@BostonGirl you’ve got this
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Checking in, 423 days without alcohol, 5 days without nicotine. I’m quite swamped by work and other stuff, so much is going on, but I’m still here in reading mode, trying to catch up with the posts, rooting for everyone.
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Yay! We got this!
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Checking in!
Still Day 5
Productive day so far! But… I didn’t go to my usual NA meeting online that I like to attend at 11am. I can always jump in on another one after my grocery shopping. I went thru all my bath related self care stuff, facial masks, lotions etc. Got a ton of self care things for Christmas so needed to organize that and got that done. Found my NA daily reflections book which I am so excited about! And my mini Big Book… from 2009!! Cant believe I still have it! I had a normal sized Big Book that I wrote in when my old sponsor took me through the steps a LONG time ago, but this one will do for now. Going to start reading the Doctors opinion for the big book thread that’s on here. Can’t wait to read it again! I also am quite proud of myself right now. Both our cable and phone bills were extremely behind the past few months due to using… we were literally at the verge of being cut off. By Jan 10th our phone bill will be at $0 and by Jan 25th our cable bill will be at 0$. Then it will be about keeping up and maintaining our bills, which is quite easy to do when I’m not spending anywhere from $120-$300 every time I use. So being clean has not only given me freedom from addiction but freedom from financial stress 
I’m really relieved that our bills are almost caught up!
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Workplace PTSD is real - I have this. If I hadn’t had the experience of previously having good workplaces and knowing I am great at my job from that, I would be completely eroded. Hang in there - micro aggressions and bullying are real. Key is to remember - this is a job, it isn’t your life. And that people with small egos are the ones who try and make themselves feel better by doing others down.
Counseling and CBT worksheets to help me figure out what was happening and how to respond (or not) made a huge difference for me, to not just heal but strengthen my ability to navigate my workplace, fwiw.
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Checking in knowing I won’t drink in 2022. My counter will keep on counting. I have the greatest group in TLC and sit in on 3-4 meetings a day. Getting a job would really put a damper on that. The charcuterie biz hit a major hiccup, but that’s not the primary biz anyhoo.
There are just too damn many twos in this year to not live every moment of it. My words of the year (because like an outlaw, I don’t follow rules) are Magnify and Act. This year I am taking massive action on the knowledge that I have flowing within me. I have always just kinda been a scrapper with my businesses.
This year, I become a true empty nester. I have no spouse or partner and kiddo #2 is off to college in August. So, I need to have enough money to travel anywhere I want, whenever I want.
I think I will pop back in to the gratitude thread because I am feeling hell-a grateful.
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CONGRATS!!
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Good shit Dan. Well done. 
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Day 556. My previiojs flat apparently has damage from cat pee on the floor so byebye few thousand or more euros since it might have to be all taken out and redone. Ironically I have ended up paying more for these cats than their legal owner.
So stressed. This financial burden of the surgery and now tje floor is so overwhelming. I don’t have the money but I will get through this, sober. It’s just so much these past couple of months. Being dumped, moving, focus issjes, not being able to visit family and bekng alone for 3 weeks in this apartment, cat almost dying and paying for an expensive surgery, drama with cat owner, now the flooe and getting my periods in a few days… Intense two months.
Just give me a break. Just a small one.
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Hi Alison,
Thank you for such lovely words. In response to your question No it’s not just you and yes I feel the same.
I will always offer my support to anyone, however there were some in my circle who seemed to just take advantage of my kind nature and their “Friendship” was a one way street.
I’m glad I have now got the clarity of mind to see them for what they were and they are now firmly in my past and will not play any part in my future, unlike some people in here who I am bonding with and can see friendships being formed with mutual benefit!
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Day 240. 1st workout of 2022 after a couple of days off. 3 days into a cut phase with a goal of 1.6 lbs/week for 12 weeks. I’m hungry and leg day sucks again lol. Crazy to think I’m on the cusp of 8 months sober. To all newcomers, welcome! Stick with it. It works if you work it.
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All I can say is I 100% understand all of this. XXOO
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Whoop:tada: Whoop
Here you go Dan: 
days!! Congratulations!!
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Checking in on day 64, tomorrow I’m back to work, and I can honestly say I am more than happy that the fucking X-mas holidays are over.
I don’t want to see anymore ads on TV announcing that alcohol-happy-life-is-better-with-booze message! 
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@Mosimu5 congrats on 90+ days I managed to quit vaping by using 0mg nicotine liquid for the last 2 weeks before I quit.
@Butterflymoonwoman thank you 
@Sobrietyadventurer congrats on 60 days
@Hopeful777 thank you love the beach photo 
@Dan531 congrats on 800 days
@Pica congrats on 2 weeks
@KevinesKay congrats on 70 days
@Deep congrats on double digits
@SC-ptsd congrats on your week
@Jonachav123 welcome back 
511 days no alcohol.
72 days no nicotine.
10 days no binge-eating.
3 days no cocaine.
Have slept for most of the day. Did manage to go out to get groceries though. Urges have thankfully been very minimal today so I’m grateful for that.
Really anxious because my cats are both booked in at the groomers first thing tomorrow. Wolfie because he has a clump of matting, and Prince just to trim his claws because he won’t let me do it at all bless him, so I’m not looking forward to the battle to get them in their carriers but atleast I don’t have to starve then.
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Checking in at the end of day 365.
One year of sobriety today. 
It could never have happened without this forum. Every word of encouragement. Every shared experience that made me realise I’m not alone. Every success. Every failure.
Even if I don’t interact with you, I read pretty much every post.
Thank you.
I never imagined life could be like this.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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4 years is incredible! Congrats and keep it up! 
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Day 49 here, round 1023 or so of getting clean&sober.
Not even mad at myself.
I didn’t lose all the knowledge, friendships and lessons just because I relapsed. I simply wasn’t done making breaking my own heart, abandoning my true calling and wasn’t ready to honor adulting… I guess.
I’ve cried oceans of tears this week. Accepting, or trying to accept without shame, all I’ve done, not done and ignored over these last three years before I walked into treatment , for the 10th time, November 15, 2021.
I’m so sad about the men (2 to be exact) that I chased after and the blindness I had when looking at them. They saw my weakness’ and preyed on me. (Not with an ‘a’) and then made me feel bad and wrong for being an open, honest and loving person. Lol! I was made to feel like the bad guy because I wasn’t a bad enough guy. (Body shuttering over this realization)
And this entire three years I have four children (now 18, 10, 8 and 6) whom were taken away from me for damn good reasons and I kept chasing these undeserving men and not really thinking about my babies! Sick. That’s crazy sick 
n the head down to the heart. Yuck.
But God …
God took me in… Broken down woman, hurt , wounded, abandoned, bruised by trauma and unspeakable acts… God opened the doors to the right place, the right people, a beautiful home and all without the stress of needing to work and pay up.
Why God continues to provide is beyond me and I’m not gonna get stuck there wondering why. I’ll gladly accept and keep going.
Conclusion…
Left to my own devices I’ll fuck it up every time.
Surrendering to my spiritual creator and higher power, doing the next right thing, even if it’s difficult…then I get to live a life in gratitude.
In this small amount of time Ive seen my children (3 youngest after not seeing them for 685 days), I’m entrusted with a key and a room to myself in a beautiful home with a beautiful family, I e had the courage to release the two men who used me up and spit me out, made some wonderful and authentic new friendships AND I get to live life consistent and feel good about myself each day.
I’m so grateful for this app. For each one of you. Grateful for Jesus who died on that cross for me. And I’m hopeful to live in acceptance and surrender the remaining seasons of my life.
Love ya’ll
I’ll take another 24.
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Its good to see you back man. I tried the same it definitely wasn’t long before I started stumbling even tried some new drugs my relapse, honestly sobriety seems harder this time for me then when I first got sober but I’ll keep pushing and taking it how it is, much love
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