Wow dannii
Your strong so stay strong
You will be in my thoughts 100% of the time until you are better
I’ll be here waiting for your return back to the forum
Fk covid
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Danni you are strong and you’ve got this.
Sending love 
Keeping you in my prayers
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Omg @anon27760155 
this post breaks my heart, I can tell you are scared. We are all on your side pulling for you, I will be sending up lots of prayers for you. Your strong, it’s another fight in life and you can make it!
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@4lilcinny I hope the meeting went okay 
@Callie99 thank you so much 
I’m so glad you were able to join your friends for an evening and that they were supportive and didn’t pressure you 
@ShadowFax congrats on 80 days 
it’s good that you are recognising these thoughts now so you can make a plan, books can be great. I wish you strength to enjoy your holidays sober 
@SoberWalker thank you I did see it coming on the day, after I received a text from a dealer on a new number, they caught me at a really low moment and my curiosity of feeling some benefit from using after so long being clean was stronger than my resolve. Now I won’t have that curiosity again. 
@Pat_m have a great time in the French Alps with your family
@WCan I do experience different states mentally, after a period of severe depression, when I finally feel a bit more stable, it feels like my feet are on the ground for the first time in a while and I can feel relaxed in my mind after so much chaos, like the clouds have cleared. Unfortunately, this most recent period of severe depression resulted in a relapse, so I need to be more in control and better prepared for the next times.
@anon53116147 nice work protecting your sobriety 
congrats
@Clarity good luck with the cleaning!
@Chris0720 congrats on your month
@anon27760155 I’m so sorry 
wishing you health sending strength
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@ShesGotMoxie @Mno @IamThechange @Dolse71
@Newlife5 @Misokatsu thank you all I really appreciate the support and compassion
493 days no alcohol.
54 days no nicotine.
1 day no cocaine.
It’s a miracle 
the urge for more has disappeared. I think my curiosity has been satisfied that no benefit can be felt from using cocaine. It sucks that it needed to be reminded but I’m just so relieved to have a day back. It also seems to have lifted my depression, but perhaps that’s from the relief of having no desire to use today, either way I’m grateful. I really don’t know whether to be honest about my relapse in my therapy session tomorrow, I don’t know if he will say I can no longer have the therapy and that we have to stop, I don’t want to risk that. I do want to tell him, but I’m thinking of waiting until we resume in the new year after a 4 week break, because I will be at 30 days by then. 
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I have cried at work before but not for these reasons. We have a 12 day Christmas challenge going on and one of the tasks is a Gratitude list. Tears rolled the whole time I wrote mine. So much to be grateful for this year. Another task is to send a note to a co-worker giving thanks. I just received the most wonderful email from a employee. Cried again…lol maybe its all the emotions coming up being sober but it is definitely a blessed day. Day 25.
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This is awful. I’m hoping and praying for the best. Please get well soon.
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Day 1
Afternoon check in
Today has been okay. Slept in until 1pm. Having strange dreams and waking up sort of disoriented. I’m still experiencing lower back pain since Monday 
so everything I do is in slow motion lmao I just want to thank everyone for your wonderful comments on my post earlier. Means alot. Today I’m experiencing cravings but I know its probably due to being on Day 1. Anyway, I did some cleaning and some Xmas wrapping today. Just waiting for hubby to get home and then we will enjoy our evening. Hope everyone is doing well 
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Omg… im praying so damn hard for you girl 
Don’t give up and keep fighting. This must be sooo scary for you You will continually be in my thoughts xo huge hugs!!!
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Past actions have come back to haunt me this week. I temporarily lost the ability to use my car 2 nights ago, I’m losing my mind & trust in my relationship because of possible PTSD, and I just lost $260 20min ago. On the bright side I gained a work from home position that I began yesterday which is also the highest paying job I’ve ever had and I gained a sense of peace and appreciation having to walk places again. The pros outweigh the cons.
Day 705!
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Great protecting boundaries!
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Vent as you need. It hurts right now, and u have to sit with it and feel it, but u don’t have to do it alone.
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omg. that is scary and worrying. i am atheist but I will pray for this.
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Fight girl. You have to come out of this. We need you. No giving up! Love love love you
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Oh Sweetie, this breaks my heart. You have a strong heart and soul, remember that. 
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I will pray for you, friend.
Stay strong.
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Praying for you dani. Honestly thank you for thinking of us and coming here to let us know in a time when your not feeling well at all, I’ll be thinking about you and waiting to here from you again. Much love
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Danni… prayers for you. Looking forward to hearing you are out of ICU and on the mend.
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