:
@Stormy@KarenKW I hear you. I had extreme anxiety my first few days. It feels easier every day that passes. But I pat myself on the back for every day I get past. Every day I push through the anxiety is step forward. I read something the other day. It said “Don’t let the entire staircase overwhelm you. Just focus on that first step”… every next step is the first step. Before we know it, we’ll look behind us and realize 30 steps (days) are back there. We’ve got this!!
@Misokatsu WOW 482 days down! That’s incredible! True inspiration. Thank you so much for sharing.
This is my first time joining any type of support. I’m praying it helps me stick with it this time!
Day 17. Good Morning TS Family. Good day yesterday. Attended 8/90 meeting it was a meditation meeting…lord I was so
relaxed ifeel asleep…again…my camera was off thankfully. Praying for a strong week. High goals for lots of self care… love.Good Sober day all.
Day 500!
Today is day one of waking up at the crack of dawn, meditating, writing out my goals, and kicking ass today … I am going to make this my new thing and see where it takes me. (Special thanks to @apes2020 for the 5am Club book recommendation!! Love ya girl!)
One of my goals is to spend less time on my phone so I might not be around as much. I will definitely come back if I am struggling with drinking or drugging! But I feel pretty good at the moment. Love you guys.
I know I’m a newbie compared to you but it hurts me to see you drug down the rabbit hole for this friend. You have a kind soul without a strong boundary to protect you from the damage this relationship is causing you.
You do realize this is a form of enabling? Just something to consider.
Checking in Day 124 from hotel in Toronto, having morning coffee. Surgery tomorrow. Almost caved on the diet last night but went to meeting, checked this forum and managed to stay on the right path.
Later I will be picking up my prescriptions and will have one for Percocet that will be sitting round until after surgery and discharge from the clinic (also I will be receiving the clinic’s opioid while there overnight). I think I can do it but that’s been my downfall in the past, thinking I could use successfully.
However one thing’s for sure this will not set off another opioid addiction I would never go to the streets with the fentanyl out there these days.
So bumpy scary few days coming. Will keep going to meetings and keep in touch with my sponsor.
Looking forward to a new week even knowing im walking into some challenges. Which is different for me as usuallys mondays were a real struggle. Booked tommorow off and im supposed to be buying a new to me car tomorrow. Hoping the guy actually answers today for a time. Ive been waiting a month for this guy to get home for work so i can go get the car. Im gettimg pretty impaitent over it. Also thanks @TigerMatriarch your my biggest cheerleader and its very much appriciated. Congrats on 63 days.
Morning check in
Today is starting out great! Monday is my absolute fav day of the week! Plans for the morning was to hit the gym, but it seems like anytime I use aromatherapy, essential oils, or a hot bath the night before… I sleep in until 7am. Oh well, there is always tmrw mrng or a midday home workout. Things are falling into place slowly. Stress is there but is not as strong. I’m grateful that I am facing the reasons of my stress instead of trying to numb it out with drugs (which as we all know, makes it 10x worse). I’m learning a lot about myself and my capabilities. I used to think that I HAD to use, that I HAD no choice in the matter, that I absolutely COULD NOT live or cope with intense emotion or past trauma, yet I have a choice today wether I want to use or not… and I enjoy being clean and sober, having food, sleeping, being clear minded, having money, being able to be selfless, and be present for others. I can’t even describe how good that all feels. Anyway, gratitude is high today for me. And I saw this meme and I loved it bcuz it reminds me to shut that addictive thinking up (I call her Cruella lol someone on here suggested that name for me due to my DOC lol… I love it. So thank you to whoever that was!). Just bcuz I think or feel something, doesn’t mean I have to act on it. Thoughts/feelings are just that… thoughts/feelings. As long as I don’t pick up… I have a chance! Have a wonderful Monday my friends 🫂
You are absolutely NOT a disaster my friend I sometimes think that too about myself but we arent… no need to label ourselves as that 🫂 I’m proud of you and I care about you. Sometimes we just need to be gentle with ourselves and remind ourselves we are doing the best we can. Hugs!
all positive sturd to incorporate. Huge hugs!!!
Holy Moly 500!! 
70!!! You’re killin’ it! 
I sometimes think that too about myself but we arent… no need to label ourselves as that 🫂 I’m proud of you and I care about you. Sometimes we just need to be gentle with ourselves and remind ourselves we are doing the best we can. Hugs!