Omg ur 2nd paragraph made me laugh Richard lol I always love your posts and comments. I can’t believe you have to do those tests 3x a week!!! Crazy! It was tough when I had to do it on myself lol I HATED it!! Ya so far I haven’t had many cravings which is very unusual to be honest 
I’m not going to think too hard about it tho cuz I like not having to struggle with that craving. I’ve been involving God into my life more and have been doing more work on myself lately, so maybe that’s why? Even when I get frustrated or sad or stressed my 1ST thought at the moment isn’t to use. It’s quite nice! I really hope your having an amazing day/night. Hope work is going well 
By the way… my morning was okay until the bank people called YET AGAIN lol (even after I have spoken to them recently about my payment plan on my credit card). She got a ear full this morning (in a respectful way… I didn’t even swear or anything lol… another positive of being clean and sober… I can vent respectfully). Conversation ended on a good note with me being annoyed. But the 1st thing I read was ur post and it made me laugh and reminded me to lighten up so thank you my friend!!!
Thanks for your support Tyler.
I can hear you when you say that you are hesitant about joining recovery groups. I hope you can hear me when I say that listening is the most important thing for you to do right now. You don’t need to talk, sitting in on meetings and being a part of, listening to how people have gotten back up after a relapse, feeling a sense of commonality with others… those are all things that could help you right now. Tools for your tool box. I barely shared at meetings my first year. Being openminded and willing to do whatever it takes is going to help you get to where you want to be. Keep your eyes forward my friend you don’t ever have to use again. 
Hey lady! Hope ur day is better today! If you ever wanna chat about things, feel free to message me I hate the days when everything is in a funk. Sometimes it’s nice to just chat with someone hugs 🫂
I just want to thank you… thank you for being you! And thank you for reminding me about my struggles with the 3rd day! I actually kind of forgotten about that! I could NEVER get past 3 days before and now it’s not an issue. But I appreciate you showing me and reminding me that I have made progress. Literally I feel like I owe it to all of u. Yes I did the work but I couldn’t have gotten where I am today without TS 
Hope ur doing well my friend!!
Checking in day 17
Feeling a bit tired today
Covid is spreading fast in some country, so stay safe guys
Wish you a good night
My positive thoughts and prayers are with you right now… diabetes can be scary but it can be managed and you CAN live a long life. My mom has diabetes and she initially needed to take medication. Overtime she was able to alter her diet and get mild exercise in through walking and now she doesn’t have to take meds or injections anymore. Diet changes can be tough 
it’s hard… and getting into the habit of exercise etc can be daunting… but one day at a time, just like recovery I’m really rooting you for my friend. Keep posting and taking it one step at a time!
Congratulations!! How exciting that ur coming up to triple digits!! Woo hoo!
Wow congrats Cindy!!! This is amazing!!!
After some researching, I’m pretty sure that this is not the same sister that has a drinking problem. Sorry, I was just getting a little concerned. I’m glad you’re doing well.
That’s awesome news that you’re not thinking about using as a 1st port of call. I hope that continues.
Work is done for the day now so home to relax (if that’s even possible with 4 kids).
Pleased that I made you smile and have a chuckle. Love the positivity of u being able to rant coherently and be able to use better vocabulary. I always find most advisors are shocked when you don’t rant, rave and swear and it catches them off guard which amuses me.
Hope all the banking stuff gets sorted quickly for you, that way you can be settled for Xmas.
Have a wonderful day lovely lady 
Day 3
Later on in the late afternoon I will be at day 4. Feels great!!! Something is different this time around. I have had very few cravings, and if I do they are mild. Jeeze I hope it stays that way… but realistically it probably won’t, so trying to make sure that I prepare myself for them. I was taught in therapy and treatment many years ago to start using the tools that I have when I am not in dire need of using them… that way I form a habit and it then becomes easier to use the tools when I really need them (when I’m in incredible distress or extremely triggered). I know from past experience that I tend to think irrationally when I’m craving drugs and it’s much harder for me to remember what I can do to help me get thru those moments. As an addict, it used to be natural for me to want to go that route for “relief”, but I feel like it’s slowly becoming more natural for me to NOT want to use. And I love this 
I’m so glad to be here and to be apart of TS. Hope everyone has an addiction free 24 hours! 🫂
During my years of my recovery, I’ve craved a lot. And from watching some others around me, I got the message that craving is normal; that it’s a part of recovery. Well, I understand now that craving is really, really bad for me. When I crave, I’m placing value on my addiction. Why crave something that has no value? I hope I never crave again, but if I ever do, I’ll need to reach out and find ways to remind myself that the cravings won’t stop until I stop the craving. Because once it’s in my head, it’s only a matter of time when my cravings manifest themselves via my behavior. That’s just how it works for me and I’ve had to learn that the hard way.
And I’m celebrating day 57 today
I have to thank you Kevin because ever since you mentioned in a post sometime ago about addiction having no value, not serving any purpose whatsoever in life, I have held onto those phrases. I tell that to myself often actually and it helps! What you say makes sooo much sense. It truly serves no purpose in life and the “idea” that it does… is a lie. But u also now bring up another point… about craving. "When I crave, I am placing value on my addiction "… this is a very interesting thought. I’ve never thought of it like that. But again… ur right! I’ve always loved your insight and I always appreciate your advice and suggestions thank you so much!
Also… a huge congratulations on your 57th day! 
Way to go Cindy.
That first month down!!
This is HUGE.
Keep up the great work.
Checking in on day 1143.
I wish everyone a good and sober day!
Day 68. Much love
Checking in. Doing okay today.
@KevinesKay you can appreciate the awkward situation that sometimes happens.
Went to get my booster ask me to scan a QR code…uh oh…MY INTERNET IS BLOCKED ON MY PHONE… RuRoh…sir if you can just scan this code… you can fill this out online…"um mam I can’t… see I’ve been addicted to porn for 20 years and I’m 100% done with it… it’s just that my internet is 100% blocked and I can’t use the internet on my phone sorry. " now of course I didn’t say that…I just had to act like I couldn’t get my phone to work… oh these tricky devices!!! 
akward but hey… its all good. I’m just happy they were able to use a separate tablet and not literally grabbed my phone only to see it is 100% blocked! All good!!! Just wanted to share my akward story.