I’m so glad your here. Welcome back 
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- Coffee. Working Sunday. A week of vacation after. It’ll be another staycation. We’re back into lockdown here with immediate effect. No gym. No museums or other cultural stuff. Hope the weather cooperates so I can hike and bike a bit. Glad I won’t be drinking or drugging. One day at a time. Never again. Have a good day all. Love from me. Pic is Terlingua TX. Wish I was there in the desert.
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Day 32 is here. Loving life addiction free. The next step: work on my body image issues. Checking behavior…etc. oh yea… layer by layer I got stuff to work on! But I’m more hopeful than ever. The endgame: to be a confident husband and father… something I’ve never been.
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Checking in Day 18…. It’s my weekend off so im grateful and excited about that. Working in healthcare in NYC has been so tiresome with the whole COVID ordeal and a rise in cases again im not sure im mentally ready to face another pandemic it was A LOT. Today I stayed home put together my table all by myself and I’m proud of that, I was going to hire someone but I figured it out and saved myself some money. I also meditated and used some sage for the first time today it was peaceful. Tomorrow I’m going to see a Broadway show and dinner with a friend and I’m excited about that 
. Wishing you all a lovely weekend 
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Both are very much intertwined, on the opposite side of fear is the best moments in your life waiting to happen. We may feel fear but we do not have to give in to it. We can do whatever we
need and want to do, even if we have to
"do it afraid”. Courage is not the absence
of fear; it is action we take in the presence of fear.
The phrase “DO NOT BE AFRAID” Is in the bible 365 times, once for every day as a reminder!
Keep smashing those hours and days at a time
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I’m still here Callie, and love ya heaps too! You and many others here are like a second family to me, so much potential being collectively realized… It’s crazy how the butterfly effect works (read it up)! Lots of love ey 
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@rubyslippers sending strength 
@EFountains @SelfLove_42 and @PaigeTurner belated congrats on 30 days 
@Hopeful777 I really hope the pain eases up soon 
@Misokatsu happy sober birthday 
@Meme24 welcome 
congrats on day 1
@LAB congrats on 50+ days I hope you feel better soon
@Daisy49 congrats on 2 weeks
@IamThechange thats a powerful new name 
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@icebear have a great sober holiday
@Deep congrats on 2 weeks
@anon52066378 congrats on 3 weeks
@MsMotorista congrats on 90 days
@KodaMac welcome back
495 days no alcohol.
56 days no nicotine.
A catching up check-in.
I made it 2.5 days then have had to reset again because I used cocaine again yesterday and didn’t stop until a few hours ago. I don’t want this, at all. I need to be so much stronger. In therapy on Friday I spoke about the childhood sexual abuse and also when I was drugged and raped when I was 25. It’s really fkin hard talking about it. That left me wanting to use, I was strong all through the evening, and the night, despite not being able to sleep, but then in the morning it was like I was on auto-pilot and I picked up.
So today is day 1 again. I always feel so relieved when it’s all gone and I can start again. The shame of this relapsing is making me want to withdraw but I really want to stay connected here.
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357 days
Taking it easy as I mentioned yesterday, as still in lots of pain. Uncertainty about my Christmas camping trip due to virus, trying to keep positive, it’s hard. Just reading alot so not to dwell. It will pass this mood I know that, so no need to self-medicate @Clarity thank you, I am now cutting out coffee from 4pm, see how it helps. Tired of feeling tired.
Thinking of you @anon27760155
Wishing you all a good, sober day/night 
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Don’t withdraw, you can do this, I can only imagine the therapy is emotional in so many ways could you ask them for advice on coping mechanisms… oh delete numbers as well, make it as difficult as you can for yourself. We are her for you
And thank you, I hope it does as well, got so much to do.
Virtual hug sent your way Cam
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Day 541. Sorry i don’t answer to your replies, it takes so much energy for some reason. Energy I don’t have at the moment.
The moving company is picking up the moving boxes today. Finally. 100 moving boxes take a lot of space that needs to be organized. Then sell our old kitchen table. Clean a bit. That’s my big plans for today. Might not be able to get all of that done but lets see how far I’ll get.
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Lots you are doing! Have a good day! Hugs.
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Day 490
Have a nice day 
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Good Morning Paul. Amen. I can so relate to this post. Thanks for sharing. Good job on your recovery. I’m keeping the faith.
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Hi Kiki
Thank you for your service. I’m sure it’s very challenging especially in this pandemic. Blessings to you., Good job on 18 days. I Sage everyday…love it. 
See you around. Des
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Don’t withdraw Cam, we are here for you!!! You keep getting up and trying, that’s a huge thing, don’t stop! You’ve done this before end you can do it again! Sending hugs.
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Yesss another one to bookmark. Amen. Thank you!!!
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Sending strength and love Cam
There is strength in vulnerablilty. Sorry you had to go through such tramua. Sending you hugs.
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Checking in day 15.
At the start of my journey I was anxious about getting through Christmas Day and New Years Eve sober. Now Im thinking they are just another two days like any other days and I will not let my mind fool me into thinking that I need alcohol to enjoy them. I am enjoying the feeling of liberation from being AF and Im not giving that up.
Have a great Sunday everyone x
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No shame, we all are just sending love and strength. You always lift us all up, let us lift you. You have a lot to face and deal with, the only way to do that is sober.
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