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Wow, thank you very much @Bomdhil that really means a lot. Thank you and Iâm proud of you too because you keep coming back. Great job Thomas!!
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Day one no weed is done
About a third thru day 2
Iâll be honest it was a thing but I did it and I chose myself this time over high all day & numb to emotions. Itâs easier in time I know, and Iâm going to get there really bc my heartâs in it for me this time and Iâm here for it, but damn it was a long day yesterday lol
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Midday checkin
Well I asked my hubby last night to delete ALL the phone numbers that are related to our using. Feels good to have made that decision. And he was right on board with that⌠no hesitation. I really feel like this is the biggest step so far. Itâs one thing to do all the recovery related stuff I can each day but I do have a weak moments, I want to make it extremely hard for a relapse. Anyway, today is a day for relaxation and tidying up. Hope everyone is well 
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Youâre making good choices already just for you and thatâs def something right there, you got this!
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@Lotusflower congrats on your sponsor I too live in Ontario (London) and yes it is beautiful with the snow!
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Oh my gosh, I will probably sound like a headcase when I tell you how many âtoolsâ I need to use in order to stay on track. I am going to put it out here thoughâŚ
- meditate/âprayâ daily, different ways
- read recovery literature many times a day, listen to recovery podcasts etc.
- active member of NA, meetings, sponsor, sponsees, service work etc this is also a daily thing.
- lots of therapy!!! (1-on-1 and group) 2-3 times a week
- family time, games, cuddles etc
- creating things, painting, making jewelry etc
- reaching out constantly to people to keep myself out of the darkness (I slip away easily)
- learning new things, staying open to new ideas, expanding my view ( I find this very important in active addiction we are very close-minded)
I have probably missed somethings but I know very well what is missing from 4 months ago when I felt at peace. In the summer I spent a lot of time sitting at the beach watching the sunset, or just bobbing on the water in the middle of the ocean. A lot of my mornings started taking in the serenity of the lake. I have felt a major shift since the season changed and I recognized it right away. I have been trying different things to fill my void, over buying plants has been one wayâŚit hasnât worked. Outside âstuffâ wonât fix an inside issue, I need to dig deep. Itâs soul work and I just need to find a way to access that part of me. So a âtoolâ might be a new spot in the mountains, or even something easier like the woods in my backyard. The Earth in all her glory is what grounds me and I need to remember that when I feel a disconnect like I have.
Everyday is a new opportunity to learn, I am grateful for that.
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Yes! I feel this, too. The sun is out and I feel like poo but I took some time to feel it on my face and sit quietly, listening to the wind and the crows flying by. Must make space for this.
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After weeks and weeks of rain I need to find some willingness to just get my ass outside and enjoy being cold and wet? Hahaha.
Cold, wet and sober!!!
I can enjoy that.
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A challenge, for sure, but gear up, chica! I do know the feeling, though. Mama nature tests us, too.
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Wow! You seem to have it so together and so well covered from a newbies perspective. I live in a cold northern state in the US and I hear you about missing the outdoor basking in nature. Iâm trying to push myself to enjoy the cold outdoors. It isnât as easy as embracing mornings was. No hangover made that easy.
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Checking in on sobriety day 206. Sober Thanksgiving last week was the first sober one I can remember that wasnât spent in a combat zone. It was pretty freaking awesome waking up hangover free on Friday. Spent today catching up on a few work items and completing more of my CFP certificate program. Getting closer and closer to my transition out of military service and it is equal parts exciting and nerve-wracking. Wrapping up the day in the gym which remains an integral part of my recovery portfolio. Have a great day everyone.
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241st day today. Incredible really. Still as close to the first drink as everybody else.
Donât pick up no Matter what.
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Yes, for sure. Itâs damn hard work.
Addiction is a brutal disease that never stops getting stronger. So even though we put the substances down our addict can still be very alive and reeking havoc in our lives. I have been feeding my addict for 33 years he is a powerful mofo, those neuralpathways are very deep. Now that I am of âsound mindâ I have to make sure I feed my spirit to keep the addict at bay. In my mind I see a scale, addiction on one side and my spirit on the other, I try my hardest to keep the spirit side heavy. Itâs all a learning curve, I am newbie too.
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Congratulations!!!
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Yay my sober twin! Happy 60 days to us!
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Hi Kat
Thanks for the shout out. Nice to see people from close and far getting support from this app. See you around.
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Well I made to 90 days. I gotta say as my 90 mark came closer I had thoughts of using bad. I donât know if itâs was me trying to self sabotage myself Or just my disease trying to trick me but it had me thinking real bad thoughts. But before I did anything I thought about what I had to lose if I did like my relationship with my 16 year old daughter and my 9 year old daughter. Plus Iâve worked to hard to get here for a night of pleasure that will turn into some real dark days. But man that instant gratification sure does try to get me going. But if I do have thoughts of using I play the tape all the way though and if I still wanna use I tell myself if I still wanna use tomorrow I will and Iâve never wanted to use the next day thankfully. But I was just checking in and talking about weâre Iâm at in my recovery because it does help.
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Heck yeah, chica! 
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