Day 79 checking in
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- Coffee. Slept even longer. No time for gyms or bikes or hikes today, just a
ride to and from therapy. And therapy itself of course. Thatās OK. Priorities. Did a very nice spinning class yesterday. Today is training for my mind and soul. Sober and clean or nothing would come of any of it.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober. Just for today. It helps so much. Love from Amsterdam.
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Good morning
The COVID test for the hubby came back negative. Yay! My quarantine is done and it is back to the classroom for me. I got a lot of work done at home these past two days, but my absence from work is hard on my colleagues. Not only are there no sun teacherās available, there are also very few staff who speak Spanish to help these new kiddos out.
Lots to do when I get there today. Iām the meantime Iām glad to be alcohol free and rested.
Have a good day!
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Eating my lunch and sneaked in on TS. Yes, my knee could handle the 5 km 
Thank you for asking Eric.
It was a nice walk but cold
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Day 56. I am grateful I am where Iām at today. Some days Iām just a complete miserable mess and for no reason at that. But I really do believe I am where Iām supposed to be, doing what in supposed to be doing. I remember when I was around like 10 or 11 months sober no thoughts of ever being a artist I was walking in the store doing some shopping for my girls and I seen that little art set, I was going to get it for my girls but something spoke to me and said thatās for you it felt like it was my calling right then and there. I think I drew like two pictures and even posted them on here, I didnāt do good lol and I stopped drawing even, then I hit my year and got my first tattoo and same thing something said I needed to get my skills going because this was for me. And ever since then itās just been a non stop constant obsession of tattooing and seeing all these designs in my mind and thinking I was going to be great. I remember texting @Dan531 and bugging the shit out of him with all these thoughts. I remember I thought the same with lifting and being a trainer but deep down something said that wasnāt my real passion, itās just crazy to see where Iām at with my drawing and tattooing, still not perfect and never will be but something tells me itās what Iām meant to do. If probably be alot further along with it if I wouldnāt of relapsed for a good 5 months of it. Itās feels good to have a solid 56 days of actual tattooing and drawing and no relapsing it away, I never felt like I actually retained or learned much before when I was doing it bc I was just doing meth and getting fucked up. But anyways Iām here now so much love
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Hey all, checking in on day 543.
I didnāt have a great day yesterday but last night when I went to bed I reminded myself that I still have my sobriety and no one can take that from me. What a powerful feeling.
I hope everybody has a great one today!
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I love this Mike. I canāt wait to see how far youāre able to go in sobriety. Make sure you keep on keeping us posted.
I feel like during your last stretch of sobriety you maybe didnāt have as much direction as you do now because I remember how unhappy you were at your old job before you quit. Iām really excited for you
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Thank you, I agree my last job was definitely not good for me. Sure I lost some things and itās not been easy since I left. But for the most part Iām so much happier, and I cant forget how negative and rude the ppl were to me.
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Yeah it sounded like a really negative place. It sounds like youāre on the right path 
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Day 545 clean and sober today. Mental health meds are no joke. Iām grateful to of had my meds refilled but my mind is still playing catch up after being off them for a bit. Itās been dark but getting better. Have an amazing day today everyone, love you guys! 
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Your craft has come a long way and it will always continue to grow. I think that passion outweighs everything. If you have a passion for something and it makes you happy stick with it. Far too many people wade through life passionless, against the current (Iām probably one of them).
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Day 66 The sun is out again and Iām so glad. I didnāt drink yesterday, I wanted to real bad and Iām not drinking today 
@mamador @RunnerBean 
10days!! WahoO!!
@C_8 @Dolse71 Very cool 4ās and 7ās 
@Dansig 
Congratulations on 7 months!!!
@PuraLatina 
Never give up!
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Day 20. Good day Talking Sober Family. Feeling pretty good today. Meeting 11/90 yesterday. Small virtual meeting with members 4/20year clean and sober. So the focus was on step 1. Me being the new commer I got a lot of tips to which Iām very grateful. WHOAā¦willingness ā¦honestyā¦openessā¦and acceptance. Amen and so it is. Have apt with RAM clinic today exploring options if medication to help with recovery process. Good day all.,
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Hello guysā¦ checking in day 5
Nothing special today, just doing my regular routineā¦
@KevinesKay thanks, will definitely check it outā¦
Peace
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Celebrating day 45 and loving it!
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Relapses are not fun. But you can get back on that saddle and start again. And maybe thereās a learning experience here.
Iāve relapsed a lot. And thereās been a lot of trial and error and dead ends when it came to my path. But relapse always inspired me to keep searching and keep looking within myself to figure out whatās been going on.
Never give up
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Checking inā¦
771 days no drugs/ no booze
20 days positive self
My āpositive selfā or self love counter started when I threw the towel in for the last time on that toxic relationship. There has been some draw and it has not been easy to stay away, nor to keep all my avenues blocked but I have. Some sick part of me wants to know if heās been trying to get ahold of meā¦ who cares??? Sometimes I can be such a dick!
Anyways I almost had to restart my self love counter yesterday after a tug of war with worthiness. Some very special gifts were sent to me and my immediate thought was that I should not have been gifted them. It took sometime and some mulling over in my twisted head to realize there was no humility in those thoughts. Instead graciously accepting them with so much gratitude was the thing to do. I am worthy of beautiful and meaningful things just as everyone of you are.
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Yes you are worth so much!
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Stuck in hospital with covidā¦
Heres hoping for a fast recovery!
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Just a bit behind you at 55 days todayā¦congrats to you Tracey
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