Thanks so much, Cam. I didn’t scream, but I went in my closet and paced until I collapsed in a torrent of sobbing. I don’t even know how I had that many tears in me. I’m feeling better, so a good meltdown is what I needed.
Your mum and mine share a birthday. I can only imagine how tough it is to not have her around. I hope you know she’s still with you. Let yourself cry. Much love to you. 
Thanks so much, Tracey. I was telling someone earlier that I have a difficult time when I need to vent. I immediately think about how petty my issues are. I think about anger, like happiness, being contagious, and I never want to trigger someone to anger with my venting. I think too much sometimes. 
Day 35
Beautiful Day to be Alive and Sober. I’m leaving all my addiction baggage in 2021.
My Endgame: A clean 2022 + 50 lbs lost. Let’s go! Everyone have a beautiful day.
Vent away. There is power in it. We relate and are here to support .,
Double Digits!!
Hi @SelfLove_42 . I second that. Leaving all Baggage in 2021. Sober and free 2022. Amen:purple_heart:
Sometimes you do just need to get it off your chest, and this is a great place to do it. I’ve journaled for the past 20 years. While that was fine, it’s just one way communication. I need to journal my non sense to others to help me appreciate …
a) i’m not crazy
b) I am crazy, but this too shall pass. 
c) i’m not alone, far from alone
That why i love talking sober. Everyone is on a journey to better themselves to be the best version of themselves. While we aren’t therapists, it helps to have someone who’s been there.
Day 32! Hey all. Christmas is almost here. Feeling good. Started online day treatment program. Yesterday were tips on early recovery. Thankful for another tool.
Really happy for the New Year…leaving old things behind the past is gone I’ve been carrying around a truck load of garbage for tooooo long. I release that…now…serves me No good. As I learn to love myself I’m realizing I am not garbage I don’t deserve garbage I deserve the best. I release all of the abusive negative words said to me by my children’s father and any one else in my life . I forgive myself for allowing them and believing them
Great day all. Love this community.
First Vacation sinces the 1980’s!!! Wow you are way overdue!! Have a great time!!
“I am crazy, but this too shall pass.” Thanks bunches! That made me laugh out loud. 
Ultimately, I know that getting it off my chest helps - I need to practice what I preach when it comes to this.
I have been there, 100% I also am at Day 35. When i had my last setback is when i started coming on here more. @KevinesKay introduced me to the Easy Peazy method of quitting my addiction. Honestly it changed my life. One thing i learned was how powerful that brainwashing we tell ourselves is that pushes us right back to our addiction. Once we identify and shine a light on that thinking, We expose it as to what it truly is: A FALSE NARRATIVE THAT BRINGS US NOTHING BUT PAIN. Once you expose that thinking, and get good at exposing it, you look up and it’s been 35 days! I go over my notes every few weeks to make sure i’m not ‘Over confident’. But i will no longer allow that brainwashing to dictate things. There is no healing from relapsing, it only creates a bigger void, more negative feelings, and keeps us trapped in self pity and sadness. I’M DONE WITH ALL OF THAT NONSENSE! @LuluOnTheBridge You are doing great. Let’s push forward our streaks to 60, 90 and eventually 365 days!
Hey all, checking in on day 556. I hope everybody has a good one!
B. For sure B. Lol…
Love this as an option …
Morning all, checking in on 37. Seems like it’s getting a bit easier daily, body and head recouping a little bit. Still have this panicky almost depressed feeling when I start thinking too far ahead and realize holy shit I really can’t drink anymore. But I guess even though it sounds cliche, that’s why people say just take everything one day at a time. Have a great day people.
Just one breath at a time, as an addict/alcoholic i can remember always taking on too much at once trying to do too much all the time. Now im learning to just take it easy and do what i have to and make in through the day clean/sober. Seasons greetings! 
everyone have a safe and productive day, happy holidays and a merry Christmas. 
79 days AF It’s dark, grey and very cold out but I’m not letting that get me down 
I’m poring me another stiff coffee and off to work I go.
@StarK31 
Congratulations Kiki!!! 21 days and you made a very hard decision to adios someone out of your life who was not good for you!! I know it was very hard but sometimes making the harder better choices and taking the harder better road will get you to the better life you deserve. I’m so happy for you!!
@IamThechange 
Congrats on your double digit victory!! Try to enjoy that even in the difficult day you have ahead. Love and hugs as you deal with the family health issues:heart:
@CATMANCAM I’m so proud of you for flushing that poison down the toilet
@LuluOnTheBridge thanks so much for your honesty and sharing this. Today is a new day, you are strong and coming here to share is huge. Looking forward to seeing you here again. You were missed. (I remember your posts from when I first came here here in August) 
Way to go getting rid of him! U DO deserve better. There is no way that someone so toxic can ever be good for someone’s recovery. Proud of you for sitting with those feelings and working thru them instead of drinking. Huge accomplishment I think! Hope your days to come are filled with so much more positivity and love
Love this post! Can I get an idea of what the Easy Peazy method is? Day 4 for me today and id like to learn whatever I can to keep the momentum going 
Day 558 clean and sober and day 5 no social media. Have a great day today, love you guys!!! 
